soul purifier,mind filter,body detoxifier

therapy

2009-02-19T15:35:00.007Z

finally..ive found d recipe for mochi-daifuku.daifuku yg slalu me n hana cari everytime pegi 7-11.byk flavors plak tu.pandan,choco,vanilla,peanut butter,red beans and black beans..wallaa..kaya laa org yg buat mochi-daifuku tu kl ari2 singgah 7-11..rs die?hmm rs2nye..its like drier,chewwier,kuih koci wit mooncake's nutty sweet fillings.i dun hv 30 mins laa kak chef,i wasted it for this vid.ouh well..moving on..

extreme..sungguh extreme cara pembuatan mochi ni.pakcik mmg terer la main acah2 cmtu.hmm sure super soft n chewwy rs die.nak2 sambil mkn dgn 7-up free.lyanaaa..buatkn plss

- ape kejadahnye semua ini?!oo yess..syndrome lagi-1hr-to go-b4 buka :):)
- i dgr ketukan frm kithen downstairs.harapnye sedap laa dinner mlm ni..
- congrats kpd etul n cham for their baby girl, yg blum sempat i g visit.instead i made this..sambil bc report ye :p

jalan itu slippery

2009-02-10T16:59:00.004Z

Lagu baru ini adalah curahan hati
Dimohon jangan tertawa

Aku pengen kurus
Punya badan seksi dan terurus
Aku pengen kurus
Perut six pack tanpa selulit dan mulus

gue ngaku gue gendut pengen kurus
badan penuh selulit udah kagak mulus
tapi kagak kuat cuma makan ayam kukus
olahraga suka males harapan pun pupus

bangun pagi cara cemilan cari jajanan
tiap dua jam laper cari makanan
jam 6 sampe 11 masih sarapan
pengen punya perut six pack tinggal harapan

bukan salah mcd atau KFC
gue sendiri buat perut gendut seksi
makan terus tak terasa tak terdeteksi
rasa kenyang berlebihan jadi obsesi

lama-lama berat nambah gak karuan
udah susah berubah mau pindah haluan
udah seporsi masih kagak cukup
gak pake nasi, akh laper ga nutup

Aku pengen kurus
Punya badan seksi dan terurus
Aku pengen kurus
Perut six pack tanpa selulit dan mulus

Segala macem cara udah dicoba
Untuk bisa buat diri gw berubah
Ikut fitnes, rajin olahraga
Tapi abis itu makan malah nambah

Hipnotis kalah sama hipnotis iklan
Restoran goreng daging sama ikan
Gimana gw mo bisa fokus sama niat
Kalau rasa laper berontak menggeliat

Ok coba duduk, enggak makan
hmpp, Tukang bakmie ayam lewat di hadapan
Udah murah, ceban bisa dua porsi
Langsung loncat secepat kilat dari korsi

Bang, kering kagak pake sambel
2 porsi mienya, minta yang tebel
Pake saos banyak sama daun bawang
Gimana mau kurus, gimana dong abang

Aku pengen kurus
Punya badan seksi dan terurus
Aku pengen kurus
Perut six pack tanpa selulit dan mulus

Aku pengen kurus
Jangan cuma ngomong doang, ayo diet diet
Aku pengen kurus
Jangan cuma ngomong doang, ayo diet diet
Aku pengen kurus
Jangan cuma ngomong doang, ayo diet diet

Aku pengen kurus
Punya badan seksi dan terurus
Aku pengen kurus
Perut six pack tanpa selulit dan mulus

- curhat yg ada kaitan dgn yg masih hidup dan yg masih duduk di dpn laptop.eventho punya insight tp motivasinya ga ada.then protein diet je laa!!
- kelaparan ciken,comp yg dipenuhi virus,antivirus yg 'meninggikn' lg threshold pengeluaran curses.report yg perlu disiapkn...hari yg sesuai for saykojimusic :)

XXL

2009-02-03T23:45:00.004Z

sj postkn dis clip bcoz dis song reminds me of my college days.back when me n hana 1st fall in love with this band.strangely enuf,dis song keeps remind me of dis ipoh guy with vintage grey merc yg pnah i 'kluar' dgn bck in college.myb bcoz dis song exist in d same period or myb jez so happened they came from d same 'kampung'.guys,take note : statement.."u jual kereta to get a new car ke.i xpyh jual,i bli je"..is not a good catch phrase dat u can use to evryone.kl i tgh minum smoothies pulp perisa 'skinny bitch',dh lame tersembur dpn muka abg ipoh mali tu.hmm until now i still cant figure out what exactly happened to us.myb i wasnt ready since gap yg agak horror for me at dat time.18 n 23.theres a 'grand canyon' over there.to think dat i was just 'a kid' at d time,mmg fun time btul.aftr a prodromal period,both silentmilent,then he suddenly went poof,vanish from d face of d earth.well doesnt matter..he's prolly married by now,anak tiga..n myb already owned a car retail shop.wallaa..

- "ko x rs ko loser ke hani?"..kl yg ni,TAK!
- happy bday amira!!

saya di sini

2009-01-28T23:32:00.002Z

- dedicated to those who's in bereavement..:p
- to someone oso..cuba utk tidak cari psal anymore.
- insyaAllah..weee..

oust it!

2009-01-10T11:07:00.002Z

im a shellfish beach.shellfish yg xde teliga sbb bz sgt dgn citer sendiri.most prolly my eardrum yg sebesar 1/4 1cent coin ni allergic kot dgn 'siaran ulangan'.myb i hmm..ana kata myb subconciously kite ade issues with each other.yeke..issue ape tu?xde pon.or myb her story mcm agak memenatkn utk didgr.xpon myb my sis yg tuan punya cerita tu masuk dlm list 'air dicincang xkan putus'.
myb btul kate my dearest sis,u mmg kejam la ani.cruel smp sambil ana citer her 'prob' i bole buat keje.i told her to wait n cont.n bile i dh get bck on d ym call,i bole dgn sesuka ati dgn sensitiviti yg agak rendah,i buka citer lain.citer yg xde kaitan dgn hidup n mati i,apetah lg ana.
hmm silap besar..makanya..i berjaya membuat my only big sis menangis,yet again,on d phone.ok..kl still xrs guilty mmg xtau nk ckp ape kn.but but..in my defense,i was..aahh..sorry byk kali pon no use.percuma aja!org dh marah n stress kot for d xms yg bertindih2 tu.its better for me to leave her melayan perasaan marah die tu..i tot..tp tgn i xdgr ape yg dlm kepala i tu.so i call lg.ckp sorry n kne marah lg.bile kne marah lg i plk jd emo,so now..masa utk burst.huhu..malu mmg malu kl nk cerita hal adik beradik kembar yg gaduh xabes2 ni.but tu laa die..i cried bcoz i know wat she said abt me is true.ssh btul nk jd a gud listener.i kate i'll try harder,she sed,u'll nvr learn ani.pape je laa..last2 aftr 3 calls n spt memujuk anak kucing,maka both of us tidak bergaduh lg.kata ana,i'd rather hv a sister who cnt listen dat well than having no sis at all..awww..sweet n spicy too :p

- luv u sis!!

i like green

2008-12-27T03:36:00.001Z

Demi masa!
Sesungguhnya manusia dalam kerugian,
Kecuali orang-orang yang percaya, dan membuat kerja-kerja kebaikan,
dan saling berwasiat pada yang benar, dan saling berwasiat untuk bersabar.
(103:1-3)

- need prescriptn for my heart n soul.insyaAllah sy cuba lebih baik lg.jgn judge sy dgn ketidakpemergian sy.motivasi masih diperlukn.

refluxology

2008-12-26T12:25:00.004Z

“Aku merasa ada yang hilang, tanpa tahu apa yang sudah aku temukan.
Aku merasa menemukan tanpa tahu apa yag aku cari dan aku seperti masih mencari tanpa tahu apa yg sudah hilang..- alia in CINTA PERTAMA

complicated (yet hopelessly in love) minds cn be soo romantic.n yet their d ones who seems to suffer or gaining nothing in d end.unless they publish some books or come up with meltedcheesy lines for tear-jerker loveydovey movies..alia alia,knape xjd more grateful.redha je xbole ke.u'd feel much more content n peaceful.Allah je yg tau wats best for us.aisshh..kamuuu ni..

but ibunda kata,honesty is not always d best policy.it is a gud policy,but use it when appropriate..

- tall,fair n gud english ~lalala

i need mentos...yg yellow

2008-12-24T21:19:00.009Z

sometimes i do think too much.but the outcome usually d sum of everythg gathered by my 5 senses yg hanya berligar dlm radius yg sgt limited.all d "problems" or "issues" yg i slalu "pop up"n mmg pttnya i "pop-up block"kn dgn sumthg yg obvious lebih penting.tp tu laa.im not alone.ianya berlaku di mn2.sila rujuk status YM atau FB.dr masalah kewangan,study..masalah mkn pon ade..but tu laa yg obvious masih yg obvious.eh i bkn nk ckp psal status YM.sorry not my intention.tp..ade mslh tu kite kne rujuk juga..for example msalah loneliness.berlaku bila mn rakan2 anda tiada di rumah tinggalkn anda tanpa jagaan sosial n mental.trying times..i noee..sbbaik anda masih taf..YM and FB masih dihujung jari.maka..hmm ape laa sgt dgn masalah 'kesepian', fill it dgn buat lagu ke..myb bole beat akon's mr's lonely..ooppss..but tu laa,easier said than done.paku serpih btul i ni.but itu yg try to remind myself.tp bgslaa..expressive.but sila bila org tanye eh awk ni knape?pls jgn laa kate xde pape.or u wont understd.nobody will but seme mmg busybody.kisah hidup org lain yg selevel dgn kita adalah "bible" hidup kita juga.boleh berubah mengikut kesesuaian.hmm rs dis topic kne masuk dlm organic bag.well...there r plenty of other things in the world to ponder on than those thoughts we think we shud think.wat else..study la kn.ouh n i think tmrw i nk masak asam pedas salmon.
- ahh..sukenye tgk malique ni.hmm y 'd past' buat hal plak..aishh..dh2

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i called mama to talk abt sumthg but we end up talked abt totally different topic.mama n her impian for my wedding,haihh.."mama tgh kemas2 ni nk naik KL.acik nk buat fam day kt bukit cerakah"(bukit cerakah?)hmm miss d annual fam day.esp kl acik yg organise.miss d cabutan bertuah utk merebut hadiah berupa set tupperware,set non stick pans from warta,frames n stationary sets etc..but before cabutan bertuah mesti ade ari sukan between families (yg i jarang dpt join, jez pt tgk in d fam albums) n mama abah jd judge.abah selaku pengerusi majlis aka pembaca doa @perasmi event jd pemerhati je.cabutan bertuah abah jgk la yg mencabutnya.kl me n hana dpt cabutan bertuah kne boo sbb kononnya mama abah pilih kasih.cucu kesygan nk buat cm mn.kne laa accept.alaa dpt frames je..i mmg slalu xbajet dpt anythg in any lucky draw pon.its ok,selagi hadiah bkn berbtk audi a4 or black rexton,i xkesah..

- proud of farah n deanna who scored 5A's in UPSR.waahh..terer la korg.kne laa kak na kak ni blikn presents.neddy n aisyah..hopefully they do us proud too for PMR rslt tmrw.
- "toot toott..hello aslkm dr fadhilah ke tu?sy puan siti nurbaiyah dr bentong.mcm ni dr..sy diundang ke satu majlis ni yg rs sy ramai laa yg nk pegi.sy pon plan nya nk pegi laa dgn persatuan kawasan sy ni.jd dh plan punya plan..last2 min sy rs sy xdpt pegi laa doktor krn mslh peribadi.mslhnya doktor..sy ssh nk explain knape sy x bole pegi kt kwn2 sy yg dh plan tu.bknnye ape..kl ikut plannya sy perlu ada.bt sy xdpt.mcm mn sy nk break d news doktor?sy rs bersalah n sy takut nnt diorg xdpt terima reason sy yg berunsur selfish ni.tp tu laa sy tak bersedia nk pergi rombongan tu.so datuk rs ape yg sy ptt buat dlm situasi sy ni datuk?"

tadika kristal seksyen 6

2008-12-21T23:21:00.007Z

- "u see dat helly?dats u flying it".."no its not,dats a girl!" "not its not?okla2 its me then" "yeah its u.." ouh cmon,u pantene hair u..:p
- "draw me a pirate hat...no2..dats not a pirate hat.dats a cowboy hat!!" aishh muaz ni.im trying!!hmm cmne ehh nk draw pirate hat?need sum serious doodling consultation..

im not as taf

2008-12-15T07:51:00.003Z

- aaa byknye kne buat.a week of anxiety disorder.i'll try to be strong.i love me :)
- hmm i need a BUZZ!! a black buzz!!tun tgh buat ape?
- seminar day!!ishh..seronoknyee jd cikgu!!

netbook n green teas

2008-12-13T00:34:00.007Z

SIGHH.. today i terpaksa whine.whine yg berharkat pjg.n i regret that whining comes with several curses.astaghfirullah..started when i dh nervous abt my case reports (sukenyee).n dgn nervousness yg bak kate didi.."hmm mlas nk ckp ngn hani dh"..i mule rs hmm xpe ..i cn do it.i dh start dh buat half of 1 of 3 cases.n then tibe2 td bile i nk cont,dgn tenang hatinye i bkk netbook,words..poof..gone..i dunno which land it landed,which rubbish bin it got into, n wic dog ate it..but hilang.sdeynyeeeee..rs mcm..mcm..aaa..weak..sebbaik my sis ade.sebbaik ana remind her mak enon sister to selawat byk2.tk a deep breath.smileee..distract myself from thinking.dun think jez do it.maka aftr afew therapeutic raya songs(seriously it helps!),berbekalkn doa penerang hati,i calm blk.thx ana kesygn beta for comforting me eventho u bz wit xms.org yg berusaha insyaAllah dpt hasil kn ana.anyway, i nk jd nocturnal mlm ni.br byk hasil tangkapan.

- cnt wait for next wkend.but xpe i bole sbar.so pls God.d most merciful..make more time for me :) berusaha2!!

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cik cahcomel askum.konpem dh.tiket blk aku jum dpan,kol 6 bertolak from dublin,then
smp msia 7.10 pg next day.hehe.cuak lak tetibe ;p
cik HB aaaa...serious?!cptnyee!!sdey..!!!
cik cahcomel ko buat laa taebo sengsorang skrg.huhu

- sygnye ngn cik cahcomel.eventho jarang dpt spend time but bile spend time together rs fun je.hmm cik diya-lowtone kate.."kl ko sdey aku yg hsemt die lg terase"...hmm btul jgk.kesian diorg...kesian kitorg cik cahcomel.i hope we'd still keep in touch n never lose our frenship till d end.wish we had spend more time 2gether.aa gonna miss u n ur dishes :(:( gudluck darling!nnt blk jumpe!!
- cnt send her to d airport.aaa..dem u case presentation!!

-sori laa.So7 sgt synonym ngn hidup i.for u cik cahcomel :)

natural look..like cherry..

2008-12-10T16:45:00.007Z

awww...i jez love cute kids.esp those who cn defies sumone like cox...a straight shooter..gee..mcm nadzmi my 4yo cuz yg sgt la notty itu.hmm miss chatting with him sambil main jig puzzle or badminton.he nvr fail to amaze me with wat cm out frm his mouth..like.."bagaimana perasaan ibu skrg?gembira?" -aftr giving his mom a quick back massage to avoid being 'bash' for tsunami-ing d hse..
aww dun u jez love intelligent cute kids..buuut..plss not d ones with tantrums i cnt handle.well myb anak sndiri ok kot..
hmm mcm mn la mama handle twins mcm kitorg ni dlu.ouh yeah now i rmmber..d treatments me n hana used to get when we still in d phase of 'killing each other' - lock in our room,silent therapy for a few hrs.tv tgk ikut tingkap.n byk kali laa rs selipar.hangers jgn kate,hahaa..kne dera?eh xlaa..mmg kne la kn,kl ikut threshold org biase pon xtahan.

- skrg dh baik dh.like cik pulut ckp aritu,bile dh besar ni,rs lg senyap.ouh yess..u become quieter,compare dlu2,uve reached milestones..if silence is golden pulut,uve make a millionaire by now.

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dis is kuih chang.me,hana n ibu's fav.adlh satu kewajipan for us to find kuih chang evrytime blk melaka.dlu when d pasar tani at d old site,snng nk cr makcik tu.but now since they moved d pasar to another modern building yg ade escalator, ssh plak nk jumpe.mn ntah makcik tu ilang.makcik ilang,kuih chang n nasi gunting pon hilang.ya makanya..kne depand on abah yg slalu successful in finding things dat we want to eat.sayaaaanng abah!!kuih chang ni baba nyonya punye actly.dumpling yg mkn ngn air gula melaka.slalunye kitorg beli smp 2-3 ikat.like mom like daughters mknnye.satu ikat brp ntah.xpnah pk hargenye.hmm kuih koci pon sdap.sedap die dpends on how sweet d inti is.i suke yg crunchy2 sket n xske yg dry.mama's fav too.aunty bedah mmg jd kesygan mama evrytime blk melaka sbb kuih koci laa,ahaha..well kl xde seme tu..makanya, our second fav bfast are usually mcm biase, nasi lemak ngn kangkung goreng yg jarang jumpe kt KL.kl xde jgk??mkn biskut buku keras or biskut hupseng cicah kopi or nescafe pnas..sambil2 tu ade jgk laa lempeng mama ngn sambal ikan bilis,wallaa..kami famili encik ismail adalah keluarga yg sgt bahagia bila time mkn kt rumah mama :)

- haiipp..watch ur sugar,sweet-toothie!!

not totally crap n rubbish

2008-12-08T17:11:00.008Z

STUFF AND NONSENSE ~ Missy Higgins
Disobey my own decisions
I deserve all your suspicions
First it's yes and then it's no
I dilly dally down to duo
But I've got no secrets that I babble in my sleep
I won't make promises to you that I can't keep
And you know that I love you
Here and now not forever
I can give you the present
I don't know about the future
That's all stuff and nonsense
I once lived for the future
Every day was one day closer
Greener on the other side
Yes I believed before I met you
But I soon learned your love burned brighter than the stars in my eyes
Now I know how and when, I know where and why
And you know that I love you
Here and now not forever
I can give you the present
I don't know about the future
That's all stuff and nonsense

~ tis sweet song i stamp-sealed,with rubber stamp 'HEART' shape ,to cik farah :)
- hmm cudnt find d mp3.dh cr atas bwh dh :s

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today passing by sooo quickly.sila tekan butang slow motion X3.dh la d whole morning sleepy tahap sloth.bj kurung biru berkilat yg i pkai pon xmampu menceriakan diri,xtau laa org lain.walking through csi pon felt different.felt like sumthg missing.miss intan n d others kot ke i miss letterkenny?huahua..but dgn bangganya i survived d whole day without any hormones-asso behaviour.so..yeayy!gud timing,my neurones suddenly terexcited plak tgh2 cardiology seminar jez now.mcm abg zan ckp.. "renjatan!!" yooshh,onurmatgesetgo!!

- its almost 2weeks now dat penghuni Rumah Supersocial 'candle-light dinner' in d kitchen.uuu..kaya tauke lilin nmpknye..so we turn to tv-light n studylamp-light dinner.n kdg2 kitchen-hood light dinner juge..sweet kn :)

waktu yg tepat

2008-12-07T10:12:00.004Z

Ahad 9 Zulhijjah - HARI ARAFAH,SUNAT MUAKKAD KITA BERPUASA; MAKSUD HADITH RIWAYAT IMAM MUSLIM & IBN HIBBAN DRP HADITH ABU QATADAH BHAWA RASULULLAH BERSABDA ; " BERPUASA PD HARI ASYURA AKAN MENGAKAFARAHKAN DOSA SETHN(SBLMNYA. MANAKALA PUASA HARI ARAFAH AKAN MENGKAFARAHKAN DOSA 2 THN; SETAHUN SEBLMNYA & SETHN SLPSNYA YG AKAN DTG"

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha :)

- myb abit late.but xpe la,nxt yr myb,insyaAllah :)
- lame sgt??ok la ok la..next monday eh.terigt plak en hassan,d chatty kuwaiti,with his questions ala2 syllabus pendidikan islam darjah 3.rs nk percuss je his head.

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im learning to let go.still learning.
- another patah hati song for cik pulut :)
- old song la tp.SO7 ROCKS!! :p

fizik spm : lampu pijar

2008-12-06T23:15:00.008Z

- ok now THIS makes me longing for it even MORE!!ehh..no no..not dat specky gadget freak guy.the OMNIA!!

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pnat kn bile dgr org mengeluh je.its a lil bit tiring jgk laa.n annoying too kn cik lyana..hmm wat do we get if we keep sighing eh?esp kl in public i.e. ym status,fbook status or wicever means of 'wide broadcastings'..ape eh?serious..ni soalan btul ni..mybeee kite dpt

a) BUZZ! "hi dear,wats wrong?wat happened?"...jom minum
b) kurangkn berat beban yg tersarat..oo no no bkn lemak..problems la..well by sharing ur clouds n pull whoever comes near under ur pitch dark cloud - d more d merrier.n more ppl cn look for ur silver lining .
c) time.a method of buying time.use when ur speechless.out of words.blank.blurr.lack of vocabs - apply aftr a long deafening silence n d cengkeriks start singing during any looongg..conversation.
d) evaluate sape yg concern dlu.not always applicable to guys even to male gobrainers.unfortunately.
e) sounds more interesting n complicated.oo yess..pls mk dat more obvious.we love mysteries!

- im not judging anyone.myb a certain someone.

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hana kate ayah g china last thurs.gee..pegi xbgtau pon.xde la,kl x,bole i pesan baby panda satu.yelaa, ayah br bg 'candy' in pet society.tu je ke?candy for 'roy nakatsu',not for me.huhu..myb im d one who shud put more effort.kot...but bkn dh bg ke num dlu.bg la msg wish ari ry ke (myb tmrw)or tanye "which phone do u want,kakak?samsung omnia?" hmm dat wud be nice..myb nk tunjuk kt atuk nenek yg ayah dh contact kot.walhal..hmm
n then siapa plak dis guy yg panggil my ayah 'ayah'?tibe2 add kt fbook plak tu.shud i ask or shud i not?hmm mlas laa..like i care.bt myb a lil bit curious.xpe la,bgs jgk.more 'frens' for roy,weee..

