i like green

Demi masa!
Sesungguhnya manusia dalam kerugian,
Kecuali orang-orang yang percaya, dan membuat kerja-kerja kebaikan,
dan saling berwasiat pada yang benar, dan saling berwasiat untuk bersabar.
(103:1-3)


- need prescriptn for my heart n soul.insyaAllah sy cuba lebih baik lg.jgn judge sy dgn ketidakpemergian sy.motivasi masih diperlukn.

refluxology

“Aku merasa ada yang hilang, tanpa tahu apa yang sudah aku temukan.
Aku merasa menemukan tanpa tahu apa yag aku cari dan aku seperti masih mencari tanpa tahu apa yg sudah hilang..- alia in CINTA PERTAMA

complicated (yet hopelessly in love) minds cn be soo romantic.n yet their d ones who seems to suffer or gaining nothing in d end.unless they publish some books or come up with meltedcheesy lines for tear-jerker loveydovey movies..alia alia,knape xjd more grateful.redha je xbole ke.u'd feel much more content n peaceful.Allah je yg tau wats best for us.aisshh..kamuuu ni..



but ibunda kata,honesty is not always d best policy.it is a gud policy,but use it when appropriate..

- tall,fair n gud english ~lalala

i need mentos...yg yellow

sometimes i do think too much.but the outcome usually d sum of everythg gathered by my 5 senses yg hanya berligar dlm radius yg sgt limited.all d "problems" or "issues" yg i slalu "pop up"n mmg pttnya i "pop-up block"kn dgn sumthg yg obvious lebih penting.tp tu laa.im not alone.ianya berlaku di mn2.sila rujuk status YM atau FB.dr masalah kewangan,study..masalah mkn pon ade..but tu laa yg obvious masih yg obvious.eh i bkn nk ckp psal status YM.sorry not my intention.tp..ade mslh tu kite kne rujuk juga..for example msalah loneliness.berlaku bila mn rakan2 anda tiada di rumah tinggalkn anda tanpa jagaan sosial n mental.trying times..i noee..sbbaik anda masih taf..YM and FB masih dihujung jari.maka..hmm ape laa sgt dgn masalah 'kesepian', fill it dgn buat lagu ke..myb bole beat akon's mr's lonely..ooppss..but tu laa,easier said than done.paku serpih btul i ni.but itu yg try to remind myself.tp bgslaa..expressive.but sila bila org tanye eh awk ni knape?pls jgn laa kate xde pape.or u wont understd.nobody will but seme mmg busybody.kisah hidup org lain yg selevel dgn kita adalah "bible" hidup kita juga.boleh berubah mengikut kesesuaian.hmm rs dis topic kne masuk dlm organic bag.well...there r plenty of other things in the world to ponder on than those thoughts we think we shud think.wat else..study la kn.ouh n i think tmrw i nk masak asam pedas salmon.
- ahh..sukenye tgk malique ni.hmm y 'd past' buat hal plak..aishh..dh2

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i called mama to talk abt sumthg but we end up talked abt totally different topic.mama n her impian for my wedding,haihh.."mama tgh kemas2 ni nk naik KL.acik nk buat fam day kt bukit cerakah"(bukit cerakah?)hmm miss d annual fam day.esp kl acik yg organise.miss d cabutan bertuah utk merebut hadiah berupa set tupperware,set non stick pans from warta,frames n stationary sets etc..but before cabutan bertuah mesti ade ari sukan between families (yg i jarang dpt join, jez pt tgk in d fam albums) n mama abah jd judge.abah selaku pengerusi majlis aka pembaca doa @perasmi event jd pemerhati je.cabutan bertuah abah jgk la yg mencabutnya.kl me n hana dpt cabutan bertuah kne boo sbb kononnya mama abah pilih kasih.cucu kesygan nk buat cm mn.kne laa accept.alaa dpt frames je..i mmg slalu xbajet dpt anythg in any lucky draw pon.its ok,selagi hadiah bkn berbtk audi a4 or black rexton,i xkesah..