- sebbaik xde laa hensem sgt.huhu..
- to 'some ppl'..u almost made me jump inside my closet when u said u read my blog.but sebbaik im cool :p now..focus2!!

ash.."sgt laa hanimon"

2008-12-05T01:39:00.003Z

The coat is inside out,
There is no sun above
Nothing is going good
Since I think of Ghita.
But Ghita's not in town
I asked why he's not around
It seems to me he's gone
He's gone abroad

Hard, I think it's very hard
Want, I don't know what I want
I know that you like me too
Ghita, what is up with you?
Young, come on in or go
Young, tell me yes or no
Ghita, please dont´t anger me
Tell me how your life will be

Ghita,
Tonight I'm waiting at the wicket
Me at the station I bought a ticket
Come to,
But don't come as you did before
As usually with empty hands...
Who else
Will and sing for you as I do
Entire evening just getting there
Ghita,
Show me a girl who's found of you
That loves you more as much as I do...

Ghita, te-astept diseara la portita
Langa portita de la scoala
Vino da numa nu vini cum vii tu
De obicei cu mana goala
Cine te mai asteapta ca si mine
O seara intreaga numai pe tine.
Ghita, arata-mi tu o fata care
Sa te iubeasca asa de tare!

- love d spanish version more..porrrtita
- thx mr c..for dis sweet cute song.sgt sesuai to end my paeds in letterkenny :D

turun bukit

2008-12-04T23:02:00.005Z

ahh..dh nk blk galway dh?i cnt believe my days in letterkenny wud be over.y?y cnt i jez stay here instead.but kl stay nk stay ngn pulut,didi n diyana jugk.dun want to stay here alone. kl stay cni bole mkn free fish meal wit white wasabi dip evry day.ngn salads yg sgt byk.toast with butter n marmalade n cranberry juice evry morning.aah..miss them when they r free.didi n diyana sure gonna miss d free cereals of all range.ouh n desserts! hmm miss jgk sharing living room wit d girls.myb dh lame single kt galway,its fun to hv some company here.karaoke same2,bkk 'radio' same2,mkn same2 dpn tv,citer2..dh lame xrs cmtu kot.but nnt blk galway rs best jgk sorg2,hmm..
gonna miss d doc res where all d doctors lepaking,dining,n practically living.big screen tv,ensuite rooms,free internets,kitchen,n cafe..wat else cn a doctor needs?
ouh yeah..d gen. hospital!d atmosphere mcm kt hosp besar melaka plak.sgt suke dat surrounding compare ngn uchg yg agak compact n abit stressful.xke?hmm nnt miss jgk my consultant dr macquire n reg,dr osama yg sgt baek hati n eager to teach.smp td osama siap nk bg tutorial bile die nmpk kt doc res.sorryy..i chose tkmaxx instead.tmrw nk blk.ya makanya..huhu..pastu hmm kt galway mn ade long ward rounds in paeds ward yg bole smp 2hrs tu.aaa..rindu2..n mn lg nk dpt clinics yg full with autistic kids yg comel2.ahh...arini plak best sgt2.an autistic girl hugged me at d clinics.time2 nk blk laa kn.aahh..y??n then dat boy wit croup suddenly came to me to say hi in d wards.alaa..i miss their small hands n curly blonde hairs.huhu..hmm tmrw nk g neonatal unit.want to see my twins for d last time :)

- n suddenly on my last day in d clinics i talked to dis girl in northern ire accent.waahh...terigt braveheart plak..eurghh
- aa tmrw blk ke galway yg stress.reminds me of case reports,presentations n seminars..im gonna be alritee

satay-ed

2008-12-02T22:20:00.008Z

"puluuut,kak ha suh check ni(finger pointed to my nostrils).check aa pulut..hitaam..serious.ahahaha"
"erkk,eh btul la hanii.hitamm!!(smbil menunjukkan kesan hitam pd tissue)eh ko tau x ni sign kl org burnt.uish kite nih dh terbkar hani!" - dat day,our lungs polluted with toxicating CO2,CO.aahh..i need galwaegian fresh air!

"bwh bilik aku je!buatnye meletup..xsempat aku beraya.."

dat sunday morning RUMAH SUPERSOCIAL buat fogging,oo no no no bkn fogging bunuh nyamuk but bunuh org,killing our lungs with carbon yg menyesakkn.d smell of burnt coal filled d air,tp for d 1st few mins,nobody even care to go downstairs n check. i yg bz meng'iron' bj instead of studying jg meng'ignore' baubauan trsebut.it is not uncommon for us to change food to coal.makanya,i tot..well yet another statistics laa kn.smp laa cik pulut barged in dgn muka panik.out frm my room,penglihatan dihadkn dgn asap tebal,dlm blurry2 tu me n cik pulut discovered d source of d smoke.sape yg xtutup grill ni(wasnt me ok)??on marked 6 plak tu.oven empty,kl ade fries ke wedges ke myb lg cpt kitorg bertindak.huhu..

- kagum tgk black suds covering d toilet seat n d sink.sign of burning juge..
- alaa..d video i made xbole upload.huhu
- kitchencabinet makcik mary bertambah cacat.im not totally bothered.

sacred heart

2008-11-30T00:41:00.002Z

A picture began circulating in November. It should be 'The Picture of the Year,' or perhaps, 'Picture of the Decade.' It won't be. In fact,unless you obtained a copy of the US paper which published it, you probably would never have seen it.

The picture is that of a 21-week-old unborn baby named Samuel Alexander Armas, who is being operated on by surgeon named Joseph Bruner.

The baby was diagnosed with spina bifida and would not survive if removed from his mother's womb. Little Samuel's mother, Julie Armas, is an obstetrics nurse in Atlanta . She knew of Dr. Bruner's remarkable surgical procedure. Practicing at Vanderbilt University Medical Center in Nashville , he performs these special operations while the baby is still in the womb.
During the procedure, the doctor removes the uterus via C-section and makes a small incision to operate on the baby. As Dr.Bruner completed the surgery on Samuel, the little guy reached his tiny, but fully developed hand through the incision and firmly grasped the surgeon's finger.

Dr.Bruner was reported as saying that when his finger was grasped, it was the most emotional moment of his life, and that for an instant during the procedure he was just frozen, totally immobile.

The photograph captures this amazing event with perfect clarity. The editors titled the picture, 'Hand of Hope.' The text explaining the picture begins, 'The tiny hand of 21-week- old fetus Samuel Alexander Armas emerges from the mother's uterus to grasp the finger of Dr. Joseph Bruner as if thanking the doctor for the gift of life.'

Little Samuel's mother said they 'wept for days' when they saw the picture. She said, 'The photo reminds us pregnancy isn't about disability or an illness, it's about a little person.' Samuel was born in perfect health, the operation 100 percent successful.

- one of God's greatest miracles.
- a fren fwd dis to me.sgt2 amazed kn.rs terinspired plak.it's like making a pie inside out.ermm..

sandy is taf

2008-11-29T18:29:00.007Z

bilakala 'some ppl' membuat langkah drastik towards u either intentional or not but menimbulkn effect kejutan followed by rs yg sgt xbest,adakah anda..

a) membuat obvious facial expression@gestures dat u hate what he/she did eg. frowning with a smirk,kl bole gv d 'THE ROCK' signature frown.

b) impulsively,get out of there n start silent treatment.plg best becomes invisible either in YM or deny his/ger existence for like..forever..until dat ppl got it - hmm..deafening silence.agak sadis..

c) dgn tona annoyed n high pitch..
"heeyy..actually i xbrp xsuke laa ape yg u buat/ckp td.xbrp comfortable.ermm kl bole jgn buat lg bole" - alala..baiknyee..mungkin less effective.
" weh aku serius xsuke laa ngn cara ko.actually not jez me,diorg pon(attack rmai2 myb kurangkn effect guilty).ko mmg ade socialprob eh.plss..if u hv dat prob,do tell me.we cn show u how.." - PBL style.might works!

d) terkjut but simpan dlm hati.pastu buat cool n dgn berlapang hatinye accept dat dat somebody myb xsedar terover react.myb dats how he/she behaves with other ppl.koott..

e) eh xyah laa emo.xpon xnk emo sorg2.tgu smp ade org complaint dlu n br laa kite pon menokok bebankn lg cerita tu.

sadly to say,today wat i did was e)..wic i totally regret it.very much.y am i so weak?lemah!situation yg spttnye cn be ctrlled.hmm i hope ibu's prayers do cme true.in d mean time,jdkn itu as a guideline.
- touched by a fren's advice.insyaAllah i'll rmmber wat u sed.get well soon :)

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- jgn biarkan hani jd org yg lupa pdMu..aminn

sequential

2008-11-28T01:42:00.005Z

on our 1st on-call attempt.me n didi already planned to follow mr mcquire's on-call last tues.so there we were,2 high-spirited girls,in paeds unit at 6pm,trying to find mr mcquire or anyone frm d team.dgn abit hesitation,i went n asked d nurse bhind d desk.

"excuse me,sorry..ermm is mr mcquire's team on-call today?ermm do u noe where cn we find him?"
nurse yg blom sempat jwb,was cut by dis hindustani looking young man,who was standing beside me all along.SHO kot..Reg?highly unlikely..
"hmm wat yr r u?" he asked,not looking at us.too bz kot smp xde mase nk turn his head n look at us.
" ouh erm we r 5th meds student frm galway.." (who d..?)
" 5th med?wow u asked a funny ques.ur already in 5th meds n u still dont know consultants dont attend on-calls." wit dat smirk on his face..he cont doing his work.."im d poor person u shud be looking for..bla bla.." xpuas hati plak since we didnt try to look for him instead..
" ouh sorry we didnt noe dat.." quickly(rudely) abrupted.." ok..hmm..probbably u cn do some work for me.ouh..no..i dun tink u cn.hmm ok...if u want to follow me for d on-call, answer dis ques..wat is d symptoms of coarctation of aorta?"
" ermm (dem,i noe dis!!), short of breath...". didi.."tachypnoea.." agak lmbt but we were trying to get it right.ouh plss dun blank now..
" faster2...answer me quickly..i want d sign not d symptoms!!" suddenly he raised his voice.aaa...i cnt tink when im being pressured like dat ok.really nk create attention in d ward la kn doc ni.great!!" c'mon2..ok gv gv me d symptoms of heart failure.c'mon faster2.."
"..left heart failure wud be..sob,tachypnoea,tachycardia.." i blurted out..
"dats d sign,i want d symptoms.if u dun get dis right,u wont get to follow me.." arghh..
nurse yg agak terkjut "zaf***,ur being mean.now even im afraid to talk to u.."
dr yg menyebelkn "yeah,now i'm being all scary.." with a grin..grr..
then tibe2 he said he had to go n will cm bck to noe d answer.5mins..10 mins..15mins n going..huhu..sorry,we got better things to do. xkn nk tgu smp syncope plak kn.so willingly we jez followed a nurse to do d BP on a baby...n jln2 sket,look2 ard..n blk..not really dat dissapointed by not seeing him.but i bet he thinks dat we were dat terrified to jez leave d ward.
n today..i saw him in d ward.i saw him looking at us..nk tgu answer ke?meh..cme n ask us again la..cmon,faster2!

- hmm myb my threshold abit on d high side.y didi mcm sgt xpuas hati n i plak yg rs mcm alaa..i jez dun care..mlass,not o-big-a-deal..study2!!
- terigt ibu at d office.hmm..
- jumpe twins kt nenonatal unit..i want twins too!! :p

milestones

2008-11-26T23:41:00.007Z

cn i be more critical?(like 'some ppl' always said to me..pedentic @ snotty)up until now i still hv no idea wat im looking for in my life.medicine is diff story..it found me.my adhoc ouh-so wat-ques of d day..hmm silap tu.actually its not dat i dunno wat i want but bcoz i want wat i want,i tink probably i shud try evry possible chances dat i consider may lead me to wat i want.wallaa..we nvr noe till we get to noe it rite.so watever comes my way n when i see d possibilities,i sed yeah y not..sila laa..walk myself through d door laa kn.n now instead of getting exactly wat i really dream of since...d last 2 summers,i tink probably i got d oppo.myb not totally but sumhow ade laa loopholes yg agak obvious.i cn either cover it up with black tar n drive over it or reverse n jez take diff route.so how?dh mcm 'the road not taken,sorry i cnt travel both..' dh ni.i dh xnk jd org yg bumped into my ex-admirers dlu2 seeing them walking with their new 'love interest' jez bcoz i was so quick to judge.n being asked..so wic one is ur bf?between ashraf n peqli?wow mmg total mydriasis effect lah..
hmm i slalu kate we hv d right to choose.selagi kite in d right position,be it religiously,morally n lawfully, we hv d right to choose. d world is one's oyster.as long as d oysters r fresh,carpe diem!but wat if i wont get wat i wish for,shud i wait or shud i jez accept wat lies in front?CLEO ni jahat tau.shes d one who taught me nvr settle for second best n nvr lower down ur expectation.or i'll might regret it.hmm feminism.but tu laa..as cik jang said,sbar..nk jumpe org yg memahami ni ssh.ya makanyaa..kl lmbt sori laa :p

- aish..pouring2 while listening to pulut's low tone(less?) rendition of babyface's what if(at least wat i tink it is) maka inilaa hasilnye..
- eh dh thurs,n i'll be going bck for d wkend dis fri.y am i feeling sad?best sgt ke letterkenny?mcm best..

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"Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman."
- Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah (be fearfull of Allah The Almighty) kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan)."
Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk"
- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

- yoga haram ehh?wat d fish??aishh..ayahanda once said kelemahan muslims skrg sbb terlalu melihat Islam dr sudut hati,instead of akal.so think!eceeehh..hmm need more sesi kaunseling with him :s

silent nite

2008-11-23T01:10:00.006Z

a part of me wants to stay n a part of me is getting sick of evryday malingering. pengabaian tahap kronik atau in denial ni perlukn aggrasive treatment.cthnye menukar tahap keselesaan dr duvet-comfort zone to bone chilling-sleeping bag,free fish meals n roommates yg rajin or nmpk rajin.

- God,can u pls make my brain super absorbent dat sponges evrythg up.jez my brain..i dun want to be a spongebob n work as a frycook.
- n ouh..cn i hv superpower like kaito?...seriously..

feel soo much..

2008-11-20T13:28:00.008Z

Lucky - Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Caillat.

singing it ~

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fell the air
I put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

- one of d songs dat perks me up early in d morning..esp when i powerwalk to csi for morning tutorials,passing through d enable ireland parking lot while usyaing every cars,xf jaguars,BM's..etc..ouh found a new car today..orange suzuki sx4..mucho love it!punya sapa ya?
- faarrr better than exist's HaniLempengHangus..:p
- wat a typical "melodramatic" entry..sigh..i shudve gone to dunnes or argos n get d hse a new kettle..

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last nite's VSA play was brilliant.somewat wish dat i had joined in.bt it's ok,theres always nxt yr...yeah rite..anyhoo,for those who dun noe abt it,it's a play competition between classes.it's like watching several free movies in 1 whole hot warm nite.well actually they charged 5euro per person but me n lyana got away with puppy eyes look n innocent smiles(thx john!)..weee..beesstt,eventho had to crampped on d stairs.didnt expect a full house.love evrythg esp james bond sketch by d 3rd meds,well d winner kn..but not by d zero meds tho.hehee..n i personally lurvee d final meds sketch.good impersonation..ouh eamon u sgt laa best jd d gerflah d great,great job mann!n not to forget suke tgk abg handsome in d final meds photoalbum slide show at d end.irish yg kacakk..hehee..
small change,big changes ayee..i guess i'll start with d..ermm..me bum?!hey u,get of d chair noww!!

- final meds album..rmainye msians yg kawen.how abt our batch?we need a spell breaker(or 2)..anyone??

7 habits 101

2008-11-16T19:47:00.019Z

waahh..sunday yg best.dgn hanya menolak dan melipat duvet yg comfy n warm,my world became alot brighter.hmm..now i realized evry single time i succesfully pushed away all my lazybummyness,my selfishness n pressing lil bit on d accelerator, i've gain more,ive bcome happier,more productive n content n n ..sunshine n bunnies.kl i mlas n ikut kn kate internet n my single bed ni,i'd probably hv regretted it.hhmm..btullaa,who can tell wats best for us except Allah yg menggerakkn hati..
sports day yg sgt sgt best.sgt best bile bole cheer2 n main2.sgt best main volley dgn skill yg sgt lousy,quote cik sarinah, lebih rendah dr beginner..pon dpt mnng medal,ahaha..n happy bcoz its been soo long seen ive played futsal n basketball,cheering n clapping smp sakit tgn.puasss..ouh n also digging cakes ramai2 n junkfood mcm bdak tadika lpas hari sukan or hari guru..

- thx MSoc..next yr buat sprint ke,rentas desa ke,cycling ke,weee..:):)
- congrats rumah merah for getting 1st place..n million congrats to rumah kuning kebanggaan beta bcoz berjaya jump from 4th place to 3rd.kehadiran anda sgt2 dihargai,hehee..
- thx ain for mencuak n meng'tachycardia'kn i with ur advice for 5th med paeds n ent.seriously i need to set d gear to 4 now.no winter break for me!!!huhu...well thx for ur tips n advices.u shudve precribe me with diazepam as well.huhu
- jawa (while watching me munch cadbury choc) eh hani ko mn bole mkn coklat kn..ko rs brp byk ko dh turun td?....aaaaa

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last week i brought d lazyness,procastination to d lext level.i ignored,i played blind,i jez dun care to bother.n enjoyed doing jez dat.dgn essay yg due on last fri,i purposely listed my name to go to a talk in dublin wic initially hv no intention to watsoever.either bcoz i didn't quite interested in d topic,or succumbed to my guilt for waited until d last week of GP to do d report,or jez plain lazy.but then i tot,well i need to run away from my guilt,do sumthg,get sumthg,then i can push myself to do my work.rather than sitting at hme,chatting,writing,doing evrythg else but study.i hate it!so there i was in dublin,went to d talk with d gals.d talk by dr azam tamimi was abt muslim political thought n practice.hmm it wud be interesting topic to listen to if we were not too sleepy n doze off haf way of it.well blom smp talk tu abes kitorg rmai2 hit d road..walking la actually to d city.shopping witout hesitation n guilt...bt me not really dat excited to shop.1st myb terigtkn all d cashflow during my GP att(cafe food yg mahal plus nk bli exercise machine,weee) n myb happy sgt dpt jumpe ash n syikin..huhu..we talked n talked n 'abusing' each other..mkn icecream,exchange gossips mcm dlu2..god,i miss them..in d end dpt laa sebrg 2 tierack scarves yg canteekk..(:
"so ape citer ko skrg?ko jgn nk sorok2 eh..cpt citer!"then dgn openheartnye i pon bkk citer encik C.tentang sumthg yg i xbole accept.tentang comment syikin yg agak negative when i show him to her.n ttg kegedikan yg i xmampu nk tolerate.wit a sympatic look,ash kate "accept je laa hani.myb tu jodoh ko."...noooooo..i am fickle :s

- jay driving je dlu..i dun want to make d same mistakes.suddenly my brain singing d song 'cinta pertama'..want d best for ourselves.rite hana (:

ya makanyaa..

2008-11-16T09:20:00.004Z

after abit of struggling with ym calling due to net jakarta yg agak slowmo,too much smog myb, finally i cn hv a looong conversation with hana sambil2 lipat bj n play with my pet,roy.multitasking mmg my talent..hmm kesian ana.

"han,ok x if i get dat iphone?sms best..net..blabla..u tink?"
"hmm best u tink u need it"
"u tgk ni..die bla bla bla *link*. abg tu kate die book for me lg 4 days amik.kl ana bli ana jual my htc n jez add rup4juta." pufff..offline.
online blk aftr a few mins bila mn i tgh do other stuff.attempt to call no.8.still..cnt reach.my chest suddenly rs congested.rs nk burst.aa geramnyee..then got it..
"helo..haa ani so how?shud i?ashraf pon pkai best je.bla3.." - aaa,same repeat ques.
"u ni kn ana..kl u nk bli bli laa.kl ana tanye ani pon bt u rs u nk bli,u bli jgk kn.n u noe better abt ur financial,nnt regret,bla3..bla3..bla3.." - tone yg obviously annoyed."but ana nk tanye ibu dlu laa.nk pinjam duit ibu..bla3.."
"aisshh yeke pinjam..u g la tanye ibu dlu..bla3" - annoyed tone lg
"hmm,u ni kan..xpe laa"
"huh?waat??i ni knape..?" - huhu i noe i was a horriblesnotty monster jez now..
"hmm xde laa.u bc je laa enab nye entry in our blog.nnt u tau laa.how to be a gud listener.bkn sbb u ke ape.(yeah ritee)bt i tink mmg bgs laa kl u,kite bc.ala u tau,yg 7 habits tu.." - ecece..nk promote laa kn blog gcc diorg tu,hee..zuupp..i rs guilty.hmm i bli je dat book bt "nvr" had d time to read it.huhu
"sorry dear i was a bad bad listener.yelaa,ani tgh..rs xbeeest je arini..sorry laa"
- yela tu,tau sndiri la,u mmg not a gud listener :s

habit #5: seek first to understand, then to be understoodby Stephen R. Covey
People tend to filter the information they receive through their own paradigms, reading their autobiography into other people's lives, or projecting their own home movies onto other people's behavior.
When another person is speaking, we usually "listen" at one of four levels: ignoring, pretending, selective listening, or attentive listening. We should be using the fifth, highest form of listening - empathic listening.
Active or reflective listening is skill-based and often insults the speaker.
Empathic listening is listening with intent to understand the other person's frame of reference and feelings. You must listen with your ears, your eyes and your heart.
Empathic listening is a tremendous deposit into the emotional bank account. It's deeply therapeutic and healing because it gives a person "psychological air."