- proud of farah n deanna who scored 5A's in UPSR.waahh..terer la korg.kne laa kak na kak ni blikn presents.neddy n aisyah..hopefully they do us proud too for PMR rslt tmrw.
- "toot toott..hello aslkm dr fadhilah ke tu?sy puan siti nurbaiyah dr bentong.mcm ni dr..sy diundang ke satu majlis ni yg rs sy ramai laa yg nk pegi.sy pon plan nya nk pegi laa dgn persatuan kawasan sy ni.jd dh plan punya plan..last2 min sy rs sy xdpt pegi laa doktor krn mslh peribadi.mslhnya doktor..sy ssh nk explain knape sy x bole pegi kt kwn2 sy yg dh plan tu.bknnye ape..kl ikut plannya sy perlu ada.bt sy xdpt.mcm mn sy nk break d news doktor?sy rs bersalah n sy takut nnt diorg xdpt terima reason sy yg berunsur selfish ni.tp tu laa sy tak bersedia nk pergi rombongan tu.so datuk rs ape yg sy ptt buat dlm situasi sy ni datuk?"

tadika kristal seksyen 6

- "u see dat helly?dats u flying it".."no its not,dats a girl!" "not its not?okla2 its me then" "yeah its u.." ouh cmon,u pantene hair u..:p
- "draw me a pirate hat...no2..dats not a pirate hat.dats a cowboy hat!!" aishh muaz ni.im trying!!hmm cmne ehh nk draw pirate hat?need sum serious doodling consultation..

im not as taf

- aaa byknye kne buat.a week of anxiety disorder.i'll try to be strong.i love me :)
- hmm i need a BUZZ!! a black buzz!!tun tgh buat ape?
- seminar day!!ishh..seronoknyee jd cikgu!!

netbook n green teas

SIGHH.. today i terpaksa whine.whine yg berharkat pjg.n i regret that whining comes with several curses.astaghfirullah..started when i dh nervous abt my case reports (sukenyee).n dgn nervousness yg bak kate didi.."hmm mlas nk ckp ngn hani dh"..i mule rs hmm xpe ..i cn do it.i dh start dh buat half of 1 of 3 cases.n then tibe2 td bile i nk cont,dgn tenang hatinye i bkk netbook,words..poof..gone..i dunno which land it landed,which rubbish bin it got into, n wic dog ate it..but hilang.sdeynyeeeee..rs mcm..mcm..aaa..weak..sebbaik my sis ade.sebbaik ana remind her mak enon sister to selawat byk2.tk a deep breath.smileee..distract myself from thinking.dun think jez do it.maka aftr afew therapeutic raya songs(seriously it helps!),berbekalkn doa penerang hati,i calm blk.thx ana kesygn beta for comforting me eventho u bz wit xms.org yg berusaha insyaAllah dpt hasil kn ana.anyway, i nk jd nocturnal mlm ni.br byk hasil tangkapan.

- cnt wait for next wkend.but xpe i bole sbar.so pls God.d most merciful..make more time for me :) berusaha2!!

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cik cahcomel askum.konpem dh.tiket blk aku jum dpan,kol 6 bertolak from dublin,then
smp msia 7.10 pg next day.hehe.cuak lak tetibe ;p
cik HB aaaa...serious?!cptnyee!!sdey..!!!
cik cahcomel ko buat laa taebo sengsorang skrg.huhu

- sygnye ngn cik cahcomel.eventho jarang dpt spend time but bile spend time together rs fun je.hmm cik diya-lowtone kate.."kl ko sdey aku yg hsemt die lg terase"...hmm btul jgk.kesian diorg...kesian kitorg cik cahcomel.i hope we'd still keep in touch n never lose our frenship till d end.wish we had spend more time 2gether.aa gonna miss u n ur dishes :(:( gudluck darling!nnt blk jumpe!!
- cnt send her to d airport.aaa..dem u case presentation!!