- special thx to enab frm GCC for dis enlightenment :):)

...of oneself

2008-10-15T22:14:00.009+01:00

- dis whole week i feel sooo..useless n miserable.no matter how much i did,i noe im not competent enuf,i noe im not resposible enuf,i hardly do any study,not as serious dat i noe i shud n i cud..despite spending a whole lotsa time under d heat of my study table lamp away frm d warmth of me bed.rs stupid sbb byk keje yg spttnye siap xsiap2 like my ENT case yg terpostpone smp abes MCQ dis friday,n keje sbg penyimpan mohor besar duit MYS.d more i keep pushing d more they kip coming..
- itu blom lg rs regret yg sgt sbb duties sbg ahli rumahsupersocial mcm xterhandle,turn masak yg mengundang kekecohan,xterbuatgrocery..menambahkn beban guilty terhadap saham amanah i.gazillion apologies to my hsemates yg terpakse mkn pizza last week.segala kekurangan bole diclaim aftr fri eh korg,weee
- d thing i hate d most..d most!!dis week je dh 2kali bgn lmbt.sebbaik la jd 2nd last or 3rd smp kt eye tutorial.kl driving bole la kate jam ke,minyak abes tgh jln ke..ok laa,sorry im late bcoz my hse is jez too near dat i hitchhike a snail??phwwttt
- tanggungjwb utk melapor di atas juge agak kurang menyenangkn ati.bkn agak..mmg sgt merisaukn.tidak sepunctual n selama dlu :(:(
- ye gelengkn kepala 3 kali n start fresh.hana kate die tau kami ni,kami yg 2 org ni la,slalu bile rs truk,bad,horrible trus cont to be bad,bt hana kate jgn ani jgn..kite kne trus buat baik n when we feel good we do more good n good things come to us.yess..thx hana for reminding.huhu

- rs mcm nk ltak blk notebook dlm kotak cantik2 n sent it back to PC world dgn harga 2,3 kali lipat takpun letak bwh katil tepi dumbbell yg xberusik tu.huhu..i cnt!hidup i akan jd separaprimitif,greyish mcm tv 60'an plus winter yg kurang sunshine n bunnies n chronic symptom adlah bilakala my cheek terkurang 2-3mm in thickness.
- doakan sy ye :D

And even though I know how very far apart we are,
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star,
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby,
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky!--i noe its kinda cheeesyy but dis dedicated to my dearest sis.u always mk me feel blessed for evrythg dat i hv,we hv :)

bila rasaku ini rasamu

2008-10-13T12:06:00.010+01:00

today i discovered sumthg new abt myself.i learned dat i am an adenoidectomy-phobic..or is it ENTtheater-o-phobic?well myb mix dgn rs agak mlas nk tgk ent coz asyik tgk d same procedures je n of coz nk 'study' at hme.i mmg xde perasaan nk pegi bt since i xnk rs guilty n nk jd anak yg baik,i pon pegi laa.its not my 1st time joining d ENT theater n believe me when i sed i didnt quite enjoy d last time i was in...d last time we had dis 1 yr olg black girl,wit braided hair all over, going through adenoidectomy.d 1st few mins ok,fine..as i watched dr sardar across d operating table n wondering how a 1yr old girl has soo much hair,suddenly i felt palpitation.ape ni ape ni..br 20 mins diri.dr sardar time tu tgh bz 'spooning' out d adenoid frm dat poor girl's throat wit a big metal scrapper.camne tu?hmm lemme draw it...imagine throat bdk tu mcm kayu yg kite gune time kemahiran hidup dlu nk buat musical box or rak rempah yg kite tersalah nail,pastu mesti kite nk pull dat nail it out kn..haa mcm tu laa plus blood being sucked in.whooshh out came two big adenoids.by dat time,i dh rs weak,my tummy mcm ade fish swimming2 inside.mask yg i pkai i bukak tutup,for better ventilation.badan rs panas yg melemaskn.dr sardar perasan ke.alaa..xsuke bile i xnmpk taf.haa..time tu laa i nmpk silver dots.mula2 sikit then die byk2 n mcm excited.aish..bkn xpnah tgk amputation or mastectomy or even worse procedures.i cnt imagine bile buat my 1st delivery nnt.at last attempt to be in denial n conciously tried to justify d pathological reason i jd cmtu,i terpakse cont in d changing room..lemah!

today,me n didi g lg theater.as i checked mr lang's patient list,nmpk adenoidectomy lg.alaa..ok xpe..lets try again dis time.to prove my diag is wrong laa konon.2 enlarged thyroid n adenoid kne buang frm dis 3yr old boy.ksian tgk bdak tu.dh la cute with blonde hair.ee geramm..n then ouh noo not again.time tu dr sardar tgh stitching.WAT THE FISH?!aaahh benci la cmni.2 kali i kluar masuk theater,dats it!enuf!i nk blk.tinggalkn sj didi sorg2,i blk rumah buka puasa ngn kuih ry.well thx didi for ur concern.kite dh ok dh,alhamdulillah :)

- xsuke bila org kate i pengsan2 sbb xmkn.i bole je diri 3-4 hrs kt eye clinic time puasa aritu.ok je..huhuhu..
- didi kate i xbole join ENT..ouh well wateverr.didi kate i myb xbole jd paediatrician..NOO..:(

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- ressa herlambang aka indonesia's usher.
- cik pulut kate aritu nk layan lagu patah hati.biase la org hepi nk dgr lagu cmtu.i jumpe byk.tgu org request je ni :p

80's smell

2008-10-12T21:54:00.019+01:00

-39 yr old grand'mama'.ouh n dat was 11 yr old pakcu..we grew up together.back then we became his probono singers while he played his guitar to rock kapak songs until he moved to live with our mom.he used to say "sape buli ana ani ckp ngn pakcu k.ckp ngn diorg pkns tu dlu pakcu punye 'area' tau."..while he was d one who tied our tudungs bile nk g mengaji one day like ninja turtles.n we were like dat all d way..huhu..n who said we dun hv any brothers?
-our 3rd bday bash..mama sgt terer buat kek.suke bli all those choc sticks,choc coins,smarties,kokocrunch etc n watched mama arranged them on cakes.hmm myb dats where i pickup d passion..*rolling eyes*
-during 2nd wedding in d fam.pakngah's kot..i sed to hana,i didnt look like a happy kid kn :p

- n who cud believe my pakngah cud got married back in those days.well..tall n handsome kn even in faded jeans n tennis shoes.evry time raya je anak makcik raja dtg rumah tanye pakngah n pakcu dh blk blom.ishhh..
- our baby sisters..nurdanisya yg kne cropped her hair by amoi 'hairstylist' n audrey afiqah who got her first 'feet' when chasing keropok lekor we bait her.ibu kate "kak ani,dun feed her biscuits anymore,nnt afiqah lg bsar..".yet next morning ibu fed her cheddar cheese singles..as her dessert.aahh..nnt i blk i'll be seeing her jumping,running,chasing more food n calling me kak ani.fast fwd plss..n nisya,i hope she will finish wat we left off..counting frm 1-5..ABCs yg xpnah khatam2 tu.blame it to fifi d flowertots n piku d penguin?..c'mon nisya,i noe my sis cn do it!
jez to see how much we look alike..or more exactly,is chubbiness hereditary..

hai pojaan hati

2008-10-03T22:53:00.008+01:00

di balik pintu kayu bilik i yg agak mewah n berkos tinggi ni,adalah satu disaster.since last wed our heater membisu seribu bahasa.oil yg dimasukkn xmampu bertahan lama rupenye.situasi diamplify dgn carpet nipis summer edition n weather yg mula membuli dgn angin beku.i yg biasa hidup dlm kesenangan,dimanja dgn sinaran uv yg cukup memasakkn last summer,i hanya mampu memohon kekuatan dalaman.hoping dat God wud grant my prayer by increasing my basal metabolism.laundry di ampaian menuggu giliran di tepi heater menceriakn lg my presidential suite ni.i xmampu membantu,eventho theoritically d 'hotness' cn be transferred by convection.ive decided to keep d 'hotness' all for myself.wee..ya makanya i jd OKU,oppss..not trying to offend anyone..but i mula beroperasi di dlm duvet.bkn mlas ye say but electric bills yg xsanggup ditanggung sesiapa buatkn i lbih cautious,opt for cheaper.evrythg for d future kn.my way of saving d mother earth by saving my money (:

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ladies n gents,im fragile.im vulnerable.fyi im not as taf as u tink i am.homesick?naahh..too early..buli?blk2 buli?nope..my threshold masyaALLAH,God knows how unreachable it is :p..cerekarama in my fam?naah..waaay past dat 'mourning' stage..my status yg stagnant malignant single?its ok.seriously,im at d lagging stage.prodrome.i hv to close 1 ear n 1 eye la tp.over here,di rumah supersocial ni,almost evry single blurted word,65% laa,referring to topik berkenaan.its ok,doa mama n ibu for me to get a doctor are mood stabilisers (:

so apa yg cik HB fretting abt nih? im at d verge of getting rid of all 'old' stuff but im still clinging to it like i hold my netbook now.sbb mhal..but i noe,sgt2 tau yg kl i x put it in d bin,i yg fragile akan sentiasa gv in n keep it for another day.mcm cerita KEKASIHKU SERU plak.but i want to b like'Marisa',bkn marisa sniper yg ala macho tp manja tu,but marisa yg cuba resist 'Waris' yg mencari beliau sbg keeper.ishh best sgt2 citer tu.they really shud consider a movie.serious.dem good..moving on,i noe kl i prevail,Allah akan buka byk jln utk cik HB.Allah kn Maha Adil..now,cik PULUT,tolong remindkn i dgn nasihat ye,cik LAYEN,eventho u agak2 suam garang,sila gunakn nada dissappointmt anda.huhu..

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hari Raya yg best..dpt kad yg sgt3 sweet frm kakakku syg,cik hana n afew other cards yg membuat i melompat girang.i seronok smyg raya diikuti openhses smbil escape cls berjemaah tanpa regret n ignorant max.sesiapa yg x septtnya meletakkn priority selain beraya ie those in ent,opthal n psych mengundang 'booo' pd diri sndri.hee..i sgt grateful fames amos cookie recipe yg valid membuatkn i excited habiskn batch smp 330am.bgn x sleepy plak tu,amazing!n 1 more thg,alhamdulillah i bangga krn berjaya chat dgn ayah aftr soo..long..(:(: ok time to move on wit usual stuff.ry tgu wkend yee

- terigt my bday party with hana every single yr smp kite 4yrs old kn hana.jez like in d clip.evry yr we got big laaaarge cake yg dibuat khas by mama.saayaaaaang mama..ouh d song..sgt sesuai utk 'cik yg agak blurr in love' di sn :p
- miss main 'rumah2' wit cousin nami.."kak ani,ni la rumah nami.mewah kn?kak ani kne masak,nami nk g kedai jap naik toyota avanza".."oo kak ani nk pesan telur 5 biji,ikan 1,ayam 2,tepung 1.." hmm gud way to test child's memory n math,lalala

late nite showcase

2008-09-26T02:08:00.011+01:00

Aftr afew days of postponing,finally last nite me n penghuni rumah supersosial yg lain berbuka puasa kt town.or specifically tgh2 jln shop street.dgn butler's yg superdelish di tgn,we all headed to our next 'fuel' stop..eastern tandoori dgn niat nk mkn roti naan pnas bercicah kuah.agaknya lupa kot dgn tummy yg dh shrinking sbb puasa,confidentnye we ordered 3 dishes with rice n capati.1 regular iced mocha tu mcm xde effect bile nmpk prawn jalfrezi..ya makanya..all of us ended up with tummy overload symptoms..nausea,hiccups,red flushes n sleepy.mlm yg challenging..terawih pon bole short of breath ke?melampau..but bole kot kl ikut imam td,hehe..jgn marah ye cik imam :p

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Along d way to town td,byk btul crite yg cm up.n of coz revolve ard penghuni rumah supersosial n kehidupan mrk.kehidupan org lain xbole buka bln puasa ni ok..smbil2 jln n dgr crite i play bck 'projector' i yg always on standby mode.myb their storylines r much less d same frequency with my projector.hmm my projector ni dh ade evry slides that showcase evry imaginable things i want in my life.dh ade chronology,jez waiting to be execute.story sket?naah..Starlight Cinema i tutup mlm ni..cont on..u all mesti pnah dgr kn..to want sumthg,u hv to lose sumthg.btul x?sacrifice IS a big word.but if we believe in Allah's promise,as long as kite redha n ikhlas,if we lose sumthg,we'll get sumthg farr better in return.insyaAllah.am i right?soo..ape yg i kne lose other than weight n fat tu?kl cik pulut mesti die kate tanye hati n iman..i pun tanye laa..hmm..mmg ade..
waah topik sarat plak mlm2 ni.iced mocha td ke?ke induced by storytelling session yg generate my right brain ni?watever it is..i noe evrytg dat happened to me is sumthg dat ive been through b4.dh jd recurrent acute 'hati'tis interna kot.sumbody prescribe me low-dose antibiotic pls.cik pulut ke?i dun want to get 'down' syndrome.naahh..my life is always sunshine n bunnies..(:

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another nite of soul purifier..
like thumbprints,there r no souls alike.each of us is a masterpiece,created by God with evry uniqueness n with own special abilities.mcm citer heroes,evryone has a purpose.kl i,i nk jd dat japanese watchamacallit guy.sbb best..erm my point is,with all d abilities,all our differences..evry action dat u tk,evrythg dat u r,be it ahpeng jual paper,or even 5yr old autistic kid,u'd leave an impression on dis world.so walk cautiously.n most importantly tink abt d effects on our souls.kesian die.Allah bg elok je,dgn fitrah yg sama semuanya.ayahanda i once said,jaga our soul,biar kita pulangkn cantik2,hensem2 je nnt.but we r merely humans,yg normal n tend to mk mistakes.wat i noe is dat d more sins we do,lg pendek,gemuk n gelap laa die.vice versa.hmm i tink i kne buat 'extreme make over' kot.letakkan another cermin besar di hdpn..

- hana once said..threshold kite ni tinggi kn ani..ge-er sekali..
- suddenly i terigt kt en japar..hmm watever happen to him i wonder

lazy tuesday

2008-09-23T22:37:00.010+01:00

got bck frm class,chat for awhile,do d laundry,watched kekasihku seru fast fwd mode until epi 7 (where they finally..fiiinally told marisa evrythg,dat shut her up),turun bwh buat cucur ikan bilis for buka at ayesha'a hse while regreting things i cudve done for another ramadhan day,got bck frm ayesha's,shower n now..digging2 more 'rubbish'.finally i found andy samberg and chris parnell again..if anyone cn be super ridiculous sick,extraterrestrially genius,bum rolling funny,they cn.there r afew others but this is one of em dat got stuck in my hippocampus for 36hrs.suke tgk diorg munching d cupcakes.

See more funny videos at Funny or Die

n now u noe how me n hana spent d last few days of our summer job at our mom's office.hmm miss spending time with my dear sis.

- brp?800 sebln?uuish byk tuu..kahkah..ko tau x,najid jd sweeper kt manchester pon dpt 200pounds seminggu...korg ni keje cuci toilet ke kt sn?
- hmm biasa la.org berotak bijak slalu ade org dengki.

foot fetish

2008-09-15T06:47:00.007+01:00

sj je i nk promote.fish spa.me n hana dh lame usya esp aftr redang trip.our feet like soo 'messed up',kata hana.byk org buat dkt tesco or giant yg usually they jez put all the fish in a pool.dh laa rmai org,share 1 pool.so usually we jez matikn niat n decide to go later.until when we strolled in the MARAKESH in sun.pyramid aimlessly,terjumpelaa FOOTMASTER.weekdays mmg xramai.kl ade pon usually org dtg tgk je.so dgn pnuh excited n xkesah duit dlm handbag,we jez went in.pandai kakak yg promote tu.i tell u..we were treated like princesses.yelaa..xramai org kn.kaki dispray.each of us dpt our own tank.not big pool ok.a tank each!so bygkn brp byk garapura fish yg dtg feeding.at first dpt anak ikan br gede,then abg tu kate try laa 'golongan veteran' aka big fish.br je masuk kaki,all those fish berebut2 mcm dlm lrt.preseverence perlu ade.n of coz i want evry bite worth evry penny.evrytime org dtg tgk tank yg transparent showing our feet swarmed wit fish,ade sesi interview.rs mcm buat iklan sunsweet,kayak superstar gtu.terpk plak i nk mintak haf price since jd unofficial spokeperson kn.price?30mins rm38.but worth it since xyah share.n kitorg dpt buat extra 15mins lg.tu pon xpuas lg fish tu feeding.next yr kak hani dtg lg ok ;)

- ash "korg tau tak..org kaki busukk je g situ.kl ani aku xsurprise laa.kenyang ikan tu,pastu pengsan sbb toxic."..stupid.funny but stupid.

sheeps!im back!!

2008-09-15T05:51:00.006+01:00

aftr sending hana to d airport with abah(atuk) n mama(nenek),mama nonstop mengadvice cucu kesygan yg duduk di seat blkg.bayangkn dr airport until putraheights.dr bab study,keagamaan,cara berpakaian yg ideal in her eyes,morality,cara bersosial,pemlihan kwn,pemilihan 'kawan'..fully covered.kasih syg yg dicurah buatkn rs i xperlu join any of those kem motivasi anjuran wanita atau mn2 ngo.kata mama..

mama "mama xtau mama sempat ke x tgk anak mama(me laa)keje,jd doctor.mama xharap duit ani,mama xnk seme tu.mama nk ani happy,berjaya,dpt suami yg baik2,beriman..dh jgn kwn ngn org bkn2.ngn bdak indon tu jgn lg laa ye.mama xsuke.."
HB "hehe..yelaa,mmg xde pape pon..mama kt sn nnt doakan la ani nnt eh mama.."
abah "eh mama ko mmg la xkesah psl duit,sbb abah yg cr,bg die duit.abah nk duit.."
HB "huh?(abah yg berwatak serius kdg2 its hard to detect his joke).hehe..ala..abah dun worry la.abah mama mmg ade plan ani.."

-hmm..miss them soo badly :(
- hopefully mama abah sihat menjalani ibadah umrah.mama xsakit pinggang n abah xcpt pnat.ani doakan mama abah slmt pulang dis 20th.aminn..

atas nama libur

2008-06-22T23:27:00.010+01:00

bandung trip yg begitu melelahkan memaksa i ikut serta dlm acara pe'malaise'an body n pemanasan katil berjemaah(bareng yuk!) bersama anak gaul rumah kos tanjung duren selatan ini.'therapy' di mall2 bertaraf antarabangsa dibekukan,diretard; stok nutrisi juga dibekalkan dorongan2(stalls bergerak) yg lewat dpn rumah seawal 530pagi.'syurga' makanan semmgnya semudah memberikan mangkuk plastik anda dan semurah 5000rupiah. cik enab berpesan..sila jd anak nongkrong n enjoy indon ads ditelly.hasilnya, i belajar mcm2 abbreviations baru like 'ssh BAB' dari iklan ubat panas dlm, dan i hafal semua iklan teh botol sosro.

setelah almost 2 days tak mendedahkan kulit i yg mulus kpd sinaran UV, ptg itu i n hana mula activatekn kembali socialcalendar kami mencari motif utk keluar.en fathul, mantan(or still) peminat hana ajak ke jakarta fair,ada dewa 19 kata beliau.ahhh..kami anti ahmad dhani,biar dia mem'self-brand' as 'makhluk tuhan paling nakal'. makanyaa..kami ke reflexy.menghypochondriackn diri ttg bowelmvmt yg dormant n blood circulation yg tidak serata, i n hana langsung ke Mediterranean tmpt hana berfitness.50000rup per hr..kok lumayan murah gitu.aftr hilang capeknya bertinsardin dlm angkut,acara self-pampering diteruskan di Citraland mall(CeEl).semmgnya kulit i yg sehalus Luna Maya doesnt need therapy.i xsuka public attention,i jd lemas.makanya..rencananya hana doang yg bertherapy.hana semmgnya adlah member tetap esthetic MELROSE yg reliable.15mins aftr dat i found myself on d bed,menikmati eye trtment/calming n shiatsu berserta super whitening trtmt.dasar narcissistic!mbak bilang "kulitnya udah bagus ya",i reply dlm hati..ya iyalaa,pede gitu lohh!!
usai trtmt yg agak lumayan besar itu, hana xabes2 apologising,rs guilty for dragging me along.she knew i dun need it.eh gapapa kok.see my nose plss for justification.cheaper pon to compare with what we can get bck hme knn...mlm itu kami pulang ke rumah kos dgn mmbawa plastik kecik berisi buah salak n 3botol green tea utk minimalisekn guilty.acara memborong di Tanah Abang nnt memerlukan bentuk modal yg lumayan.n for dat,rs guilty itu perlu wujud.hmmm..totebag LV utk acik yg dibelikan frm bandung memancarkan a faint light of hope.acik,my acct num is..ngeheee..today??bak kata cik sheh...hari2 terakhir nih is my ultimate leisure.keluar bilik jez utk mkn n bathroom,n tgk tv sket2.kemas bilik pon 28 nnt kot.ahahaha..

- en japar minta numnya hani di msia.mau dikasi atau ngak yah?kita ngak cptpercaya samaorg ya kn kakakku..
- cik enab udah pulang subuh tadi.i plak yg counting days.kata hana..hani jom kita g bandung lg for a day!!huehue
- addicted to the changcutter's and rossa's atas nama cinta~

kringg2..bandung pls!

2008-06-17T04:10:00.004+01:00

flight AK956 delay announcemt buat i restless.frm far i cud see a grp of msians 'bearing' bigs yonex bags with them, who checked-in with me earlier.abg yonex bermuka zain ruffedge skaliskala buat survey,survey for anyone looking at his cute face n 'yummie' physique.ughh..puhlsss..too perasan to get my attention.heuheu..
luckily i saw another yonex guy.n i tot kl duduk sebelah die pon ok jugak, rather than i sit with those indons.so without me realizing,i was behind him at d ladder into d plane.smp on d seats,nobody was sitting besides him.hmm..to go or not to go.ooimmg suka sabotage my own 'plan'.so i took a seat BEHIND him.stuuupid..funny thing was,nobody sitting with me either.n so with this tough,macho,not bad looking indon guy,but abit noisy,sitting on d same row...

kate cik pulut,aku bkn perasan,tp aku mmg tau kl org tu suka kat aku...and this indon guy keep looking in my way.i smp sakit leher looking at d window je,trying to avoid making any eye contact with him.but through d window pane i still cud see his reflection looking at me.i dh la sleepy,my eyes cannot stand d comfy head rest n d pitch black view outside.ada org pandang2 plak.aahh..xkesahla.i nk tdo jugak.biar i nmpk comot or watever,i hope i didnt snore or anythg.abg yonex kt dpn.

d plane had landed.i bgn cpt2 to get out.but seeing all d ppl bertin sardin on d pathway,i duduk blk,between seats."adik,adik bole keluar.ya kami bagi laluan".uncle indon yg sama2 dgn abg indon macho tersebut calling to me yg blurr n buat muka skeptic.abg indon macho move abit to gv some space.rujuk qoute cik pulut.abg yonex tu dh senyum2 dh bcoz since dr td grp indon tu asyik gelak n senyum2 twds me n abg indon macho tu.d long closed plane door made me stuck between them.i tried to run,really i did.sometimes i pandang abg yonex for 'mercy'.but he did nothing except smiling xabes2.

"tadinya dia kasihan sama kamu,lihat kamu duduk sorg sana".dat indon uncle point twds d abg macho.abg macho sambil senyum2.."hi,boleh?(reaching out his hands twds me)"..ehh,nk salam2 plak.."ermm,xbole"(i smiled n buat gaya mcm scene 'kiamat sudah dekat')."oo,tak apa.mm kamu..mahu ke jakarta atau bandung?" "ke jakarta."
.....sesi interrogasi cik hani
"knapa tidak ke bandung?kami org nya bandung.di bandung dia ini pemain polo air,nii.kami br shj di msia ada game." uncle menyampuk plak.bila masa ada game polo air,kt tv xde pon.i tgk EURO2008.
kl kamu ke bandung bole lihat kolam airnya.di bandung juga susah skali kok mau lihat cowok yg jelik2.."
er,i cari noun 'jelik' dlm kepala.oook..i gelak sambil pandang uncle yg sedikit dlm kategori noun tersebut td tu."yaa..cuma 1,2 aja laaa"..bila die perasan i gelakkn die.
"ini...adiknya siti nurhaliza ini.."..thx uncle for d nice introduction to other passengers.sumhow i ltak exxageration kat tepi kepala.."abg yonexx...dun leave me with these indons!!"i jerit dlm hati.

since my attempt to run was to no avail,abg macho pon friendly but kept his cool,i kata why not,passport checkup pon xjauh mcm heathrow distantnya.he doesnt look like a serial killer with athletic biceps anyway.my turn to ask ques.nama mohd jabar,jurusan kesukanan,univ di bandung..tu je yg i tau."kamu ada nombor hape?""ouh sorry,gak ada(n hana's num is waaay too long to remmber)".

i quickened my pace yg pendek2 tu to d baggage claim.sdg i xsabar2 tgu luggage.."ini..nombor telefon saya.nanti kalau sudah sampai di bandung,ya..sy boleh bantu" atas resit airasia,he gave me his fullname n his num.

hmm..hana kata kl hensem why not,call laa.dia tak ada abg ke?bila i kata abg tu handsome.hana kata dun gv dat num to her friends.of coz not!pnat tau i nk dpt dat number.ahaha..

heat-emanating body

2008-06-13T06:55:00.005+01:00

yesterday,aftr almost a week i got hme,ibu ajak survey zara kt OU.it seems dat she jez found her new fav shop.nk track blk her shoes yg kne grab by another shopper time tgh sale.her shoes usually comes wit 4inches heel,covered,and pointy,size 3-4.jez like her daughters'.so bila ibu ajak kak nina,d domestic ass. wit audrey afiqah, d cute active baby,n nisya d attention seeker,i dh agak dh,our outing will endup at d jusco market,bringing hme some kangkungs n taugehs,wit pampers n rusks.oo dun forget 4tummies penuh dgn gelatos,red bean pau,n nasi ayam.

kids n trolley.they r unseparable.nisya?if sumone tells me she was born side by side with one,im totally gonna tk his word.bila dia xdpt,merajuk la kn.merajuk kt public places mmg her specialty.jd konkrit stagnant yg masam tgh2 jln,xkira aunty2 nk lalu ke,uncle bertrolley bermuka annoyed ke,xkire kita dh tinggalkn die 40meter ke dpn,she knows by hook or by crook shes gonna get wat she wants,she got nothg to lose.except when her dad's ard la kn.its not we dun want to let her be behind d wheel but nnt2 laa.bile x'jem',bile jln tu straight,ok laa kn.nk explain,she doesnt undrstand.well 1 gud thg abt dis,shes persistent.in d end kite yg gv in n she got wat she wanted.bila bdak yg supermanja ni create havoc,i rs its my responsibility to show her that it is not d way to get want u want.bile pujuk pon xworkout,i ignore je.pretend die anak aunty cina kt sebelah.i buat2 busy bli sayur,main dgn baby afiqah..
"special kids mmg laa cmni kakak.they want attention.u hv to understd dat" gerammanja i kt nisya time tu tukar jd guilty.i lupa.i lupa shes special.bila kite lupe,tu yg kite geram tu.hmm i tink myb i hv to understd this supermanja girl first b4 i noe how to deal wit her.btul ke diorg nih lg degil,superdegil,compare to normal kids?ikut cerite cik lyana,adik2 die mmg d little red devils with masks.oppss..hmm kl ye, me as a supersis hv to use my superpatient power until she got her hearing aid n understd dat im not jez a girl,called 'kaka a'i' who stays in d oppo room,3mths in a yr jez so we cn play ball together,watch astro ceria together or be d 2 girls still eating aftr evryone had left d table aftr dinner.wee..

- "eh kakak ni wangi laa.sedap bau.kakak pakai perfume ape?sj nk tau" kakak blkg counter nasi ayam yg curious.i jwb giorgio armani yg baru.but i xkate tu je sample i got frm BOOTS. hmm makanya..masuk dlm list yg i nk bli kt jak nnt.xsabarnyee nk g sn!!

im done eating :p

2008-06-08T16:24:00.006+01:00

Dublin airport..
"eh aa..korg blk msia jugak ke?"
"haah.." lyana jawab without expression.a clear sign of retarding any further effort to cont d conversation.
" korg ni from dublin jugak?" d guy in his turtle neck and black jacket tanye lg.myb xpuas hati dgn kependekkan jwpn cik lyana.
"tak..galway" jwpn synchronise kami.
"ouh..really?!" tone yg awkward to reply our monotonous answer.
"knape kne .."ouh..really?!".." mmg intention i to make d same intonation to create sarcasm.no answer.'kenderaan' bergerak perlahan.
me n lyana were still queuing up behind the turtle neck guy and his friend. jez a few mtres away frm d luggage control checkup.
"erm..korg nih 1st yr eh?" me n cik lyana looked at each other separuh tergelak.
"ouh..2nd?3rd?" shoot randomly dgn penuh curious.
"actually dh 4 thn kitorg kt cni,eheh.." we both gv him a cold reply.i rs mcm artis yg mlas nk layan reporter yg br keje 2hari. d turtle neck guy with black coat jez nod n slowly turned his back.his less skema friend with washed jeans and army green jacket didnt do aythg to help.
"malas aku nk layan" kate cik lyana sambil memberikan senyuman senget beliau.
" formal coat tuu..nmpk sgt bdak br fly nih.xmcm kite,comot,selekeh..hee" confident btul i dgn assumption tersebut. selekeh sgt ke i nih smp diorg igt i nih 1st yr?
- before keluar to d arrival gate,i changed to my heels.

Frankfurt airport..

i dh lupa mcm mn i blk through frankfurt dlu.dlm sisa simpanan memori i, i jez nmpk perfume shop, souvenirs n chocolate.sebbaik ade en aiman.
me, cik lyana, en aiman,en wan..4 galwaeians ,menunggu number gate to show up on d board smbil main teka2 country.hmm..4th meds eh? then suddenly this chinese uncle yg i nmpk dlm flight aerlingus cme towds me."kau blk mesia bukan? kau tau mn mau amik itu bas?"
"oo yes..blk msia.bas?ermm..actually..kitorg pon tgh tgu num gate.xtau kt mn lg.bas?kite kne amik bas ke?"
"kita kne amik itu bowling bas dlu.kau tau mn?ini2..kau kne amik bas." uncle tu beriya tunjuk kt i tiket beliau.bas ape nih plak uncle.i garu kepala dlm hati.
" oo bas..haiitt..baik.ermm.." muka confuse i xdpt disembunyikn lg.malah words yg pelik mula keluar to add to d awkwrdness.i tried to look convincing apetah lg bila i dikelilingi anak2 n isteri beliau.
tiba2 thse dub guys showed up."uncle tanye laa same dia" i seek refuge with cik lyana,en aiman n en wan.
later, br i tau 'bowling bas tu is boarding pass.i confuse laa uncle.dlu airport nih lain.BM uncle plak,i xreti pls..heee
"aku sudah keje sini 5thn.anak2 suma belaja lain2 tempat.mau blk cuti" telinga i sempat eavesdropping uncle yg crite2 dgn turtle neck guy.oo no wonder..

- a friend said,once u r on d bus to dublin,u dh kire dh 'smp' dh.yeke?laame je.2 looongg days before reaching rumah no.6 jalan putra mahkota,putra heights.
- aunty bedah br je nk byr parkingtix klia when mama asked, "hani tak ade kwn lg hani?...kak ana dgn bdak tu lg ke?"..i xsempat nk jetlag,mama's too quik.
- ibu kate mcm dlm mimpi.feel like dreaming,seeing her daughter at home.

dancemat jom!

2008-06-04T10:07:00.009+01:00

as i looked through d list,there are un'tick' boxes..
bank - tukar duit checz,withdraw money
ibu's butlers 3boxes
abah
salwa
kamil- chocs
nisah&danial-10euro each?
other cousins- choc kt aldi
brand new cardigans or bolero - kiv
hmm..too many things,too little time,too heavy-o-lug.my bum still on d couch in d kitchen,wit lappie on,d tv is on as d 'formality' of being in front of it,my luggage is on d floor waiting to be puffed up.

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*tudududu tudududu tududududoo x2(nokia style msg tone)
*beep* farah
*beep* "hani,ko pegi dublin esok ke?"

- ermm..pegi ke tak?pegi keee tak..
D PICTURE : Me, pulling my huge luggages out of citylink bus at o'connel st,pulling my way to hop onto d No.16 dublin intercity bus canned wit fellow spanish,polish or hisdustanis..to dub airport,wit 2inches heels..i imagine muscles cramps dat follow.g dublin airport straight frm galway without staying over at kak adib's or syikin's wud be alot breezier n less hustle. citylink bus to airport-ryanair-MAS.kn snng..!
dat night,after bincang2 dgn cik idah,dgn harapan cik farah boleh accept our decison of berkampung in galway until blk without making us feel guilty for bailing her out, i text her.
"ekceli, aku nk bgtau aku pon maybe xjd pegi dub esok.kne settlekn garda,huhu"
ahh,lega..

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yesterday's plan : go to csi,take pulut's visa n letters,post to jpa,go to town,shop for shoes..later dat day i found myself in mothercare wic was waaaayyy..out of my list of shop to be in,searching for sumthg for my babysisters.n yet i spent more time there than those mommies with babies in strollers. GOD! wat wud i be like when i hv my own child?tiba2 i terigt livingroom kak adib kat balbriggan. first word..WHOAA!!d toys for her boys like chasing their way up of d hill.seriously,i can swim butterfly style in there.at last..got them their gift.too bad u hv a broke sister over here.share bole?heee..

- amazed to find books on 'How to be A Good Granny' and 'The Bloke's Guide to Babies'.interesting way to make money.
- n then there were 7.sedeynyeee..as d last batch,we need to support each other kn korg.another night of movies at rumah merah.weee...
- restlessly watching d clock ticking,n d misty rain outside..

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- where can i find free dload of this?

doakan saya

2008-05-29T09:59:00.005+01:00

en FBker stranger u bile nk kawen?
cik HB gd ques..ikut plan,next yr.(ctrl trkejut dgn soalan spontan tersebut)
en FBker stranger gf i dh xsabar2 nk kawen.
cik HB oo yeah?bgs laa.
en FBker stranger i xkesah.i dh standby evrythg.die ckp on,i jln je.
cik HB lucky her.(dgn nada monotonous)
en FBker stranger thx.bf u kt mn?
cik HB bf?ouh..im 'happily' single.
en FBker stranger u nih mesti byk secret admirer niii..
cik HB haha..i wishh..(rolling eyes..pls laa.i noe 'who' i am)
en FBker stranger u yg memilih ni.xpe,kl ade jodoh ade laa tu.dgn mat salleh kt ireland ke.wakaka..(dat supposed to be funny?)
cik HB ha ha.it's ok.i'll pass.
en FBke stranger u ngoratlaa student2 kt sn.
cik HB i kne mk d 1st move ke?r u sure they wont mind?
en FBker stranger bole..but nnt diorg kate u desperate laa.hahaha(again, is dat supposed to be funny?) - im a traditional girl.timba does d searching pls.
cik HB hmm..at least i get to choose who i want rite.but i blm smp tahap desper lg.for now,i simpan dlu laa.i xnk jez bcoz they r there,i nk kt diorg.i tink i noe wat i want in my life. (rolling2 my eyes again)

- *tuuttuut..aslkm,is dat ayahibu emergency hotline?

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im 24.im 24.im 24.hana once said, jaga ur behaviour.kl bole be motherly like.guys will like dat.act appropriately.
like u dun noe me sis.im a mimicker,im a follower.i act according to d behaviour of d ppl ard me.i mold in smp mn i can be molded.when they transmit too diff frequency,sgt2 against fitrah bernama nur berbinti rosli,i either remain quite or i turned awkward.i jd extra sarcastic,i jd evrythg dat i dun want to be,jd manusia plg xbest dlm dunia.i ckp kt cik pulut,nnt diorg kate i xsporting,nnt diorg kate i senyap.amazingly enuff,i dun mind ppl call me 'old' or seniour.sometimes i need dat as my 'greenpass' for being who i am..

- kl dlm favorite series anak2 gadis snipe lawn sindarela, i jd tusyee.jd tasya bile rs 'hot'.pulut jd makcik meri.skali skali jd Butang.cik lyana bole la jd princess rania.ahaha..
- if d world really IS my oyster..

awk.. jom bbq arini?

2008-05-28T08:44:00.005+01:00

kl acik or mak lang tanye,best kak ani jln2 europe aritu?jwpn 'answering machine' i slalu berbunyi..best!or bole laa.myb i mlas nk explain lbey2.
mmg dis trip if not d best was really a blast.korg pnah tgk 'Eurotrip'?haa..OUR version of eurotrip was more fun,less bias,less ignorant,more law-involving action n more halal..frm dub-prague-bratislava-vienna-budapest.ade je happenings.berikt adlh list 'things yg i akan igt ttg my probably last eurotrip tidak mengikut turutan favorit'..

1. addictive poppy seed pastries
2. makcik2 turki yg dtg to take our pix n tiba2 tanye..'why u wear dis?i dun like dis.im free muslim" - dlm kepala i time tu,i trus terigt kamal atartuk n xbole imagine his condition on d 'other side'.i mampu berdoa je utk aunty2 terbabit.
3. 7 days of a glamour.kjap2 ade org dtg amik gmbr kitorg.sambil panjat bukit kt vienna,smbil mkn2 ceri kt market,yg menyorok ala papparazzi pon ade.semmgnya we all terpaksa always camera ready.
4. toilet kering but with 1week old baby's pampers smell.i was traumatised.
5. cheated by pakcik stephan boyot or pakcik no.669 1 hr upon landing on budapest.
6. ..then aftr we tot its over,perasaan yg excited n overwhelmed with our 1st hostel in budapest yg sgt best tercut short when suddenly we realized not only we shared d room betwn us girls but our room was d walkway to another room.makanya..
7. ..dgn sekuat kaki i dragged my heart away frm full magnetic force of d lovely room n shower(n internet)to a more 'decent' hostel d very next day..privacy has a price.
8. smoke salmon n mussels in vienna n gyros kebab ISTANBUL in budapest(:(:(:
9. n of coz..di sebalik all d majestic palaces with long stretchy rose gardens..byk btul makcik2 yg 'sujud' tepi jln mintak sedekah.
10. lumba lari kat airport dgn flipflop smp lung kecut..n ade org berkata "sape suruh pakai flipflop.."dan lari meninggalkn i lari sorg.heh..

- makna LMAO.itu yg i blaja kt budapest.ha ha
- my bowel dh berjaya skrg kwn2.alhamdulillah,weee..
- xsabar nk tunjuk mama tablecloth baru beliau (:
- pulut nk blk esok..so sad so sad..
- kpd en peqli..takut ngn ayah i ehh.alaa..miss ur comment laa,ha ha..

1st morning in budapest

2008-05-24T07:44:00.003+01:00

i terbgn dgn tergelak2.i nk tdo blk pon tergelak2.LOL laa kire..laffing for hearing our neighbours, 2 british men 'fish'ing each other at 6am jez bcoz d other guy didnt want to off d light so dat he can texting wit her gf@wife@bf.funny2.wat a way to start my day!

d first nite

2008-05-23T23:43:00.006+01:00

i bkn org yg suke cursing.apetah lg di negara org yg tidak diketahui level of education n mentality d locals.sbg contoh, italians or makcik2 cashier in all supermarkets in prague mempunyai senyuman paling expensive in d whole wide world.n mmg suka membaling brg lpas key in barcode.i xkesah.datswho they are.ibu kate be careful with mafia..cik belle n rakan2 gelak saje when i told them dat.see..told ya!last winter me,farah, n idah pernah traumatized di budapest.biaselaa.u turun frm train n kene serbu by "muslims" chasing u for ur euro currency.dis time..summer plak.n i tot we already had d worst.apetah lg when u hv d other 8 diablos,takkaaann laa org nk kaco kn.dis time kitorg kne cheated plak dgn dis pakcik2(n makcik yg i assume is d uncle's wife) yg kononnye kitorg xvalidate our tix.wic is true but mn ade org check tix at 11pm!!dgn kemarahan melampau cik farah n kebatuan hati we all makanya "fine" 6000 HUF each jd 75euro for evry1.i dlm hati wat d fish fish FISH!! pakcik nih.myb dlm hati pakcik..alhamdulillah, lepas laa anak g skolah or xpon..woohoo!!lpas duit beer mlm nih.. pakcik kayo!! hmm biase laa.travelling kl xkne mcm nih,kite panggil honeymoon.n kl i honeymoon pun budapest is surely not in my list.

> i hv to learn the hungarian keyboard to type dis.
> budapest still best but tk note..validate ur tix!!
> en jawa report chelsea lose by 1 penalty to man u.oww man!!x rugi i tdo sambil dgr org jerit2 kt hostel aritu.but..love u ronaldo!!
> en fry..i didnt get u any postcards.duit tu abes kt pakcik kayo!! tu..dem u pakcik stephan or watever u r.i igt muka u smp mati!!haha

hii..awk free tak?

2008-05-13T20:49:00.009+01:00

aftr spending hrs 'warming' d wooden chair n overheating my laptop..i realized ive done nothing.
byk2 yg i posted on my 'self-exhibitory' wall..satu je yg i managed to follow,effortlessly..which 1?

- "hello gorgeous..ngh watpe?" - rujuk prev entry.ehh its ok.ignore..
- i want to go to d 'laundry'.nk send my heart n soul.sape nk ikut?!

superblurr is not super anymore

2008-05-12T02:59:00.014+01:00

"WAT??wat d fish?!u tink i hard up sgt dgn u?plss laa.."
"oo tak ke?why?i tot u suke kt i.wheres ur love baybeh"
"ahh talk to my elbow la.dlu i tgu u lame tau.smp hati u tak tgu i."
"i smp.u yg xsmp.ur jez too..'cute'(sambil melevelkan tgn to his chest)..ehh,i mean,u mmg cute.bkn sekali tau,tp 2kali cutenye ok"
"euww...cheesy string u xde effect kt i ok.nurse2 kt hosp tmpt u keje tu bole la.ouh 1 more thing,u blaja type msg gune normal spelling bole x?i allergic laa dgn spelling pelatmanja u tu.antihistamine pon xbole nk tolong tau"
"oo u tak syuke eh i ckp2 pelat cani.ngk..i chomel ape"
"u nk i haematemesis kt cni jugak ke?"
"ok2,sorryyy.then..u nk i buat ape rite now?anythg for u sweetpea,intan payung abg"
"hmm..haa i nk u tgu sorg2 kt bridge klcc ni smp subuh esok.i wanna go down n look for my pralines n cream.jgn harap u nk share.bye,assalamualaikum.."

- "awk kne keraskan hati.bile hati awk keras xde org mainkan awk.tp jgn keras sgt nnt xbole bukak plak" - pinjam frm a morning 'cerekarama'script.thx en jawa *wink*
- thx hana sponsoring song.wo you ee ke cece.i miss u cece..synchronise (:

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- jgn merungut bila panas or when u walk barefooted on sharp pebbly stones.good food,sunny day,photogenic face..come wit a price.

baju kurung biru muda

2008-05-09T22:46:00.005+01:00

these few days ppl frm d past keep knocking at my door.nasib baik my auto gate bersalut emas 25karat imported frm India sgt tough n sgt impossible to get in.apetah lg dgn terinstallnya anti bug-a-boo-er security system, MRSA pon xbole masuk.unless i yg tekan butang VACANT dan butang OPEN, gate bertatah emas n diamonds tersebut akan sentiasa tightly shut.syikin kata i hv to be strong.ppl frm d past myb akan attack i and send me to ER again ie syikin's hse.sila apply invisible cream.

-miss ibu n mama.miss abah yg suke belikan durian n mangoes.miss pau kaya n paper tosai setinggi 0.5meter too.

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cik L "aku mmg dpt rs mak mertua aku nnt mesti garang."
cik P "mmg laa.kne laa dgn ko.ko kn degil!" acceptance is so easy.
cik HB "aku rs laa,aku mesti dpt mak mertua baik.nk2 kalau.." i xsempat melengkapkn ayat bila..
cik P "haa..yee.mak mertua ko mesti best.kl xbest pon die rs die best.sbb ko slalu rs ko best!- sambil mengulingkan body beliau ke katil dan bergelak jemaah bersama cik L.

- i mmg rs i best.best sgttt..ahaha..knape kite crite psal mak mertua eh?lupee..
- en "i mmg coool" ajak i tgk ironman td.aishh..ajakan yg mmg i tgu2 bcoz i really wanna watch dat movie.but i dgn willingnya n tanpa berfikir pjg i reply "no,i cant.i kne masak ptg ni.mlm ni pon kne tolong cik lyana masak.sorry ye"..thx for trying (:
- d last seerah talk jez ended jez now. ni bang bil nak tanye,pd pendpt adik ye..ape yg adik dpt dr keseluruhan talk2 tersebut?i kate i dpt regret.regret bcoz i didnt mk any initiatives of my own to learn any of those stuff.i mmg living proof of generasi spoon-fed yg berjaya.
- how many times u shed ur tears for rasulullah?how many times u selawat arini?i kate..ermm

catatan subuh

2008-05-01T02:14:00.006+01:00

mlm penuh berkat tanpa hujan.angin yg i rs hanyalah angin panas dr blower heater 1.2kw.lagu PAGI YANG GELAP by HUJAN sudah masuk round ketiga.mmg sengaja niat i utk wujudkan repeatency.test my brain power to suppress vomitting centre secara natural.i dun believe in drugs.selagi i bole survive without them,i dun need to intoxify my body with unnecessary chemicals.ehh..papan tanda Uturn di hadapan.aahh...lagu rancak bervokal suara monotonous nih membuat i semakin TWINSICK...sengaja i layan perasaan itu.hidup dan mood i mmg berkadar langsung dgn lagu yg ditune.dis is too pathetic!
laporan ilmubedah memanggil2 di depan laptop tapi mmg fitrah manusia bernama cahaya berbinti rosli,bertelinga soundproof,allergic to kerajinan melampau.rajin tak rajin, i tinggal lg satu lagi report.im a nerd in denial.

internet buat ke-18 kalinya meminta diberi sidekick.ini bukan sebarang net,ini smarttelecom.kepandaiannya paling menyerlah di waktu petang atau slps mkn malam di mana penggunaan dilakukan secara berjemaah.i xkesah.i mmg suka berlari2 anak upstairs utk memberi sidekick itu.adakalanya i beri peluang penghuni rumah supersocial yg lain mendapat pahala.kata hana Allah saja nk bg pahala free.terima kasih smarttelecom.segala contengan arang berbentuk curses i harap dierasekn dgn kalimat istighfar.i bkn marah.u tentu tahu konsep menstrual cycle kn.wrong timing bilamana u cuba menunjuk kepandaian ketika i sedang berchat with hana or significant humanbeings,beryoutube atau berfacebook.its ok.u tetap malaise snail kesayangan kami.

ini bukan meja milik i.ini cik pulut yg punya.beliau semakin jarang di rumah.bersosial dgn anak siapa2 entah.exam adalah trigger utama.makanya i guna kesempatan ini utk mendekatkn diri dgn router.thx cik pulut (:(:

- liverpool,u layak mendapat pat di kepala.u played well.but chelsea agak taf tadi.dun be sad.hani kan ada..
- i lepaskan 'rindu'.i bloghopping n visit en johnhafiz yg semakin 'ruffedge' n also en ahmad kamal abu bakar dlm nerakanya. nice to see u again :)
- sidekick = off n on router sambil cursing atau memujuk rayu
- kata en faiz.."awk nih lawak laa"..i kate "threshold awk rendah"
- 4:07 am. i dh lepas had ke'slow'an.hana sedang bersiap ke carrefour.maka kepada siapa lagi i mahu mengadu situasi perut i yg lapar ni.ahh..pu erh tea dlm mug dh habis. i mungkin akan memecah tradisi cik pulut.pergi ke kitchen seawal 4 pagi utk mkn roti.

hijau itu yummie..