-sori laa.So7 sgt synonym ngn hidup i.for u cik cahcomel :)

natural look..like cherry..

awww...i jez love cute kids.esp those who cn defies sumone like cox...a straight shooter..gee..mcm nadzmi my 4yo cuz yg sgt la notty itu.hmm miss chatting with him sambil main jig puzzle or badminton.he nvr fail to amaze me with wat cm out frm his mouth..like.."bagaimana perasaan ibu skrg?gembira?" -aftr giving his mom a quick back massage to avoid being 'bash' for tsunami-ing d hse..
aww dun u jez love intelligent cute kids..buuut..plss not d ones with tantrums i cnt handle.well myb anak sndiri ok kot..
hmm mcm mn la mama handle twins mcm kitorg ni dlu.ouh yeah now i rmmber..d treatments me n hana used to get when we still in d phase of 'killing each other' - lock in our room,silent therapy for a few hrs.tv tgk ikut tingkap.n byk kali laa rs selipar.hangers jgn kate,hahaa..kne dera?eh xlaa..mmg kne la kn,kl ikut threshold org biase pon xtahan.

- skrg dh baik dh.like cik pulut ckp aritu,bile dh besar ni,rs lg senyap.ouh yess..u become quieter,compare dlu2,uve reached milestones..if silence is golden pulut,uve make a millionaire by now.

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dis is kuih chang.me,hana n ibu's fav.adlh satu kewajipan for us to find kuih chang evrytime blk melaka.dlu when d pasar tani at d old site,snng nk cr makcik tu.but now since they moved d pasar to another modern building yg ade escalator, ssh plak nk jumpe.mn ntah makcik tu ilang.makcik ilang,kuih chang n nasi gunting pon hilang.ya makanya..kne depand on abah yg slalu successful in finding things dat we want to eat.sayaaaanng abah!!kuih chang ni baba nyonya punye actly.dumpling yg mkn ngn air gula melaka.slalunye kitorg beli smp 2-3 ikat.like mom like daughters mknnye.satu ikat brp ntah.xpnah pk hargenye.hmm kuih koci pon sdap.sedap die dpends on how sweet d inti is.i suke yg crunchy2 sket n xske yg dry.mama's fav too.aunty bedah mmg jd kesygan mama evrytime blk melaka sbb kuih koci laa,ahaha..well kl xde seme tu..makanya, our second fav bfast are usually mcm biase, nasi lemak ngn kangkung goreng yg jarang jumpe kt KL.kl xde jgk??mkn biskut buku keras or biskut hupseng cicah kopi or nescafe pnas..sambil2 tu ade jgk laa lempeng mama ngn sambal ikan bilis,wallaa..kami famili encik ismail adalah keluarga yg sgt bahagia bila time mkn kt rumah mama :)

- haiipp..watch ur sugar,sweet-toothie!!

not totally crap n rubbish

STUFF AND NONSENSE ~ Missy Higgins
Disobey my own decisions
I deserve all your suspicions
First it's yes and then it's no
I dilly dally down to duo
But I've got no secrets that I babble in my sleep
I won't make promises to you that I can't keep
And you know that I love you
Here and now not forever
I can give you the present
I don't know about the future
That's all stuff and nonsense
I once lived for the future
Every day was one day closer
Greener on the other side
Yes I believed before I met you
But I soon learned your love burned brighter than the stars in my eyes
Now I know how and when, I know where and why
And you know that I love you
Here and now not forever
I can give you the present
I don't know about the future
That's all stuff and nonsense

~ tis sweet song i stamp-sealed,with rubber stamp 'HEART' shape ,to cik farah :)
- hmm cudnt find d mp3.dh cr atas bwh dh :s

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today passing by sooo quickly.sila tekan butang slow motion X3.dh la d whole morning sleepy tahap sloth.bj kurung biru berkilat yg i pkai pon xmampu menceriakan diri,xtau laa org lain.walking through csi pon felt different.felt like sumthg missing.miss intan n d others kot ke i miss letterkenny?huahua..but dgn bangganya i survived d whole day without any hormones-asso behaviour.so..yeayy!gud timing,my neurones suddenly terexcited plak tgh2 cardiology seminar jez now.mcm abg zan ckp.. "renjatan!!" yooshh,onurmatgesetgo!!