2008-04-30T00:15:00.008+01:00

ciken tensionxm "eh ko ni.jgn laa baling2 kuih tu"
ciken cudntcareless "aku xbaling laa.aku.." sambil cuba menjustify statement tersebut dgn memasukkn 1 biji lagi kuih di dlm minyak panas atas dapur.
ciken tensionxm "aishh..mcm ni..k letak hujung die pastu.." skill yg tersisa cuba diinheritkan.
ciken cudntcareless "aku xnak kne minyak.aku letak kt tepi mcm nih.."
check2!rock2!
ciken cudntcareless "xcantik laa pulut"
ciken tensionxm "sbb ko buat xcantik" muncungkn lg lips anda.
ciken cudntcareless membalas tanpa membuka mulut..dia yg buat lembik pon kacang nih,heh.
"aishh nih kl mak mertua tgk nih.kite kl nk tunjuk dpn mak mertua kne buat dgn skill.br la xkne marah" repeat action.
"alaa..aku tau laa.aku buat la ni.." check2!rock2! again..
"aishh..kn mak mertua dh marah.."
"mak mertua marah ke?hummph..xnk laa aku jd menantu ko nnt"
"aku pon tak sudi jd mak mertua ko.."

- i br berjinak2 dlm pembuatan kuih traditional nih.weirdly enuf,i never really like it back hme but bila buat sendiri rs lg addictive plak.
- "eh korg nih masak ape lg nih.smlm kak tuti dtg tgk hani buat kek,arini korg buat kuih pulak" kn best exam hari2..

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"*****,kl aku kata aku rs aku dh past d phase of anticipating nk dpt bf or even getting maried,bole x?"
"eh bole but aku still rs nk kawen laa"
"yeah aku pon,xkn xnak kawen.but aku xnk jdkan itu priority.aku rs aku dh mlas nk pk kot n rs ade byk lg benda lain yg aku kne pk rather than bfs or getting married.like studies(eheh)..or what if tmrw aku mati,aku rs ada byk lg yg aku xbuat"
"oo bgs laa" tone tu bole best lg.berusaha ye
"aishh..aku ckp je mcm ni.tgk2 next week aku tukar blk.biase laa aku"
"tp ****,kite mmg mcm tu.aku pon slalu cmtu,****.skejap aku rs mcm ni,skejap lg aku rs mcm tu.mmg perempuan mcm ni ke?"
terigt the hsemate yg sanggup pergi blk dunnes to exchange d towel dat she got a week ago from green to purple.hmm..wat color u want to get dry with?
"dunno.agaknye la kot.but ko xrs ke statement aku td cam ayat2 loser?yelaa dh lose hope..dh mcm..mlas laa"
"eh xde laa.bgs ape.aku xrs pon tu ayat loser"
"yeke?ash pnah ckp..if org kata,appearance xpenting.superficial je seme tu.yg penting hati.kiranya kl gemuk pon xkesah la.bullsh** je tu.itu ayat loser."
perbualan terpaksa dicut utk focus melintas jalan menuju big cathedral.

- man u 1-0 barca..aishh..sabar ye pulut..
- surgical report,spm project,biodegradables...di mana anda letakkan prioritas anda?
- dun give up en kamil.kl u xberjaya,duit tu u beli bmw pastu bole laa i tumpang (:(:

kedokteran kemalasan

2008-04-27T15:40:00.011+01:00

i love forensics.forensics lect fill with pictures dat excite d neurones in my brain.i suka belajar sejarah.ramai juga yg suka sej mcm i.contohnya cik pulut.learning forensics mcm belajar sejarah juga.napoleon suffered a slow death bcoz of arsenic poisoning.myb i suka tgk CSI.but i xsuka bila mereka2 came up with cheesy dialogues or act like as if theyre d coolest cold guy in town.yess..its u en. grissom.
"ape perasaan u bila u first2 tgk mayat?" soalan cik F bergaya ellen degeneres,synchronised dgn penapakan kaki kami dpn mortuary uchg.
"hmm..rs biase je.xde terkjut ke,ape ke.excited ade la.eheh.." sambut i spontan tanpa berfikir dahulu.
"i rs bila tgk mayat yg horror2 tu (esp those in forensics lect),kita bole je mati mcm tu."
"haah kn.kl xsakit,kite bole mati mcm tu je." i terigt uncle yg jatuh corrib river dlu.mati lemas adlh salah satu cara pemulangan roh yg menyakitkn.esp kl air laut.but drowning in swimmingpool is more unlikely to survive.i dun want to be a forensic.

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dats it.its been too long perkataan matang,mature,kurang matang menimbun2 dpn telinga.myb i lupa pacakkan pn papan tanda 'ini bukan kawasan pembuangan rubbish ok'.n telinga i nih pon bkn kaw dpan 7-11orCENTRA ataupun taman tasik tmpt piknik yg manusia2 bole tinggalkn 'rubbish' sbb mlas nk reach rubbishbin 5meter di hdpn.those words dat unintentionally knocked my eardrum i susulkn dgn perkataan rimas,lemas,penat,n a long muted sigh.sorry,I dont mean to offend anyone..i noe lpas nih sure dh xdgr dh those words kn kn.perkataan2 tersebut dh dianggap expired.sgt sesuai tmptnya di dlm kotak kasut dlm cupboard.keluarkn bila rindu je.i meant only d words yeah.kekalkan verbnya mengikut keselesaan kamu.yg rs kurang selesa,try to go to d next level.eh myb ur engines dh panas dh.i je still duduk dpn cermin besar.aishh..

nama saya jamoca almond fudge yg melting

- i miss ibu.ini bkn lg in denial.2nites ive been dreaming of hugging her.i 'on bluetooth' trying to find hana.HANAAAA..buzz2.beliau hilang lg.beliau xm next week.paper ilmu kedokteran masyarakat katanya.i xmahu tahu lebih lanjut.i ada ilmu bedah yg perlu dihabiskan.bila dh jumpe hana,i pon curhat2 la..rupa2nya hana pon mimpi ibu n ayah.aiyerr..u tdo same mimpi pon dgn mimpi i (: gilut ana? GILUT??haha..
- ahh..bosan.nk jog laa ptg nih.mahu tp malas..i nk hitchhike michael j fox time machine ride to last fri di mana girlfriends menonton horror movies berjemaah n juga mempromote 'bf' masing2.bliss..
- ouh cik icecherryberry,if im not mistaken u nih datin miraedora meleTOP tu kn?of coz.takkaann laa i xknal..weee..

15kilos of organics

2008-04-21T20:22:00.010+01:00

masuk shj conference room,kelibat datin jasmina tampil bergaya dgn selendang strikingpurple yg super glam tu menangkap mata.datin nourish menggeleng kepala.bkn sekali dua,malah lapan kali juga,beliau harus mengingatkn bestbuddy beliau itu agar lebih prihatin tentang kesihatan optic nerve kalangan ahli jawatankuasa tertinggi dan kurang tinggi yg hadir.tak apelah, kata datin jasmina, beliau beli semasa aktiviti kebajikan di bangladesh.hmm liplap pon liplap lahh..
" can everybody pls settle down.meeting nk start dh ni" jeritan sopan ayu dr datin pauziah dr kepala meja oval teakwood.layak sungguh beliau dilantik sbg naib prez parsatuan komuniti rebanciken kampung prematang."d main purpose of this meeting being held is bcoz kita nk discuss ttg bunyi2 bising yg dtg dr penghuni rebanciken seberang kampung kesygan kita,kg seberangbulatan.saya terpaksa bentangkan hal ini ke meja bali imported kita kali ini sbb saya ada mendgr perihal2 yg agak kurang enak malah lemau dr pihak komuniti rebanciken kampung seberangbulatan." datin nourish hanya tersenyum penuh makna.
mmg sdah dijangka,sambutan bbq sempena pecahtanah rebanciken bernanoteknologi yg baru kelmarin akan createkn kontroversi yg layak terpampang dlm harian metro.bkn sbb tapak tanah,tp isu penyelenggaraan sambutan bbq serdak n cacings wkend lepas.
bg penghuni kampung sebrangbulatan ia agak kurang professional dan tidak menepati garis panduan yg telah ditetapkan agama.datin nourish sudah sedia maklum akan hal tersebut sejak membaca bersama sms yg diterima cikpuan pauziah pagi itu dr wakil penduduk lg seberang.hanya menunggu masa.usai pembentangan 'masalah' dlm tgn oleh dato' jalaludin,prez persatuan, kelihatan ahli sidang yg berkerut dahi.ada yg membisu muka blank,spt datin saripah yg duduk di hdpn datin nourish.
"kita ada buat salah ke?rsnya semua masih in ctrl.i ade buat ape2 aksi2 melampau ke?takde kann?"kata hati separa berbisik datin nourish. "kita bole accept teguran selagi berasas.." lantunan suara dato' hazami.isu blog,isu gambar2 event,isu bukumuka berserta video turut diutarakan, menghangitkan lg suasana.datin nourish rs uncomfortable.plg sesuai dilakukan dlm situasi tersebut adalah senyum,buat muka tinking dan mendgr.video yg memperlihatkn aksi2 premature syndrome hadirin/rat majlis bbq tidak disangka mnjadi slah satu sumber interprestasi songsang pihak2 berkenaan.heavy,supersarat..apetah lg ciken2 dlm kalangan penghuni kg prematang dicop sbg ciken2 bermutu tinggi,harapan negara.tidak dinafikan penghuni kg prematang byk memegang posisi2 tinggi dlm kebykan persatuan matang peringkat daerah.semmgnya itu satu ujian.
tanpa disedari ada 2 wakil suarapendapat dr kampung seberang yg membaling soalan "cuba tanya diri sendiri kenapa kita perlu lakukn semua itu(aka bbq jemaah)?kita boleh fikir sendiri".ada yg kata betul,tiada yg kata slah.hmm there must be a way.n that way is dat we hv to invite married representatives yg boleh memantau sebrg aktiviti berjemaah komuniti rebanciken kg prematang.itu kata mereka.bg wakil2 kg seberang, semestinya itu bkn jln lurusnya.bg datin nourish,beliau tidak mahu cpt melatah.kata2 itu mahal.yg mahal selalu fragile.datin nourish tidak mampu berkata sebaik org lain.tetapi beliau tahu yg lebih baik semmgnya lebih baik.aktiviti itu bg beliau semmgnya berniat baik.kita satu keluarga bukankah?itu kata datin,kata org lain??but she admits, dlm baik2 itu ada keterlanjuran yg tidak disengajakan.break xmkn kdg2.hati semestinya tahu rasa itu.oppss..mmg oppss..spt kata datin belina,"kita semua dr diff backgrd." datin nourish tahu setiap org ade threshold n interprestasi yg berbeza.kita hanya bole meminta refuge,protection dr keignorant kita sendiri.long story short,ciken2 dlm ahli mesyuarat adhoc ptg td,unanimously willing to accept teguran hotperi2 tersebut.tiada kata putus mengenai langkah2 seterusnya,perlukah mereka mencakarayamkan teks ucapan maaf dan huraian lengkap event?perlukah mereka membatalkan segala aktiviti2 tahunan penghuni rebanciken ataupun sudah masanyakah kalangan penghuni to get married to validise n to purify an event?not to be contd...
a little help here.cant help but vomit..
'semuliamulia manusia ialah siapa yg mempunyai adab, merendahkan diri ketika berkedudukan tinggi, memaafkan ketika berdaya membalas dan bersikap adil ketika kuat.
-Khalifah Abdul Malik bin Marwan.

- i puasa harini.while blogjumping,saya jumpe ini kat saharil conteng.cant stop staring at it.n to tink kek rainbow org melaka dh cukup striking.

- hana once said "kita dh besar,dh 24 hani.kita dh tak boleh buat mcm tu lg.takbole mcm dlu"...
- i simply cant get enough of u,michael buble
- need to stay up to compensate my time garbaging.
- jumpe cerpen en saharil hasrin sanin.teruja beta! ;)

cold malaise day

2008-04-17T17:08:00.003+01:00

- hana sent me his song through ym dis morning.my sis kate dis young newcomer frm indon top skrg nih.dgr2,eh pretty gud laa his voice.the song pon best la kn smp i repeat 8kali.smp terlmbt pegi MDM kt hosp pg td.my sis kate watch laa his MV.cute..i i imagine his face ala2 marcel gitu loh.ishh..cant believe dat sweet voice comes frm dis cutie.igtkn actor.mmg cute sgt la hana..jez listen to his cover version of john legend's ordinary ppl.i was like..serious 18 yrs old?!voice box die besar mn?tmbh lg sorg fan die..u punya glasses sama design pon dgn sy punye glasses..

Rasulullah SAW bersabda:"Allah berfirman":"SikapKu hanya tergantung persangkaan hambaKu terhadap diriKu saja. Dan aku akan selalu menyertai hambaKu selama ia berdzikir kepadaKu. Kalau ia berdzikir kepadaKu dalam hatinya,Aku juga akan mengingatnya dalam hatiKu. Apabila ia berdzikir kepadaKu di tengah keramaian, Aku juga akan mengingatnya di tengah keramaian yang lebih baik lagi. Apabila ia mendekatiKu sejengkal, Aku mendekatinya sehasta. Apabila ia mendekat kepadaKu sejarak satu hasta, Aku akan mendekatinya sejarak satu depa. Apabila ia mendekatiKu dengan berjalan, Aku akan mendatanginya dengan setengah berlari."-diriwayatkan oleh Al-Bukhari VIII/171, oleh Muslim IV/2061.

- thx hana.i need that :)
- i igt i nk write an email to fasha sandha laa.i nk kate.."im so so sorry.no matter how gedik u r n how allergic i am to ur voice.there's no excuse for me to ngumpating u, or mimicking ur voice to entertain other ppl.we even used to watch ur movies jez so we cud hv a 'big laugh'..no no no,those are not gud excuses.so pls accept my apology.oo n im still using garnier moisturizer spf range cik fasha.blk nnt im gonna cont buying it.kot..tq" ok sumbody find me her email add..

makna heaven 2

2008-04-14T22:41:00.028+01:00

- "..ayam2 nih ko buat main2 je laa..main pondok2.."- en jali dgn 'statement yg xde makna' beliau

- i mlas laa nk ckp pape kn..

- barisan chef2 mannnja charcoal grill...tgk bwh ape jd??!!

- ayam golek..cicah hp pon sedaapp..sebbaik mmg btul mantap ciken korg (:

- en jawa sgt critical,kes ayam golek is a serious offence ..3second rule?10second rule pon bole..weee

- its ok..u guys layak to be in d same photo with us girls..weee

- "nnt pinah jeles.." -suap je,cik lyana.sharing is caring

- each of us got 2 ciken legs to finish..nmpk usaha cik amira (:

- e'eh..rajin btul anak dara sorg nih.sjuk hati pakcik nurdin..wee

- 4MB 0708 aka batch super social.socially healthy(or healthily social) (:
- sila tampal gmbr didi,ronnie,lillian..whoever went missing.ouh n 3/4 of en aiyad..

i present u..msia's future doctors..

wat behind d scenes...
- en jawa dgn 'trick' cacinggemuk terbang beliau
- galway's next top models..sila mengaku cik amira,cik belle and en thava
- perut ber'muscle'..ye,perut bermuscle en burn..weee
- 2nd degree burn ayam...karbon itu nikmat,rite u guys
- ujian pendgran,ujian penglihatan,ujian ketidakpenggunaan otak.."dia suka green,tak suka hijau,suka musolla taksuka masjid"(en fahmi nih bgs laa).ape lg dlm social calendar kita? bole cari 'ujian2' lg in advance,ngehee

- bbq set $$euro, gazebo yg cool 15euro, 2tong cikensihatpakmat $$euro,fooood haven $$euro,happy faces n tummies..priceless (:
- thx to rumah penganjur,classmates kesyangan beta n en jawa for d lovely shots of our happy moment..

recycling day

2008-04-11T21:18:00.015+01:00

FRI morning,comp suite,clinical sc. inst..

cik F "hani, i dh jatuh cinta kt bdak 18 thn!!cinta hati i.."
cik HB "huh,18??siape plak ni?org mn?aishh.."
cik F "nih haa..u kne dgr suara macho die.." sambil men'search'kn FTisland MV in youtube as evidence kecomelan bf br beliau.
cik HB "...dh agak dh.u nih kn,kl x penyanyi,pelakon.. x pelakon, penyanyi..realistic laa skett.."
cik F "hmm nk buat mcm mn,i rs i xkn jumpe true love dlm hidup nih.." dgn tone cerekarama.

uu,serius gitu loh..why cik F?WHY??i cnt accept that esp frm someone as attractive as u,n as cute as me..jez bcoz kisah yg di'tooot'kn itu.i faham.when u tink ur bullet train is superfast,when u tink it was goodbye forever,ade je 'kesan degil' tu kn..aishh..i pon pnah fall into dat weak spot cik F.we all hv.sengaja la knn..
haa..apekataa,kita listkn all d characteristics yg cik F cari dlu.ermm rationalization,bg clear sket..myb dat will help.kot..?
lets see,of coz cik F nk yg baik beriman kn.n yet cool n funny.yg dependable,smart..wat else,pemurah(penting2),good prospects,btul?n patient je dgn u yg suke ber'netball' itu,n suke bercerita itu,n bertravel itu,kn.hee..tmbah best lg yg bole jd perfect role model to u n ur children.plg2 pon someone who wud cl u for jemaah prayer,btul??ouh n of coz..athletic like u,basketballer,footballer..plg2pon pemain pingpong peringkat daerah,am i rite?..
haa..so,when u hv listed all those things..u rs borang survey encik frm d past tu tick most of d above ke tak?esp yg bold for emphasisation tu?bole ke die jd someone yg u bole respect bersujud2 nnt?

-hmm..does it help if i remind u dat im 24 dis yr n very much happily single?so whenever u,d '85 baby, ever worry abt not finding anyone rite now, optimistkn ur mind plss.
- oleh itu adik2,xsemestinya sumthg or someone yg best tu baik utk kita kn..n vice versa.mcm chocolate,esp butlers.kite igt mkn je,we get fat.ade antioxidant rupanya..
- for peace n contentment..
hasbiyAllahu lailahaillahuwa 'alaihi tawakkaltu wahuwarabbul'arshil'azim... cukuplah ALLAH bagiku..ape la sgt manusia2 itu kn.letakkan cermin besar dpn i :)
- symptoms of restless nerves or plg2 pon liquefactive necrosis of our brain. 'efek samping' when 2 girls doing MIME together.

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last nite..
hani rosli : u tink ppl cn change his mentality?
Hana Rosli : mentality is subjective to d changes of d surroundings n situations
Hana Rosli : dats wut i tink
hani rosli : yup..
Hana Rosli : n sumtimes
hani rosli : but if he doesnt want to change his surroundings??
Hana Rosli : according to wuts beneficial to him or her needs
hani rosli : ok..
hani rosli : thx ana
hani rosli : dats wat i tink too
Hana Rosli : mane dtg ntah bende tu
Hana Rosli : tp,tu yg ana rase
hani rosli : jez dat some ppl dont want to change
hani rosli : or dont see dat he has to change
hani rosli : comfortable wit his state of mind
hani rosli : dat makes him ignorant n shallow
Hana Rosli : yup
Hana Rosli : i noe sumone or sum ppl like dat
Hana Rosli : so,i try to b ignorant of dat ppl too

- oo kne ke ignore?xsmp ati plss..
- one way of keeping my sis awake d whole nite to finish her report is by discussing somethg pointless.
- dr roq called me 'master of citer2 best'..bole laa,ehee
- ibu..rinduuu..lmbtnya 56days itu :(

train to Fri pls

2008-04-08T23:08:00.006+01:00

Two days ago, rumah super social jd ‘Sleepingbag&Bfast', accomodating(up sket than Bed&Bfast at Salthill) a few girls frm Cork n Dublin.eventho jez for a nite nmpk jelas kepuasan hati dgn layanan n ke’warm’an yg diorg terima.malah diorg amazed (n myb sdikit envy) dgn single rooms yg lumayan besar setiap pemastautin tetap rumah ni.bertmbh iri lg bila tau d rent yg I byr for my room.Expected...weee
Yesterday,we all terima lg kunjungan hormat frm Dublin. But dis time orgnya lbih 'senior',bkn single,beranak 3,berkelulusan lebih tinggi,in fact she was a lecturer in upm,came here last yr to do PhD in biomed.i didnt noe there are alot of msian postgrads in Dub City Uni.kak tuti was 1 of d pioneers.As soon as i opened d door, kak tuti terus tegur as if dh knal 5 thn.yess,kak tuti mmg seorg postgrad yg superfriendly.terigt plak ngn kak adib,doctor beranak 3 yg supercool frm dublin.
citcat ngn kak tuti smbil mkn mee goreng tapau frm AGM MYS mlm tu,ter opened a few interesting topics.cik pulut looked excited esp masuk cerita anak2 manja kak tuti.i pon bertmbh curious sbb kak tuti cerita her 8 yr old son can converse in irish-english without any manglish accent in a very short time.method ape yg they all guna ye.yelaa,if not to my little baby sisters probbly i can apply it to my future mini-'me's.quote kata cik pulut.."rs mcm nk anak je kt cni.anta diorg skolah cni"..i meng'yes'kn.kl bole i pon nk jugak my childen mcm aqilah n sarah,anak dr fendi.kata kak tuti,cikgu2 mmg slalu interact with parents to discuss d child's progress.education system kt cni eventho nmpk less stressful,mmg jauh lebih effective frm msia.bkn kite kononnya ikut british system ke?sila buka buku sejarah n learn frm mistakes pls..
- best kn cik pulut,skrg kita dh knal lecturer berPhD bkn medic.i feel old..

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monday was hari yg malang.malang ke?not really.jez dat,me,louise n cat jumpe dis 1 patient yg sgt laa menakutkn.scary bcoz he had dis reputation of giving quite a hard time to students who met him.kata pon senior nurse kat UCHG.so byk laa dia tau abt health services,katanya.his case is quite interesting,ankolysing spondyllitis n diagnose with Bcell lymphoma.but still inconclusive..he seems to be quite healthy for someone who had undergone 3rd cycle chemotherapy.up n abt,eager to 'torture' us.so kitorg pon manipulate his willingness dgn history n examinations.i xkesah if u r willing to share ur knowledge,its good.but jgn laa intimidating sgt pakcik,even louise yg terer tu pon takut.unfortunately of all d days,i had to wear my new shoe on mon.d pain in my toe seriously,add to my suffering.distracting btull.n i noe i sorg je msian kt situ.look at me pls when u talk..hmm xpe2 evrythg pon part of d process.jez go through je laa,blk msia in less than 2 mths.yeah!!

- tutorial with dr dunne n mock xm mime.wic one i nk prepare dlu nih?at d same time im watching sinderela.bole x??
- draught season sgt merisaukan..knape ni.i xshopping pon en faiz.serius tak..
- sorry ibu.ani terpaksa pergi prague dis may.reason : to improve social well-being? future doctors 'conference'? (:

remote tampal

2008-04-03T19:45:00.014+01:00

hv u ever had a remote ctrl (for d tv esp) dat only works when we gv it a knock or smack on its 'bottoms',even when its batt full?d kind which is used as a hammer or a boomerang by ur little sis(or bro)?d kind wic i am rite now?..aftr weeks without lectures n attachments, my whole system was thrown into a shock.weirdly enuff, my biological clock still maintain its 4-5hrs sleep during d easter brk n was doing fine.bt bile time kite kne ade kt hosp kol 730pg,i mcm sloth berpyjama yg tdo dlm duvet.alarm clock tepi katil,dgn 'plan B' berbentuk alarm clck hp bervolume 7,mmg mampu buat i buka mata but not sufficient enuff to mk me get off d bed.
i kate,if u failed d first time,dont try n try again.persistence does not guarantee a success if u still make d same moves n same mistakes.so tmrw i will put my alarm 5meters away frm d bed n when d alarm 'singing' again at 5am, u'll be sure to see me in d shower.weee...
- i dun quite like d spring at nite.kol 8lbey pon terang lg n before we noe it,it's already 10pm n we still on d couch watching tv.

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im proud of myself today.i went to d breast clinic,i was on time,n i spent d whole 5hrs there,sitting by d patients.did some history taking of each patient dat went into d room i was in,being useful to d doctors ard,palpating n feeling d breasts...1 je yg i xbrp suka,was when patient mula2 masuk.evry patient put d same glump,distraught look.n i noe,they'd prefer to talk directly to d doctors instead of talking to a 4th yr med student,but nk buat cmne..i terpaksa amik patient's history before doktor masuk.so..xkesah laa aunty,kl aunty buat muka nk xnk layan,n xkesah laa kakak,kl kakak buat muka yg menyampahkn,i faham.in dat situation,stress is in d air.i rs better i jez go straight to my ques,be done wit it n trus diam.ade makcik tu suke je melayan hani yg byk cerita nih.tu laa,boring tau..sape suruh doktor g lunch lame sgt.sian aunty tu..sebbaik her physical exam ok.tgu mammogram je.
but bkn itu yg buat i kuar frm d clinic wit a big smile nmpk gigi.of coz,evry single time aftr an attachment,we wud heard somethg like.."oo,doc X tu hensem gler i tell u,nnt i tunjuk mn satu" or "im falling in lovee!!dr Y tu besstt sgt.."..n today,i used d latter one.he's dr matt or tj as he'd intro himself to d patient.he's not tall,dark n handsome,in fact he's jez a simple,yet smart looking blonde wit pale blue eyes.he makes patients laugh n wit his manners,warm n charm,he makes me fall for him.sgt willing n eager plak tu nk ajar n all.n he remembrs my name..awww..(sheepishly).if only ur a msian,dr matt.tmrw jmpe lg ke?

- pnat je g town td,tix is not ready till next wk.sebbaik i xlarat to be mad.hewhew..
- i am so tired dat i threw my body on my pink bed,wit my blue formal attire n socks still on,i switched on my laptop n started writing crap.
- i want choc,any kind.cadbury milk pon ok..sum1 get me one for buka arini.plss..

7hours diff

2008-03-31T00:37:00.012+01:00

a guy fren of mine once sighed,"..what is dis thg between girls and food anyway.girls r jez so obsessed abt food.."..ye2 En Agus.i hv to admit our lives DO revolve ard food.but in our defence,female minds are made in such a way dat is easily manipulated by anythg comforting n pampering,namely chocolates,shopping,'storytelling',warm bath,baking etc..u shud be thankful maa.jez think.bcoz of us girls' insatiable needs for soul 'food' n pleasures,baskin robbins has 31 flavors.myb we were d inspirations of secret recipe's heavenly warm,thick choc mud cake,n we probabbly d biggest contributors to cadbury's choc empire.well who created 'comfort food' anyway..WOMEN!ironically,we spend as much money on buying food as much as we do on 'losing' it.
- gluteus max : "heyy..arent we supposed to get on d road dis morning?"

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i've been filling my time watching all sorts of 'inspirational',melodramatic, twisted movies these few days.i jez got caught up by qoutes,lines or sumthg dat my brain's inarticulate language centre could only wish to say.usually wat always come out of me mouth aftr an argument were merely mumbo jumbo and sumtimes i mutter or swallow my words.n then i'd go,why ooh why i didnt say dis n dis..hmm i think it's a rslt of mixture of ke'jam'an otak and being too tactful not to make a freudian slip as i wud do when i talk brainlessly.hmm..some ppl are jez born to talk n some ppl to listen.
as i said,i jez love to listen to good scripts.hmm..myb i am easily attracted towards cool intelligent guys.doesnt talk much but when he does,evry uttered word r worth listening n mesmerized.like Edward Norton in Painted Veil...i melted like double choc icecream under scorching hot sun.
- CONGRATS to all Galway netball girls for winning d Cork Games.thx ishqi,our imported probono player from germany.we love u!galway rocks!! :)

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i've decided to make a list.a list similar to Earl's.but instead of listing things to make up for my wrongdoings to other ppl, my list will be on things dat i shud do for myself.yeah2..most ppl probbly hv done dis dozen of times,no biggie.xtulis dlm blog pon myb..but when i said for myself,its far frm pampering nor rewarding myself.d biggest reward probabbly,God's willing,at d end of d process.oprah?dr phil?help anyone?ishh..no wonder they said,buat baik mmg ssh mcm sains roket,buat jahat snng mcm ABC.sila translate in english.me,tekan START button.
watever it is..i xsabar nk blk msia!

- Earl ckp td "..quitting smoking is like prison.if u survive d first 3 days,u can go through d coming days.."
- thx marisa for novel Ketika Cinta Bertasbih (i jez started reading)n for d sumptious laksa swak.2nd rnd biase laa..3??uuu..
- blue M&Ms dh join sedara2nya yg xde artificial coloring.im still half black sheep.

bounjor no!

2008-03-27T16:41:00.025Z

MILAN
jez one nite stay but left us wit one good lesson.next time if u want to ask for direction,mk sure u choose local faces.if u dun want to get stuck wit some clueless guys but jez too eager to send u to d door of ur hotel room,pls..arabs,a big NO NO.-"..it's ok.i'm muslim..no baba?no mama?"..last2 mintak num.wat d fish?!

VENICE
i got out frm d train station dgn perasaan nk lompat2 at d sight of d clear gleaming water.overwhelmed sgt tu.our hotel was in Lido island,jez an hr 'busride' through THE GRANDE CANALE.d 'taxi',a white luxurious motorboat,probbly cost abit more.hmm..my first off-land traffic jam.jez like Italian Job..a stroll along Rialto,some bangla guys or ppl frm ard those regions,called us in malay.uishh..fluent!promo faked prada.n i swore i heard.."saya cinta kamu".hmm..handsome xpe jugak..last day,we met a few msians who r working in london.expression muka xpuas hati clearly shown when they noe we r jez students.students xbole travel ke uncle?..yeayy!!now dh ble cross-out venice from my-top-vacation-come true list.
- gondola ride hv to be put on hold.until further notice.weee...
-an ice cream a day,keep dat sunshine to stay.yumm!!seriously..mkn iceceam smp gemuk is a must do when u reach italy.

FLORENCE
aka Firenze.1st impression,mcm pasar mlm kt msia swarmed by amigos selling leather goods.but im strong.not interested pon..PISA.not tall enough for us to assume d distance.20mins tops power walk.d fastest way to get warm in windy weather..d clouds were so unreal,painted-like.when they move,gv us d effect of a fallen Pisa when we looked up.serius xtipu..
- aishh..almost perfect pose.almost!!
- En jawa,xdpt jumpe pon David.we mistook him for a wrong 'person' at first.mn EnDavid nih tinggal sbnrnye?

ROME
Youth Camping Village.i wont recommend it to erm..newly weds,unless ur an adventurous couple n dun mind d instability of d chalets.sufficiently warm n strategic tho.im not kidding.
Colosseo.d heavy rain didnt break our spirits.yg xde payung bli payung.drenched from knee below,pruned toes,ape laa sgt.kne tinggal by our tourguide yg mahal,ape la sgt.we still managed to find a new guide.n so wat if we had to join all d other multinational 'gladiators' swarming outside d tix booth in d rain.my arms je lenguh pegang payung tinggi2.our guess bcoz vatican was closed as pope berhari ry(holy easter sunday)dat day,so diorg nih xde tmpt lain nk pegi.knape x pegi smyg ry?hmm well it was all worth it.

NAPLES
during my early age of enthusiasm twds mysteries n wonders of d world, i once read abt city of pompeii.bile tgk kt disc chan,i mmg nk sgt2 pegi n see for myself.finally,more than a decade later,wallaa..i was there!it is amazing to noe dat underneath d 9feet (9 ke?) thick volcano ash overlooking d mortifyingly calm Vesuvius,they had 'starbucks',medical center with surgeons,restaurants,modern like laundry,they even had a luxurious communal bath dat offered hot,luke warm n cold bath.like an entire modern hidden subang,how cool is dat!but disturbing la jugak to see d perfectly encased decomposed bodies esp those in their 'awkward' positions.hmm..too bad,geniuses dat practiced MSM rupanya.moral of d story,glory,power n richness can be deadly.

CAPRI
inspired by The Lotus Eater, we decided to head off to Capri Island to end our journey.ecece..wat a romantic way to end our Italian trip.d sceneries i must say,my eyes were glued evrytime we passed d cliff fill with houses.houses plak fill wit lemon n orange trees.bestnyee..unfortunately, like d pakcik cab said those few days were d worse weather everr in Capri.eh, i tot..uncle nih exaggerating tau.but aftr seeing n experiencing d big waves dat welcomed us,smp 2 of our members muntah with style several times,myb btul.so in d end solo swing-like cable car ride cancelled,sunset watching at Faro pon cancelled,even d boat ride through d blue azzura cave pon cancelled.hmm..it's ok.plan die cmni..xdpt g dis yr,g aftr got married la.kl ikut precisely plan someone tu,aftr get married to a rich man n booked d whole vacation villas for d whole honeymooning.

VATICAN
y,we really determined to set our feet in vatican.in 45mins frm roma termini,to vatican,took some pix n sempat took a quick glance at d good quality faked pradas,chanels n LV.aishh..if only i hv more time,more space n more money..then head bck to catch our train to d airport.if we want,we cn mk it was d motto of d day.now,ive seen a state without having to stretch my neck n eyes.noticed afew eyes were watching us with headscarves..b4 blk,i entered a shop which i believed belong to a church man.uish..terasa jugak laa aura soleh abg tu.soft spoken,sweet,nmpk clean n smart.yes..i agree wit u cik lyana,dats how he conveys his religion..
- reached hme at 2am yesterday.i cdnt sleep so i watched "Thank You for Smoking".- "..if you want an easy job,go work for the red cross.."

day 1

2008-03-19T06:54:00.009Z

procastinate.i dun tink there's any chapter on dis in buku teks pendidikan moral.hmm kl ade myb 2 printed pages je.
bcoz of procastination i almost lost my tix back hme yg berharga ehem2 tu.power walk frm CSI to USIT took me less than 10mins.hebat btul!..n bcoz i want to hold longer to my lappie,i xsempat g bank.xsempat cash in some coins.wic means less cash in hands,leads to less things i can bring hme frm italy..hmm name list myb kne evaluate n editing hv to be made.
alhamdulillah MIME dh siap n ready to be submitted.luckily i hv a well-organised partner who kept pushing me throughout d whole process.i dun mind.i luv being pushed if it makes me more efficient.keje cpt siap n i wont misuse my time.marie-claude taught me alot on being a perfectionist n determination, 2 things dat i noe i sumhow inherit frm ibu but got altered by environmental factors.
now i hv 1 1/2 hrs b4 flight to italy.plan seme dh buat.weather forecast kate we'r expecting to a wet,cloudy trip.n ade laa sunshine2 sket.bj ape nk pakai nih?wic jacket?aishh..

- bag overload.does dat mean i NEED to get a new bag in Italy?
- lapar.but cnt eat much.based on experience n bladder,must make sure not to put my 'comfortableness' at risk throughout d whole bus trip.
- brush up some italians last nite.arrivederci!
- ibu.cl ibu!!

ayat2 adhesive

2008-03-16T11:33:00.012Z

chat with ayah d other day.ayah's bro-in-law (yg jumpe 2thn skali je dlu)passed away 3weeks ago.waatt??i tot he's abt d same age as ayah,br early 40's.ayah kate adik ipar ayah tu diabetic.ayah kate sbb kidney failure.hmm..i cn imagine d kidney grossly like d ones in patho museum.my cousins cmne?angah?along?mak ndak ok ke?

ayah pelajaran yg kita dapati ialah badan kita ni hak Allah..kena jaga betul2 mcm kita jg keta kita..
HB haah kn ayah.watch what we eat..
ayah bukan itu saja..akhlak,iman, percakan, keterampilan, dll kita jaga Allah..Allah jaga kita..
HB oo ok
ayah mcmana kita jaga Allah?..jaga amanahnya..badan kita..akal kita..hati kita..pelajran kita dll
ayah pelajaran tu amanah tu ani..(aishh..baikk!!)
ayah lastly nyawa kita..

i copy,paste ayah's every sentence.my dad mmg sgt sesuai jd fassi btn.n (too bad??)dis is one of d few gene bits dat i didnt predominantly copy.it's ok.weee..

NEXT

took dis frm a blog yg sgt cool.well he said he's a cool muslim guy..
Narrated Dirar ibn Murrah (rahimahullah):
Iblis said, “If I am successful in persuading man to do three things, then that will be all I need.”

- To make forget his sins.
- To regard his good deeds as too many.
- To be proud of his opinion.

- hmm..whoopishh!!
- my cuz,nabila got 11A1.ape terer sgt nih??kne cr present la cmni..
- Italy is waiting for me.dis wed!but i dun feel 'teruja'.slalu cmni tau!
- pening nk buat intro2 MIME nih.cape dehh..nid pensil berbulu senyum (:

pau kaya satu?

2008-03-14T22:14:00.007Z

MIME..my project partner,marie-claude described it as "the most devastating subject ever..".well jez listening to her curses dh cukup buat kita rs d severity of hatred n devastated nye manusia2 yg penuhkn comp lab buat MIME d whole day td.Marie-claude, a sarcastically funny,perfectionist french-canadian yg i knal seldom comes out with cursing berela2.side-effect MIME mmg dasyat.

it took us 2-3hrs to key in the data,n dat includes stared blankly at d monitor dgn bunyi cengkerik dlm kepala.marie-claude berkerut2 ditambah muka blurr tanpa ilmu.i apetah lg.my brain cam kne liquefactive necrosis.suddenly dunia statistic yg malap jd terang,muka pale,warm kne sunshine,when God sent us our blonde Spidergirl.Claire Anne,bole dikatakn org tempatan yg plg baik n most sincere yg pnah i jumpe.seriously bole dikatakn...who on earth would come 'on-call' jez to help hopeless MIME-illiterates like us.knowledge yg ada mmg dia curah like Niagara Falls.i yg suka bertanya n bermuka blur nih pon rs xmalu bertanya n tanya lg.dia suka bg encouragement for us to ask more.n she doesnt mind repeating herself 2-3times until we get it right.4 kali i xtau laa.n without hesitation she ran down to d lib jez to find us d book dat she used for stats.tu pon dia kate "sorry if i didnt help much..".aishh manusia ini..no wonder rezeki murah,otak genius.thx alot claire!!tmbh another name dlm list 'd ppl to get italian souvenirs'
rite now jez a few more things to complete..frm 930am until 9pm nonstop in dlm comp suite td(tolak mkn, toilet,pray).i mula2 xpercaya,but im not kidding,xlucu pon..once u start,cm xsabar2 nk bakulsampahkn.true,patience itu beri kepuasan.sumhow i rs nk pat my head (n spine)...i prevailed.

- reward myself wit more extravaganza n afdlin shauki's pensil berbulu senyum.
- i gagal beli tix lg hari ni.
- yesterday's oral..alhamdulillah i think i did alright.soalan snng2.still worried tp.snng sgt sbb..?
- smlm juga En ezal tegur.."ko nmpk lain.nmpak matang..""matang..?""ntah sumhow nmpk mature.."

cape dehh

2008-03-11T09:38:00.011Z

smlm i self-taught..
- there are things we hv to bakulsampahkan for our own good.
- kl ssh sekali mau dibuang,trus gimana?ya,think big step dong..yg penting mau sukses ya,sukses..1 more to go yeah
- dr cox once said "..if u like what u see(as in urself),u never going to succeed.."..but hv to be grateful,bkn ke?
- when we start to dislike a certain person jez bcoz..re-like dat person by thinking how well dat person treated u back then.ga ada yg baiknya??ye mene ketehe..weee
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- 2days ago my mom cl.of coz conversation on pru12.shocking gitu lho.wat a big 6-states-slap on d face to BN.ouch!!
- ibu risau coz hana told her abt my political opinions.eh xde pape la ibu,jez opinions.ur daughter nk jd doctor je.
- hopefully perlembagaan kita still dijaga..agama rasmi,b.melayu,bumiputera etc.
- hopefully there's no more issue on egalitarianism betwn us msians.hmm..yg penting mentality n morality bkn ke?
- hopefully those dat we chose are d ones dat can really standup for d ppl.its time to change.

new pyjama.weee..

2008-03-06T22:03:00.006Z

last nite eventho i was having a headache,sambil tu plak writing2 jez bcoz..cik pulut bkk crite abt her tutor who she refers as manusia hebat.waah..i dgr pon dh amazed.cukup amazed coz jarang dgr manusia hebat.yg bole kite get upclose n personal.for me laa..myb i duduk dlm society yg comfortable.comfortable in mind n in action.got caught up with life smp dunia yg sebesar2 ni jd sekecil radius yg manusia itu berjln.walk frm hme to csi or at most to town.so cerita manusia hebat mmg i gv totally undivided attention.

depends on individual's personal interpretation of manusia hebat.manusia pelik yg kdg2 org refer as 'weirdo' bole jd hebat.i pnah jumpe manusia2 berkategori itu.genius yg suke hafal name setiap train station in msia sbg cth.itu kelebihan bkn ke'weirdo'an.to me manusia hebat is somebody who cn influence d ppl around him/her in d way of thinking,beliefs or even faith.Rasululullah saw adalah sehebat2 manusia,d ultimate hebat ciptaan Allah who was able to influence not jez d ppl ard him but also to infinity of ppl aftr his time.in fact the civilisation dat we enjoy today is d work of influence dat had been inserted by Rasulullah upon our predecessors..like syeikh khalid said today,every muslim is a leader.if someone really follow d teachings and d examples of Rasullulah saw,he can be a leader anytime,anywhere.letakkan cermin besar dpan i.

so kl nk ikut my definition of manusia hebat,my mother is hebat,my sister is hebat,even GOLD achievers in COSWAY direct selling is consider hebat too.ayah pin apetah lg.but its proven in history of mankind,manusia hebat for d wrong purposes,who lead ppl to against fitrah manusia,mmg in d end gone like dust.one of few ppl in this category yg i kagum existencenya is Adolf Hitler,who once Robert G. L. Waite referred as The Psychopathic God in his book of d same title.hani suke tgk documentary film abt him.bkn ape i nk tau d making of d well-known fuhrer in d history of d new civilisation.conclusionnya jgn jd org jahat yg influence ppl n then kill urself,tinggalkn ur followers pening kepala xtau buat ape..example manusia hebat yg baik xterkira byknya.dlm sejarah Islam is enough to melopongkn mulut.i kne mention seme ke?u all pon sure mlas nk dgr.

fever gen.election.ramai btul yg dtg nk influence.i admit i manusia yg snng terinfluence.quote my sis.."..u nih mcm lalang.."..itu last summer.dis summer myb i jd more critical.exposure ok exposure.hee..chatting with my dad mmg xlpas isu2 semasa,msia's current politics yg sgt nauseating.nauseating when listening to manusia2 yg trying to influence d gov(as in d ppl) with uneducated mouth.rs nk melenting bile ade manusia sounding civilised but behaviour tinggal jauh kt rumah or mn2 ntah.true..manusia yg hebat n bijak is someone who has d ability to touch ppl with his actions.bole ke i jd like manusia2 yg tinggalkn meaningful fingerprint on dis world?

i said to my dad with effort to sound mature n civil.."hani support which ever dat is good for d ppl n my country,ayah.."

1 of many manusia2 dat amazed me

-dis is a politic-free zone.
-i shopping dlm condition otak yg kurang sihat td.thx cik pulut,curhat2 odw hme jez now.

post-xm writing.mmg relieving.