- its almost 2weeks now dat penghuni Rumah Supersocial 'candle-light dinner' in d kitchen.uuu..kaya tauke lilin nmpknye..so we turn to tv-light n studylamp-light dinner.n kdg2 kitchen-hood light dinner juge..sweet kn :)

waktu yg tepat

Ahad 9 Zulhijjah - HARI ARAFAH,SUNAT MUAKKAD KITA BERPUASA; MAKSUD HADITH RIWAYAT IMAM MUSLIM & IBN HIBBAN DRP HADITH ABU QATADAH BHAWA RASULULLAH BERSABDA ; " BERPUASA PD HARI ASYURA AKAN MENGAKAFARAHKAN DOSA SETHN(SBLMNYA. MANAKALA PUASA HARI ARAFAH AKAN MENGKAFARAHKAN DOSA 2 THN; SETAHUN SEBLMNYA & SETHN SLPSNYA YG AKAN DTG"

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha :)

- myb abit late.but xpe la,nxt yr myb,insyaAllah :)
- lame sgt??ok la ok la..next monday eh.terigt plak en hassan,d chatty kuwaiti,with his questions ala2 syllabus pendidikan islam darjah 3.rs nk percuss je his head.

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im learning to let go.still learning.
- another patah hati song for cik pulut :)
- old song la tp.SO7 ROCKS!! :p

fizik spm : lampu pijar

- ok now THIS makes me longing for it even MORE!!ehh..no no..not dat specky gadget freak guy.the OMNIA!!

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pnat kn bile dgr org mengeluh je.its a lil bit tiring jgk laa.n annoying too kn cik lyana..hmm wat do we get if we keep sighing eh?esp kl in public i.e. ym status,fbook status or wicever means of 'wide broadcastings'..ape eh?serious..ni soalan btul ni..mybeee kite dpt

a) BUZZ! "hi dear,wats wrong?wat happened?"...jom minum
b) kurangkn berat beban yg tersarat..oo no no bkn lemak..problems la..well by sharing ur clouds n pull whoever comes near under ur pitch dark cloud - d more d merrier.n more ppl cn look for ur silver lining .
c) time.a method of buying time.use when ur speechless.out of words.blank.blurr.lack of vocabs - apply aftr a long deafening silence n d cengkeriks start singing during any looongg..conversation.
d) evaluate sape yg concern dlu.not always applicable to guys even to male gobrainers.unfortunately.
e) sounds more interesting n complicated.oo yess..pls mk dat more obvious.we love mysteries!

- im not judging anyone.myb a certain someone.

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hana kate ayah g china last thurs.gee..pegi xbgtau pon.xde la,kl x,bole i pesan baby panda satu.yelaa, ayah br bg 'candy' in pet society.tu je ke?candy for 'roy nakatsu',not for me.huhu..myb im d one who shud put more effort.kot...but bkn dh bg ke num dlu.bg la msg wish ari ry ke (myb tmrw)or tanye "which phone do u want,kakak?samsung omnia?" hmm dat wud be nice..myb nk tunjuk kt atuk nenek yg ayah dh contact kot.walhal..hmm
n then siapa plak dis guy yg panggil my ayah 'ayah'?tibe2 add kt fbook plak tu.shud i ask or shud i not?hmm mlas laa..like i care.bt myb a lil bit curious.xpe la,bgs jgk.more 'frens' for roy,weee..

- sebbaik xde laa hensem sgt.huhu..
- to 'some ppl'..u almost made me jump inside my closet when u said u read my blog.but sebbaik im cool :p now..focus2!!

ash.."sgt laa hanimon"

The coat is inside out,
There is no sun above
Nothing is going good
Since I think of Ghita.
But Ghita's not in town
I asked why he's not around
It seems to me he's gone
He's gone abroad

Hard, I think it's very hard
Want, I don't know what I want
I know that you like me too
Ghita, what is up with you?
Young, come on in or go
Young, tell me yes or no
Ghita, please dont´t anger me
Tell me how your life will be

Ghita,
Tonight I'm waiting at the wicket
Me at the station I bought a ticket
Come to,
But don't come as you did before
As usually with empty hands...
Who else
Will and sing for you as I do
Entire evening just getting there
Ghita,
Show me a girl who's found of you
That loves you more as much as I do...