2008-03-05T19:03:00.018Z

BF mn yg xterguris hatinya,when his GF is said to hv resemblence with dis bro.u tell me??!-en ashraf@bonbon yg dlu menfitnah diri as abg sepupu cik HB

"..adik,library dh bukak blom?".."erk.."..i dun blame her.i was d new kid in school bck then.n im cute..ketua rumah n belahan jiwa en bonbon...ouh cik hana..jauh tp i jd representative

En peqli.seorg makhluk yg ade ability to kill with his words.join dis club bile terpaksa shj.rite now lbey suke bersingle.i mean..lbey suke tidak berkelab.hee

yess..i dlu 1 of d members of 'd club'.one of d chosen ones.once dis unnamed club was d most socially active club in dublin.meeting almost evry week,sgt chronic social activities smp evry1 mcm xigt blk ke kg masing2 n study.duit abes buat turun naik buseirrean?no hal.4hrs busride to dub rs cm dlm business class je.n ape laa sgt anatomy written paper kl nk compare to d joy of spending time with them,enjoying tubs of haagen daz at stephen green park in spring?study mlm2 laa..*rolling eyes*

yess..to join dis club u hv to be strong.kuat mental n kuat didikan agama.once ur in,there's no way back.time tu u rs btul ke ape yg u buat nih?but aftr some time,no doubt..ur on sirattalmustaqim.org2 berotak bijak kne setup a recognize institution.xknal size,tahap ke'cute'an or ketebalan muka,each member ade resposibility masing2.to protect each other eventho terpaksa menuggu dlm hujan dpn bus station kt dub,ganti2 duty msak evrytime reunion sambil tebal telinga dgr tuan rumah komen potongan sayur xikut sis.piawai.
n kl kelab org bijak lain berkongsi ilmu,opinions abt mslh kemanusiaan n umat,we all berkongsi tekateki,share2 ilmu games n magic,or sometimes deodorant..euww.sharing is caring.usually aktiviti2 normal like watching movies,go for koreans or nasi briyani kt madina sarat dgn curhat2 tanpa segan silu,mengaib each other by digging up 'darkhistory' of d members,stories yg bole menyebabkan malu besar bbrp generations,honest dlm mengkritik,"aku rs ko mmg xbole kawen lg la"..dats honest.tak lupa..benda yg cliche dlm satu2 penubuhan kelab atau institusi,sesi penganugerahan nama,nama yg sgt descriptive...monmon,bonbon,tottot,banban,wonwon..
org luar myb tak terasa.tp hati manusia yg pakai 'nametag' berkenaan siapa yg tau..but like i sed,manusia2 yg terpilih usually they r strong,at least to d outside world.malah tinggi confidencenya.

n evrytime blk msia dis club ade new member.member lame ade yg hilang xangkat phone.biase laa..kl dh jauh frm 'family' mmg lupa diri.
missnya zaman itu..

-i got out frm my room dgn mata berkaca2.jez finished reading AAC.

visualisation.coke zero lg.

2008-03-03T12:15:00.030Z

i went home early.xtgu pon Family Day abes.my head rs heavy.heavy wit tots,heavy bcoz tdo 4hrs je d nite before.hana needed me to listen to her curhat2.Family Day not too bad.best,fun..by seeing all d excited faces,cheering2 team sendiri n team org lain,i pon ikut excited.main futsal,main sudoku,n also try2 rock climbing..but sumhow hati i rs xsebest.oo no no,not bcoz of d activities.i tetibe je rs xbest.internal prob slalunye.hee..alaa..as usual,my mind buat conversation lg with my heart.myb guilty coz i g main foosball instead of main 2nd game,or rs cm mkn byk or myb im jez too sleepy..hmm..org berotak 'bijak'.
i blk,mkn lg,n reached for my laptop.to read or not to read?but i need to distract myself frm dis unknown heavy feeling.need sumthg light.ok laa bace sket laa AAC.skeeett je..nnt dh dpt dat book frm my parcel yg xsmp2 lg,i read it again,ok?(try to smoothen my patience).my patience didnt wait long to melt.melt like mini smarties yg i mkn buat buka 'puasa'.unfortunately i hv to start with d pdf (thx En Jawa bg link.lumayan bgs :) ),coz i'd prefer d book itself.flip page by page,more absorption,more feel.kl pdf nnt tgh2 i bace nk dgr lagu laa ape laa.i need to let go any sorts domestic or internal disturbance.cm bace Quran plak.plg xpon cam baca for patho.conciousness kne ada.

1st page,2nd..i woke up.tertdo atas katil with laptop still on..oo..dh pg 84 ke.dats y org kate,kne tinggalkn katil...n d reading cont until i lose my soul for d 2nd time..i dh tgk trailler.hmm..why Fahri in d movie not as 'strong' as Fahri in words?Fahri dat i draw in my right brain rsnya cm Sahrul Gunawan dlm 'Adam&Hawa' dlu tu..bole x i nk tukar En Hanung?bole laa..i xnk Fedi Nuril as Fahri.Fahri,yg i rs nmpk innocent,soft spoken but nmpk tegas & intelligentnya.is he not??yess,99% of d time,d book is better than d movie.until im done reading,i will not,oo no no,watch d movie.so to help myself visualise,sink deep into d story i cr pix of Al-Azhar,search pix of d blue metro dat Fahri takes evrytime he goes to Shubra for talaqqi,i cari pix of d modern cairo,try to feel d heat of summer in d city of Cairo by sitting in front of my blower.nk tau rs 'ubun-ubun kepala mendidih'..eh..xlaa,sj je,sejuk baca tepi katil...
some parts i baca 2-3kali.not bcoz i didnt get what it says or i xnmpk bcoz of astigmatism melampau,but for someone yg sgt2 shallow ilmu ni,i think i need to read it thoroughly,read as in 'read'.like hana said,intinya kena ambil btul2.smp terkesan..i cpt distracted masalahnye.
as of now,i br smp page 164.uishh..ending dia page 313.but i hv to stop now.at least force myself to.other priority awaits.nk chat with ayah(conversations yg start ngn xms,sesi motivasi,end with topik general election,isu2 corruptions)and hana lg(xms,AAC,curhat2).esok2 la cont,xesok aftr bacte prac...magnetism kne i avoid by turning myself to nonmetal.

-thx fr being there for me sis.always.sebetulnya ur d only one who really understands me.ececece.of coz laa,who else??!ouh also thx for introducing me to dis novel :)

duck on d cupcake

2008-03-01T18:41:00.015Z

COLOURS.each has its own meaning.

-colours can be messy and industrious to make.
-YELLOW.usually ppl associate it with actively fun,joy.they say people with high intellectual favor yellow.a bright yellow painted room may cause hype excitement n conflicts.my room with my twin sis dlu was yellow.n my mom blamed d paint for our constant cat-scratching.dlu..on d road,yellow means GO VERY FAST!..in msia YELLOW means BERSIH.
GREEN.green-eye means jealousy.syurga is decribed as green too.my mom once said "..green kena dgn aura kakak..".dats y i tink my wedding dress hv to hv a hint of green.bole x?bole laa..green bin means recyclables only.in msia..we almost always dun need bins.
-BLUE.mentos,cool,fresh.but my fasi during BTN told me,blue may asso with materialistic.WHITE means pure.but d KU KLUX KLAN wore white to 'purify' their narrow-minded act.
racism,semangat kenegerian,competitiveness,kaste..suddenly exist hand-in-hand with colours..
-colours can be anythg u want it to be.its how you interpret it.green onde2 would look delectable.but a green greasy kue teow?myb u shud hv a look at d kitchen b4 anythg.

-but colours can mix very well and create a whole world of complete harmony n happiness.
-aftr a few of 'ART CLASS FOR ENTHUSIASTIC BEGINNERS'hours later...48 banana n coffee muffins,covered wit diabetic artificial-colored artsy icing,filled with love n evrythg nice..waiting for d bday girl..
HAPPY BDAY KAK ZAI!!

-tiada kaitan dgn threshold mana2 individu :)

HALAL thurs

2008-02-29T15:58:00.013Z

..d day of my patho prac xm.how was it?i quote kate jiran sebelah bilik i.."no comment" (sambil gelak2 besar).b4 i reached hme my mind dh searching for entertainment or any sorts of hedonism dat can sponge out all d tiredness off me body.yess,pusing2 in patho lab 'diagnosing' n smelling d stinging formalin-soaked "abnormal" organs for 1 n haf hrs mmg exhausting.
we ended up went for cik glut-rice's pick,ANAK HALAL at rumah super social's TGV.offering good warm seats,munchies haven downstairs n cost-less.

ok..i for 1 thing abit choosy abt our malay movies.for me,afdlin shauki's,yasmin ahmad's or anythg of similar level are worth watching.anythg ber'genre' typical mushy love story betwn 'mechanic n rich girl,rempit n rich girl' etc with typical 'sembilu-like'script,oo plss no no.but its ok i keep an open mind.ape lg when a known blogger made a 'positive' 2jengkal-length promo on it.i jd curious..

ANAK HALAL.heavy-laden with morals,messages n potray reality of life(they say)
1) rich ppl are bored wit their lives,neglected by families(yes,they dun hv siblings,cousins etc),end up taking drugs,n finally die jump off d roof(aftr chasing fireworks,klcc on d backgrd).wat a waste.
2) poor ppl are jez too happy n comfortable wit their lives.they dun hv to work hard to improve their lives n instead enjoying themselves every single nite.angry when ppl call them 'poor'.they r gud ppl tho.
3) poor ppl hv to borrow money frm ahlongs,sell drugs for education.esp when they hv to go to private college.wat ever happen to scholarships?PTPTN?well dat is if they really want to learn,rite.i guess they NVR heard abt anak cina jual mee got 12As for SPM..."..nenek aku kt kg pon tau nk buat surat bg gov,cari duit seme.."-cik layen
4) a father(a rich one) jez grounded his only child n rather see her intoxicated with drugs instead of sending her to rehab.take note mr director..unconcious person is not d same as a person whos sleeping.i would hv call for help,gv CPR or at least look panic in dat situ.
5) brawling at d market,no police.ppl got shot at in d alley,no police.myb polis jez on-shift during raids in niteclubs,or grab 'org gila'.n sumhow they love to showup at places where u can see KLCC on d bckgrd.
6) DRUG is not good.EDUCATION is important.but i tink if our msian adolescent-teenagers watch dis movie,all they see is action-packed pecah meja or kerusi scenes,d ever so sweet maya karin,hotfoxy lady(wit screetchy voice,oppss),n d significant of KLCC to our tourism country(or myb to mr director)

cik glut rice @ TGV owner-"..Jawa yg promote criter nih..Jawa tu threshold rendah.."
cik layen - "..ahh buang masa tgk crite nih..scene yg ada fasha seme xbest.."
cik HB - "..enuff with reality exposure excuses..REMPIT,KL MENJERIT,ANAK HALAL..tak suka harta benda org rosak.."

we unanimously gv 6 thumbs down with muka pnuh kecewa n decided to make a reply on en Jawa's ANAK HALAL yg berunsur pilihanraya.
so i need to do this.unlike en Jawa,i dun put any posters or pix.i dun want to be cliche n redundant.

-im waiting for habiburrahman el shirazy's AYAT2 CINTA novel frm hme n d movie.

they call me..

2008-02-27T21:23:00.004Z

-..ratu youtube.
-im not bored.im superbored.abes exam i wanna get out of dis blackhole.
-whoever fwd me dis,thx.u succesfully metastasize dis cancerous song to my temporal lobe.i nk sing dis song during my patho prac xm la tmrw.weee..
-no intention.i jez like karaokeing,esp when d beat is dis catchy.

lame-o

2008-02-26T05:30:00.006Z

-"i demand an explaination of these shannanigans.wat do u hv to say?!"
-d previous entry was a mix of boredome,estrogen and senseless tiny strands of my extra jumpy brain nerves.
-passport dh on d table.tix still xbli lg?
-gee tmrw prac patho isit.ouh well another day of 'spelunking' inside my cave.

short-distant call

2008-02-24T13:22:00.035Z

*ringtone MIKA*

HB so wat has been bothering u En Adam?eating disorder?xenuf sleep..smp u call i tgh2 mlm nih?cn u b brief..i nk study laa..
Adam oo kaco u nk study isit.ala,once in awhile.jez need sum1 to talk to.i tink im tinking too much laa cik HB.
HB oo ok..hmm u ade prob wit ur hsemates ke?if u ade soalan patho tanye org lain plss..

Adam hmm..y isit ppl cn be so judgmental eh?ermm not dat im complaining.u pon pnah ckp evry1's different n we hv to accept dat.bt 1thing je i xsuke.judgmental.
HB oo actly i once had gone through dat..but pls..aftr u
Adam i noe..by d way i act,wear sumtimes not wat to some ppl consider as..
HB islamic??eh u mmg clothless kn?hee
Adam fitrah.i ade fur.u xde.so u kne cover up..bt yelaa,kl pon i mcm ni,deep inside mmg i berusaha.u pon pnah bgtau i..evrythg pn bcoz of Allah.between me n Him.but sumtimes..it hurts u noe.they jez see me superficially n "oo ur like dis n like dis..".i noe i br nk blaja.d word usrah itself i br dgr 5yrs bck.dats y i rather kip it unshown.knape?coz smtimes i rs nnt i buat jez to prove to them dat eventho im not a ketua usrah type,but i..
HB oo ok2..i understd.so in conclusion u wanna change,in transition,but those ppl prevent u by 'branding' u.cmtu?
Adam prevent?oo no no..for example la,i xpkai bj but i mmg nk pkai..but im choosy u noe.i want to change but at d same time i want to wear somethg dat suits me.pkai yg smart n lawa kn sunnah nabi jugak.i nnt xrs confident.but dat will lead to miscomprehension..lead to 'zinging' statements..lead to..aishh..hati yg baik,di mulut juga kluar yg baik bkn kah begitu cik HB.lalala..
HB biase laa freudian slip.sumtimes ppl saying witout tinking.niat goood but cara kdg2 tu..ala,u jgn laa cpt terase bro!
Adam hahaha..ye2..hmm i noe.those ppl ard me mmg baik.n want d best for me.ade tu mulut je ala politician kn kn..nothing me'mini-size'kn my niat i hope.i jez nk jd better than yesterday,punye yesterday,punye yester..hopefully consistent.alhamdlillah Allah help me by sending my sis n my hsemates.diorg la jd my sistem piawai skrg ni sbb i mmg stubborn,concrite nye stubborn.
HB aww..gud2.hmm i tink u hv to reflect urself la dear.not their fault to tink dat way.dun wait for ppl to change u.berusaha ye.jgn time exam je ok.eh wheres d mirror?
Adam God willing..eh ok laa cik HB.pnat laa crite.u jez lend ur ears,xpnat.
HB ehh tu je?i br nk crite psal parcel i.its ok later2 i crite.u main jauh2 eh.i nk study..oo face it wit open heart la,smile je.u bknnye cute sgt.aftr all bkn prob besar alam pon.besar blog je rite.
Adam ok.baik!!thx cik HB yg sweet n cute.u mmg best!!

teddypup@En adamfahri.he said he needs my ears.saje laa since i hv d coolest rubbish bin ard kn.sj la tu.

-im waiting for my parcel.ana kate ade surprise.yeayy!!
-bacteriology.tiresome.sleep.but lapar.
-im also waiting for my beloved country to be in safe hands.CLEAN HANDS SAFE LIVES

nk tolak dia

2008-02-21T18:18:00.012Z

i nk tolak dis feeling dlm gaung.gaung kt tepi highway..i nk tarik nafas pjg2..5secs inhalation..let all d oxygenated pleasure ventilate through n perfuse wit peace n complete warmth.cold air makes my chest hurts..dh simpan lame2..exhale wit speed of 20mph..laju ke tu??..jez d rite speed to blow out all d toxic CO2 together with all doubts n nervousness...
at dis moment...i cried,seek refuge to Him.plss..oo..plss forgive me for i hv sin.i am nothing without You(gee i need You to type these).pls give me peace n hidayah.n i leave all my hope,my everythg in Your mercy :)

-i want to eat alot 2nite.xm mmg i mkn byk.so watt??my brain needs all d glucose waat...well at least my hormones-wrecked mood needs it.wreckaged mood?u xperlu risau.different ppl diff approach.org berotak bijak n bersize cute mmg mcm ni.ermm..bijak?aminn..weeee

an artistic illustration of what i think d pathologist would see under light microscope of my 'congested' temporal lobe.i noe,u xperlu buka mulut.beautiful.sheepishly.

RM30 isit.tade haal..

2008-02-17T14:11:00.019Z

congrats to the writers!dis book successfully enlisted in my 'NOW,I WANT IT NOW!' wish-list..En Saharil,i dh promote ur book.buku tu bg free bole?bole laaa...

today i gained indepth(emm..jez 1inch deep i guess) abt tawakal concept.konsep yg sgt2 releven n close to our life but only come to existence in most of us during toubled times.i laa contoh terjauh...
i tink until now i blom ada tawakal bercop gold standard lg.wat more tawakal Nabi Musa AS when he n his followers crossed d parted Red Sea,and oo no no..i absolutely hvnt reached d tawakal of Rasulullah saw when baginda hiding inside a spiderweb-covered small cave.

"kl kita still rasa risau n in doubt lg..maknanya kita blom really2 tawakal lg.." oo yeke kak hanim.oo..hmm..jez now when i kuar rumah i tawakal je time lalu tepi dis 1 big dog,i xnk kne stalk like before.i risau sket je tp coz lalu housing area,hee..anyway,i jez luv dis hadith..

Andainya kamu bertawakkal kepada Allah bersungguh sungguh, nescaya Allah akan memberi rezeki kepada kamu seperti mana burung yang keluar pagi dengan perut kosong dan pulang di waktu senja dengan perut kenyang. H. R Turmidzi
-thx to cik aimi..my worriness decreased by 97%.so now i cud spend more time in my rubbishsphere,weeee..
-ting tong!En Jawa..if ur reading dis,here's a msg frm cik glut-rice berbunyi like this "..ckp ngn jawa kl die ejek ko lg,aku cili mulut die.."-i xsure knape beliau berstatement warning begitu.En Jawa tau sbbnya?

yes..i'm 23.so..??

2008-02-16T14:47:00.022Z

mama "hello?" (buzzing..unclear..smart telecom like malaise snail.bt voip freecall cud save me afew charcoal grill kebabs)
cucu kesygn "aslkum.hello ma!ma dgr x?"
(opening..dgn standard miscellaneous questions between nenenda n cucu kesygn beliau eg.dh mkn blom?blabla)

cucu kesygn "mama,ani xm next wk.mama doakn eh.."
mama "mama slaalu doakn..ape nii..ani kt sn dh ade kwn ani?"
huh??kwn?ramaiiii..u want me to name each of them?

cucu kesygn "haa..kwn ma?!" (an attempt xbersungguh to run,jump n duck away frm d provoking topic by sounding confuse)
mama "kwn..ani xde 'kwn' kat sn?.." (ma,i jez said i hv xms cming up ma..)
cucu kesygn "manade.xde lg la ma.." (my answer since d 17th time i got dis q..myb for d 19th or 20th i wud answer d same.)
"alaa..tau laa ana dh ade!aishh..nnt2 la ma.hee.." (n i tink i heard my uncles n acik on d bckgrd..oo laffing2 ehh.hewhew y now ma?!)
-typical chain-reaction concept.yes..when ur sis or whoever in ur family dh ber'kwn',ur expected to hv 1 too..

mama "alaa..org lame jugak ana tu.xpe,tu seme kite letak tepi.yg penting blaja abes dlu kn..ani jgn risau plak.."
(my eyebrows terangkat 1inch)
i sambut dgn gelak.gelak yg cool,coz my lips cracked.alololo..my mama yg risau tp try cover.
fyi ma,89% of my worries ive channelled to xms,current bank accounts dlm n luar negara,my expanding figures(not money!!),tix blk msia,smokers...

-MY HEART,SOUL N MIND said..rite now i dun want to be more distant frm THE ONE im really2 trying to reach.mn hani nye bullet train ni?
-4yrs braving d winter..my skin doesnt get any thicker pon?!

back hand scratching

2008-02-12T16:42:00.000Z

mari belajar origami!

i want to learn to make this HEART.n kl jd i nk 'factorise' byk2.making hundreds of em.eh byk2?then what do i do wit them?i guess not too many.if i cn make money out of it ok laa.but..industrious!!

haa..i cn send them to paeds.paeds in uchg nids sum 'loving' touch kn.then wat do the children do wit em?ouh yeah,i can teach them to make some origami.but i takut nnt if those kids ask me to make a bird,i come out wit crooked sampan nnt.heh

hmm i tink i want to gv a SUPERLOVELY BIG 1 to sum1 special lah.sum1 yg i LONG admire myb.make it a bloody red 'HEART' n then i'll 'insert'all..my heart-pour sweet-charming-cute-sticky-mushy2-sincere feelings in it.'ouh pls do an ECHO on this,my heart surgeon'..written on d envelope.oh oh..when 'encik heart surgeon' unfolds it,ade 1 tix to see 'National Treasure',wow!!(n of coz i get a tix for myself too)..y dun i make it pop-up heart,and and put it besides a big doublechoc wit big chunky chocchip muffin(top it wit vanilla icecrm to gv it extra melting factor).waa..sounds so yummy i tink i'll eat it myself.weee

-tell me,who can resist dat?definitely when u offer a free movie,no one can!hewhew..
-statement.seriously..dis is jez my mere short 'cheesystring' intervention.kate pon cheesy.
-pre-examstrual syndrome.demi masa.
-d brilliant singer,our own ana raffali.

mood modulator..Kalis Rindu

2008-02-09T09:37:00.000Z

it has been days since we,3 gadis intelligent 'rumah super social',last held our perhimpunan agung.venue..BILIK 2@BILIK HOTT still.i hadirr agak lambat.xpe i noe usually warm-up session dlu.

APPETISER oysters n sesame chicken strips
-"..cousin i...br 8thn..busuk..cannot stand bile die peluk!.."- Gadis 1 with expression muka yg sgt obvious.
-"..bau mcm kambing.."- kata2 honest frm d heart ibu Gadis 2.
-"..jerawat mn ade transmit bile pipi to pipi kissing.." - ayat xprecise but ini yg i digest frm Gadis 3.
Me lazying on d bed.

MAINCOURSE Kung Pao Chicken
-"..e'eh die dah advanced laa..kulit muke dh sekata..."- those r wat Gadis 2 got frm her trip to Dublin recently.
-"..kl nk ikt level handsome die,cam syeikh muszaphar hensem die.." - precise description Gadis 3 of her ustaz at her school.long time ago.
-"..En Abu n cik ciken ckp i kne mandi bunga.."- cerita Gadis 1 wit expressionless n stress-less tone.
Me lazying in front of Gadis 2's PC,reading en Saharil's scribbling.oo bunga is an organ pembiakan.got it.

DESSERT waterchestnut with coconut milk
-"..cool guys manade cmtu.." - Gadis 1 trying to justify her past decision.sheepishly.
-"..love doesnt mean to hv.." - advice penerang hati,eye-opener Gadis 2.

2.45 am.sleepy.

-dis morning i woke up dgn GIGA regret(wic i put aside) n more TOXIC WASTE for my rubbish bin.'rumah super social' bersiap!to rumah kak ina to gv helping hands,legs,eyes..
-who says ppl change.i noe im still 'a 9yr-old encapsulated in a 16yr-old body'.but wit more knowledge,more critical,n more atherosclerotic plaque..be patient my crush.i'll be right by.but u byk sgt fans la.n im a lazybump-deebum-deebum.
-oo dats for en Ram Samsons.

seketuk pintu

2008-02-06T10:20:00.000Z

BILIK 2 @ BILIK SOCIALITES
Pemastautin tetap of dis room tanpa segan silu beliau,meYM afew pix to be'sentenced' by me.doesnt she know dat im very critical n serious wit my writing?but bcoz i hv a strong 'semangat kejiranan',u xperlu melutut.cukup laa dgn masak lemak cili api u,hewhew

sekritikal i wit my writing n baking,kritikal lg beliau abt d straightness of d bedsheet n angle lipatan baju.well,a pix worth a thousand word rite.truth is,im grateful dat dis room is my neighbr.bilik 'always on d go' ni is a clear example of an 'ex-tkc'an.TIDYNESS IS THE ONLY POLICY.but sometimes policy hidup itu diabaikan,at least once a week,aftr laundry or postxm.ok..then y grateful,u ask me?
BILIK 2 slalu menjd penyelamat bilik i.bkn ape,my room,a true undergraduate room,sometimes needs its privacy.n i xsuke bile ada org tumpahkan air or food atas carpet mahal i.like some ppl..so any activity dat involves civilians kg G dlm 'rumah super social',smp our kitchen cum pusat hiburan xmampu accommodate,i bukakan pintu bilik ini dahulu.

unlike BILIK 1@BILIK HOT,dis room is so spacious.living room kl convert jd bilik mmg spacious.if i found my red mini cooper in here,i xterkjut pon.but i dun understd why its owner always berhijrah ke bilik2 lain dlm rumah ini.either beliau mmg sgt ramah or myb ada 'domestic disturbance' dlm bilik tersebut.green teddyfroggy myb?xpela,itu cara hidup org2 social.one more thing,i think owner bilik 2 hv to ask our 'lady mary'(d landlady yg nmpk stress dlm senyuman) to extend her room.myb a few depa more?to fit her passion for shopping.n then beside my room we ask for sauna room.waddaya tink cik layen?

ouh yeah,skrg owner BILIK 2 ada pink mirror.pink,purple..sgt significant dgn character beliau.org possesive mmg suka purple i guess.so no more "hani,nk tgk cermin",hmm less frequent.ahh..rindu :)

-I'M THE LUCKY ONE by anuar zain on d backgrd.stainless-steel heart i cair

dan untuk itu

2008-02-04T19:26:00.000Z

-my 1st ever lemon cake.i noe..u dun hv to say it.perfect!!

-.."hani!!!.."

-"kak aiderr igt tu mmg part of bekas tu.."-excavation still berjln.
-"kl jumpe sudu lg dlm nih xtau laa..."-cik layen
-aahhh..no wonder i xjumpe sudu tersebut.sheepishly

-alhamdulillah.they jez found 1!yeayy!
-n yesss..its a sign.surgery bkn utk i.
-i hope penghuni2 'rumah super social' understd dat dis cake was made under pressure.pressure wit niat to make d best for u guys.awwwww...baik kn i.dan utk itu dearest hsemts,infinity apologies(audible hohoshiaa no 2),hewhew

Diriwayatkan dari Anas bin Malik r.a.: Aku pernah mendengar Rasulullah Saw.
bersabda, "Siapa pun yang ingin memperbanyak rezekinya dan berumur panjang,
harus bersilaturahim dengan sanak kerabat." [3:281-S.A.]
-kat kg G nih,kamu2lah kerabat 'diraja' i :)

makna heaven

2008-02-04T00:15:00.001Z

BILIK SATU @ BILIK HOTTT
when i requested for dis photo frm cik glt-rice,bkn niat i utk jdkn dis room as 'room idol' i, bkn ape..blom cukup layak.n its not even my intention,oo no no jauh skali,to post dis pix to mag 'IMPIANA'..i nk selamatkn air muka tuan punya bilik ni..baik hatinya i.

kl dilihat dr jauh bilik ini nampak tiada keistimewaan,nothing..dilihat dr dekat apetah lg.but menjd rebutan anak2 gadis intelligent dlm 'rumah super social'ni.oo no no bkn rebutan utk diambil jd bilik sendiri ye but utk mendapat 'kerusi' dlm majlis perhimpunan agung.ouh ya,majlis perhimpunan 'rumah super social' is a full hype conference usually attended by d 'high' commitees of d hse.'high' in sugar,'high' volume..sarat dgn perbincangan polemik 'hibernated malays','enlightenment',bergelak2 besar,n berbesar2 diri,hewhew.."diorg mesti kata bdak2 'rumah super social' slalu perasan bagus.."-cik 'glut-rice'

rubbish dis is not

2008-02-03T14:10:00.000Z

-hana said to me on d phone,"ana xkesah if u nk tulis blog ke ape ke but kalau bole biar la anything yg kite buat tu ade kebaikan for us n everyone else.at least la utk kite"..thx for reminding me,sis.

-God,You really love me dont You.yelaa,You know when i need some 'straighten ups' when i dont even know i need it.tiba2 je rolling2 knowledge n reminders yg hani dpt arini.xpayah ssh2 freezing searching outside(thx pulut n pinah coz organize usrah u guys kt umah nih).and sumhow pointing fingers to own batang hidung n hati sendiri,hewhew..

Dari Abu Dzar, Jundub bin Junadah dan Abu Abdul Rahman, Muaz bin Jabal r.a, dari Rasulullah SAW, sabdanya : " Bertaqwalah kepada Allah di mana saja engkau berada. Iringkanlah perbuatan jahat itu dengan perbuatan baik, mudah-mudahan yang baik itu akan memadam yang jahat. Dan berperangai kepada manusia dengan dengan perangai yang bagus. "

-"..don't expect different outcome if the methods are still the same,things won't change until u change it.."-something i got frm "rich dad poor dad"

allaa..bole laa..

2008-02-02T22:13:00.000Z

coincidently..while i was listening to this,my dearest twinsis called frm bck hme..

-dlu time highschool dlu,cikgu kamarudin (cikgu yg agak hot among schoolgirls yg kurang matang time tu) once asked us kt tepi padang sekolah.."kamu nih asyik berdua je,xbole berpisah skejap ke?"..we just smiled.tak puas ati laa tu.

-masuk 5sc1,still together..cikgu hakim,our cikgu sejarah juga meluahkn rasa xpuas hati beliau(dgn gaya bahasa baku beliau) di depan kelas.."saya cukup xpaham.saya dah letak sorg di tepi pintu,sorg di tepi tingkap.tapi (sambil mengangkat dua kertas jawapan sejarah kami,in front of d class!!)bukan sahaja mereka mendpt markah yg sama,kesalahan yg dibuat juga sama.farhana,farhani..kamu berdua kawen la dgn kembar nnt ya"...oo ok,i didnt see any kaitan dat statement dgn markah sejarah i n hana.but thx cikgu hakim,till dis day,dat statement jd bhn cerita for my exclassmts.

-"i kne tgk kain u guys dlu before i tegur,takut terslah org", kata en BardSimpsons, yg once almost got into my shortlisted 'crushes'.waattt?!..tgk kain??time tu hana blom jd prefect.

-my psychiatrist,my fashion doctor,my reminder,my sistem piawai,my idol,my no.1 fan juga,my believer,my mood booster,my diary,my criticizer(yg i really can accept),my 1st rubbish bin,my evrything..sayaaaaaanngggg u sis!!

-bole kan i jd emotional sket.bole laa :)
-ouh yeah cikgu hakim,we cudnt find twins anywhere.and her bf xde twin.

kami tidak mengejar populariti

2008-02-01T21:21:00.000Z

..bahkan populariti yg mengejar kami.."

Last Mon,before dis serious statement was made,we were announced there's gonna be a Ladies Nite's talent show in kg G.waaatt..??!!how come 'rumah super social' in kg G dunno abt dis earlier?..uuu..fear dat we r gonna steal all d lime light meh.its ok guys..i dun mind.bg i yg dh lama living showered by lime light,i dun mind.sharing is caring.

LN on fri..wednesday- br laa we all sat together time dinner dpn tv..n we decided to mk a short movie...storyboard there n then dibuat,maklum laa kami golongan pro.settings were chose.wardrobe disponsor pelbagai high-end labels.dunnes,penneys..even d teddy frog yg jd my co-star in dis production is also a bday present.mmg our intention nk label dis movie as low budget short film.eh no no..mmg xde budget.we dun nid dat for a gud quality film..dgn penggunaan 2 highadvanced digicams,tgn2 yg steady..shooting took us 2 full days n 1 sleepless nite.

I as d main star admit agak snng menghayati role as 'cute blurr girl' in dis movie.mmg synonym wit my soul.but still..aftr scene by scene were taken,i felt exhausted.aahh..i hv to be patient.i kne faham.not every1 in dis production as talented as i am.as flawless as cik 'glut-rice'.kl mcm ini laa pnatnye jd famous superstar,id rather be a doctor.its ok,evry1 may take part,sape pon layak berlakon dgn i dlm rumah ni...

long story short,aftr a few gruelling days of filming wit 'skrip pandai2 buat sindri depan camera',editing(thx cik glut-rice) sambil cursing,finding perfect ost,downloading free sound effects..maka terhasil lah (theme song 'halloween' on d bckgrd)'PENGHUNI ke-6'(title yg i bg)..d story starts when a girl(me) befriended a 'girl'(cik Pink) wit a green teddy frog(ape ntah name die) n dis 'girl' also haunting d other 4 housemembers( cik glut-rice,cik Layen,cik Aiderr,cik Zizi)...suspense,horror..enuf to increase ur adrenaline n heart rate(not suitable for above 30).

The nite of d 'movie premier'...waah,kami mmg dtg ala VVIP,fashionably late eventho ada cab driver.luckily they hvnt started anythg,kami mmg org penting.aishh..hilang confidence i skejap aftr seeing all d other shows.competitions agak sengit..drama masyarakat yg sarat bermoral,dikir barat,miming2 yg cool,concert artist2 tempatan...but 'rumah super social' still rs kami hebat.rasa itu xpernah hilang.begitu juga rasa poyoness n pedeness.ahh watever,as long as we come up wit sumthg,kata hati i yg optimist.whooshh...God knows betapa I nk jd ostrich yg bole lari sprint 100meters n hide its head in d ground,n merahnya muka cik Layen,time our movie being showed..

"ahahaha..eee..takutnya..aahhh..uuu..whoaa ape tu scarryy.."..suara2 audiences yg i dgr frm stairs tmpt i 'hiding'..followed by a loud thunderous applause.terasa shaky sebntar Small Lecture Theater.n dat nite 'rumah super social' got 2nd place,membawa pulang cookies,chips yg berpaket2,1 box of capri-sun..more food supply.mlm itu juga kami plan buat movie lg...cool!!

congrats SNIPERS!! thx for all d hard work n commitments..working wit u guys makes me realize wit jez talents n brain we can do anythg :)

like ayah like daughter

2008-01-30T00:28:00.000Z

Rosli Bujang (1/27/2008 5:56:49 AM): dear ani..how i wish you were here..
Rosli Bujang (1/27/2008 5:58:14 AM): how r u..sihat harapnya..ani tentu dah masuk kelas dah..ayh harap ani dpt terus tekun..fokus..
Rosli Bujang (1/27/2008 5:58:52 AM): berdoalah muga2 tahun 2008 menjanjikan kejayaan cemerlang dalam apa yg ani buat..
Rosli Bujang (1/27/2008 6:00:47 AM): ana tentu dah bagitau ani yg dia datang rmh ayh di ampang..raikan bday ayh, auntie yazlin dll. ramai sedara belah auntie yg datang..pak ngah kat meru dtg gak..majlis meriah bbq dan steamboat..
Rosli Bujang (1/27/2008 6:01:39 AM): i wish u were here to show people of my great beautiful daughters..

-time ni i sat in front of my lappie..invisible..silent...static..xreply..dunno wat to say.but deep in my heart.."hi ayah.how r u doing?ayah nmpk semakin hensem n 'sihat' as usual.anak ayah doing fine.nk xm nih.gee i wish i was there.bbq n steamboat sound sooo gud rite now,heh..nnt when i feel like having a looongg chat wit u,i'll buzz ok.i promise to study hard.insyaAllah.miss u soooo..much(pastu nk letak emoticons 'huggies')"...my dad yg slalu jd my pakar motivasi n forever will be

-td i masuk bilik cik 'glut-rice',oo no no bkn nk bergossip but saje while waiting for my turn,lame btul manusia yg dlm kamar kecil yg 1 nih. "aku xphm laa ape yg ko nk ckp aftr entry minah indon tu"..i hanya tersenyum smbil baring atas katil beliau.well i understd.org yg berotak bijak ssh utk difahami.its ok i paham..

astigmatism melampau

2008-01-29T11:08:00.000Z

Today otak I berjln2 lg.but my 'half charged spongy generator' didn’t go far n dia berjln tanpa kaki bersarung reebok.coz kl dgn kaki slalunya body I akan cr motives n reasons to move all my motivation-less muscles.perlu ada niat…butlers adlh niat. ahh..org lain wont understd.

Adakah otak I terlalu bijak? Thomas Edison pn xpnah mengaku bijak d moment he found electricity. Even d great Einstein pon once mengeluh pnuh regret dgn penemuan E=mc2 beliau. Kl ada contest brain yg plg cpt diverted,mudah tertipu dgn hati yg dominant remote controlkn evry move,always ade konflik dalaman tp tidak se’hot’ konflik2 ahli2 dewan parlimen kita,daya igtan sejauh bertadika umur 5thn,memorizing power enuf to survive 1st 3yrs studying ‘art of healing’…sure,my brain will hold d trophy 3 yrs berturut2 tanpa saingan. ahh..org lain wont ever understd.

Jln yg diambil is to seek the reason why manusia xbole tidak bersangka buruk n making assumptions.dis is not tulisan saje2 witout observations.sometimes assumption yg dibuat secara public membuatkn manusia lain yg mendgr berpnas telinga n berpnas hati.manusia lain itu selalunya I but my mouth lack of drive.malas buka mulut.kl i buka lg pnas hati i.bkn ape,for me bersangka buruk n making assumptions r gud when it involves our safety or when police nk line d suspects.ok example situation yg sesuai....when u r alone waiting for a cab outside ur hse n suddenly a suspicious looking man walk pass u, dgn mata xberkelip2 statik pandang u,n u nmpak he goes straight into a bush at d end of d road,wat is he doing there??..then he comes out frm d bush afew mins later,walking bck twds u…ASSUME dat d guy is not turning bck bcoz he left his key at his hse,or sesat..so adlh sesuai if u run bck to ur hse,kunci pintu...ok..situasi dimana u ASSUME seseorg itu gay,terlibat dlm kegiatan2 berkategori low morals or anythg yg bole drop d water face jez atas dasar rasa hati n experiences U yg xinvolve manusia terbabit,tanpa statement by valid witnesses or witout any cctv video to prove it,I xbole accept.adakah u btl2 knal manusia itu?ye myb manusia terbabit meletakkan body nya dlm situations n surroundings yg mencurigakn,but until he's proven guilty then pls if possible jez keep it inside 'peti besi emas' u.takut kl kluarkn nnt jd fitnah,umpatan,perpindahan sangkaburuk pd org lain,kemarahan Tuhan.xslah if its meant to be a joke.like mengatakn I diet...dats funny.ASSUME somebody is sick also acceptable,diagnose adlh species assumption juga.for d ques ‘why they all xbole stop bersangka buruk?'....yg bole I pk coz I admit sumtimes I pon mke public base-less assumptions..xde topic to talk abt,entertainment yg menghangatkn,mouth quicker than d brain,nk masuk dlm forum discussion,thinking out loud,or org itu berhati keras…

this is wat I tink is right.dis is not tulisan saje2 witout observations.n as i told my hsemates,i write wat i want to write,lame or not,tulisan ini utk i.any1 feel offended,im sorry dehh.jgn claim kt 'sana' ye.

satu tempat

2008-01-28T13:42:00.000Z

womb,tmpt bersemayam,site buruh kasar,pusat socialites,situs exhibition postcards,tmpt pencarian inspirations,bunker,kawasan treasurehunt,tmpt pembuangan rubbish,meja study,meja mkn,meja tidur...

life is all abt adapting.survival of d fittest kn.so cara i utk rs secure,feel belonged is first to feel at hme.xkesah laa i stay dgn makcik irish yg terover friendly ke,or dgn 5 gadis2 yg suke meriahkn dapur sambil bincang topik sarat spt masalah sosial,ketidakstabilan politik n pendidikan di luar negara ireland (ie msia)...dgn hanya berbekalkn meja recycle dari snr n a big feature wall peach colour,enuff for me to build a 'home'.

so dis is home for another 3 yrs.9mths in a yr..9mths ikan n udang dianggap as symbol kekayaan poket,9mths xmerasa stuck in 'jam' more than 1hr,9mths witout mango,rambutan,apetah lg durian eventho they do sell frozen durians in boxes,oo yeah 9 mths witout saying "mamak,milo ais 1,capati 1,cili mau lebih eh.."

yess i tipu.bile i ckp im not hmesick,i tipu.jauh di atas bukit yg panas n tree-less...ditambah dgn comment "dodgy dowh putraheights nih" oleh En Abu frm bandar anggerik semasa kunjugan beliau..atas bukit itu lah heaven on earth agung i.wit my loving family.ouh tmpt2 lain spt kampung i sblh tesco n pusat2 perbelanjaan besar di kl,juga adlh syurga.

alFatihah utk ayahanda kak eka...beliau jez at d next pitstop.odw..

penemuan menarik

2008-01-27T16:19:00.000Z

utusan online..bacaan yg melibatkn lots of emotions n clinical symptoms...worry,frustrated,angry,excite,gelak2 besar,nausea,short of breath,palpation,anxiety..etc.
an example of nauseatic news..

`Saya mesti bertanding’ -Samy Vellu
27/01/2008 5:58pm
KUALA LUMPUR 27 Jan. - Presiden MIC, Datuk Seri S.Samy Vellu berkata, beliau mesti bertanding pada pilihan raya umum akan datang.
Menteri Kerja Raya itu berkata, beliau tidak pernah berasa penat untuk terus berkhidmat kepada rakyat.
“Saya mesti bertanding lagi..kepala (ketua) tidak ada, mana boleh badan (parti) ada lagi,” katanya,

-saya pon 'mesti' bergelak besar dan muntah dgn statement anda,uncle sam

Renungan nasib Melayu
Oleh: DR. SYED ALI TAWFIK AL-ATTAS

Onn menyebut bahawa, “Ada dua tempat orang Melayu hendak bertenggek; pertama, kepada jiran-jiran mereka; kedua, kepada musuh orang Melayu…

-atherosclerotic plaque waiting to rupture..article yg xsanggup i bc bcoz of its 3jengkal length(bt i did finish it) n d painful truth.

theres always a start for evrythg

2008-01-27T05:16:00.000Z

Cn I start my 1st entry wit ‘yesterday’??oo wat d heck..its my blog anyway,n its not like any1 cares.ouh yeah,yesterday..I did sumthg terrible..oo no no,I didn’t sit on disabled ppl’s seat on d bus (n kaki digunakn sepnuhnya in kg G) n nope, I did throw my empty bottle of coke zero in rubbish bin,like all civilized ppl wud do wit theirs.d only thg I did wrong was wearing a navy blue jacket..eh ape slahnye..yeah,ur innocent until u paired it wit a pair of trackpants of same color!hmm cubaan yg sgt baik n snng utk dpt ‘brutally honest comment’ frm fellow msians(encik B-bkn-name-sbnr to be mo specific).but bkn cubaan yg disengajakn but coincidently I nid to do sum groceries b4 a netball game.
takkan la nk matchkn my winter jackets wit d trackpants kn.n all my sweats r resting in peace wit d other laundries,so eventho I noe Id look like mini mc hammer wearing 3inches thick light foundation,I bear it all.wit a quik pray dat I wont stumble on any of my dearest msians.irish??they see n forget.msians??suicidal!!
afew hundreds meters from my house walking side by side wit cik L..suddenly I saw a grp of boys,walking twds us across d road..now my astigs might be berkuasa tinggi,but tau laa if we saw short2 boys,jln slowly ala hiphoppers,snow caps..xslah,benar msians la tu.snap!Friday prayers!!..
”aku igt org indon mn td?!” jeritan dr sekumpln bdk2 ‘noty’ terbabit(suara familiar En B-bns) ,disambut pula dgn gelak spontan berjemaah.waaatttt…??!!!how cn they be so cruel?reflexly I crept to cik L’s other side..try to cover my malar flushed face.urghh..msians lain ade ke.gud xde..tenang skejap but d whole time I was in hypermarket D,I took off my jacket eventho I hv to expose my body to coldness..
sportshall..venue for netball game..venue for our annual IAW prog.i entered alone.jd foreigner skejap,be invisible pttnye but I cant do dat.ssh utk org mcm i.oo netball girls xsmp lg.ok hmm..so I went to d nearest booth,wow..msians selautan..blom sempat I baling jacket,dtg En B-bns.
B-bns “oi minah indon”
HB “erkk..(sori laa,I agak tongue-tied bab2 balas mmbalas nih),ye aku mmg sengaje”(lantas menuding jari pada HARD ROCK JAKARTA printed on my shirt)
En E “..aku xrs sbb tu..”(innocent blurr guy masuk line)
HB “..aku tau..” (gv him ‘jgn msuk cmpur,barge in cmtu je’ look)
Gadis A “kl die indon ko ape..?” (yay!!my wonderwoman is here!!)
B-bns “uishh..main kasar!!”

Waattt…?!main kasar??u sliced my heart like surgery..MAIN KASAR???
oo..en B actly cn be distinguished frm fellow msians by his leather jacket n by his ‘kopi cap kapal layar’ skin.so..i dun expect him to answer ques above.n dunno y I feel guilty for being too hurt n fragile.

Moral of d story….1)if u wanna go for 80’s look..go all out,madonna madness plss..2)dun be hasty on making remarks,cermin dlu br open ur mouth..3) show dat ur mad,dats for me..4)forgive n forget..5)dun stereotype ppl..minah indon like dian sastro nvr wear monotonous outfit..i guess..
Next day..those ppl involved in dat unfortunate events kne attack by my dearest hsemts..hmm..i didn’t say thx coz im not totally ok wit it,n surprised.bro,dun treat me differently aftr dis,jez be mo tactful yeah..girls r still girls