Ghita, te-astept diseara la portita
Langa portita de la scoala
Vino da numa nu vini cum vii tu
De obicei cu mana goala
Cine te mai asteapta ca si mine
O seara intreaga numai pe tine.
Ghita, arata-mi tu o fata care
Sa te iubeasca asa de tare!

- love d spanish version more..porrrtita
- thx mr c..for dis sweet cute song.sgt sesuai to end my paeds in letterkenny :D

turun bukit

ahh..dh nk blk galway dh?i cnt believe my days in letterkenny wud be over.y?y cnt i jez stay here instead.but kl stay nk stay ngn pulut,didi n diyana jugk.dun want to stay here alone. kl stay cni bole mkn free fish meal wit white wasabi dip evry day.ngn salads yg sgt byk.toast with butter n marmalade n cranberry juice evry morning.aah..miss them when they r free.didi n diyana sure gonna miss d free cereals of all range.ouh n desserts! hmm miss jgk sharing living room wit d girls.myb dh lame single kt galway,its fun to hv some company here.karaoke same2,bkk 'radio' same2,mkn same2 dpn tv,citer2..dh lame xrs cmtu kot.but nnt blk galway rs best jgk sorg2,hmm..
gonna miss d doc res where all d doctors lepaking,dining,n practically living.big screen tv,ensuite rooms,free internets,kitchen,n cafe..wat else cn a doctor needs?
ouh yeah..d gen. hospital!d atmosphere mcm kt hosp besar melaka plak.sgt suke dat surrounding compare ngn uchg yg agak compact n abit stressful.xke?hmm nnt miss jgk my consultant dr macquire n reg,dr osama yg sgt baek hati n eager to teach.smp td osama siap nk bg tutorial bile die nmpk kt doc res.sorryy..i chose tkmaxx instead.tmrw nk blk.ya makanya..huhu..pastu hmm kt galway mn ade long ward rounds in paeds ward yg bole smp 2hrs tu.aaa..rindu2..n mn lg nk dpt clinics yg full with autistic kids yg comel2.ahh...arini plak best sgt2.an autistic girl hugged me at d clinics.time2 nk blk laa kn.aahh..y??n then dat boy wit croup suddenly came to me to say hi in d wards.alaa..i miss their small hands n curly blonde hairs.huhu..hmm tmrw nk g neonatal unit.want to see my twins for d last time :)

- n suddenly on my last day in d clinics i talked to dis girl in northern ire accent.waahh...terigt braveheart plak..eurghh
- aa tmrw blk ke galway yg stress.reminds me of case reports,presentations n seminars..im gonna be alritee

satay-ed

"puluuut,kak ha suh check ni(finger pointed to my nostrils).check aa pulut..hitaam..serious.ahahaha"
"erkk,eh btul la hanii.hitamm!!(smbil menunjukkan kesan hitam pd tissue)eh ko tau x ni sign kl org burnt.uish kite nih dh terbkar hani!" - dat day,our lungs polluted with toxicating CO2,CO.aahh..i need galwaegian fresh air!

"bwh bilik aku je!buatnye meletup..xsempat aku beraya.."

dat sunday morning RUMAH SUPERSOCIAL buat fogging,oo no no no bkn fogging bunuh nyamuk but bunuh org,killing our lungs with carbon yg menyesakkn.d smell of burnt coal filled d air,tp for d 1st few mins,nobody even care to go downstairs n check. i yg bz meng'iron' bj instead of studying jg meng'ignore' baubauan trsebut.it is not uncommon for us to change food to coal.makanya,i tot..well yet another statistics laa kn.smp laa cik pulut barged in dgn muka panik.out frm my room,penglihatan dihadkn dgn asap tebal,dlm blurry2 tu me n cik pulut discovered d source of d smoke.sape yg xtutup grill ni(wasnt me ok)??on marked 6 plak tu.oven empty,kl ade fries ke wedges ke myb lg cpt kitorg bertindak.huhu..

- kagum tgk black suds covering d toilet seat n d sink.sign of burning juge..
- alaa..d video i made xbole upload.huhu
- kitchencabinet makcik mary bertambah cacat.im not totally bothered.