sacred heart

A picture began circulating in November. It should be 'The Picture of the Year,' or perhaps, 'Picture of the Decade.' It won't be. In fact,unless you obtained a copy of the US paper which published it, you probably would never have seen it.

The picture is that of a 21-week-old unborn baby named Samuel Alexander Armas, who is being operated on by surgeon named Joseph Bruner.

The baby was diagnosed with spina bifida and would not survive if removed from his mother's womb. Little Samuel's mother, Julie Armas, is an obstetrics nurse in Atlanta . She knew of Dr. Bruner's remarkable surgical procedure. Practicing at Vanderbilt University Medical Center in Nashville , he performs these special operations while the baby is still in the womb.
During the procedure, the doctor removes the uterus via C-section and makes a small incision to operate on the baby. As Dr.Bruner completed the surgery on Samuel, the little guy reached his tiny, but fully developed hand through the incision and firmly grasped the surgeon's finger.

Dr.Bruner was reported as saying that when his finger was grasped, it was the most emotional moment of his life, and that for an instant during the procedure he was just frozen, totally immobile.

The photograph captures this amazing event with perfect clarity. The editors titled the picture, 'Hand of Hope.' The text explaining the picture begins, 'The tiny hand of 21-week- old fetus Samuel Alexander Armas emerges from the mother's uterus to grasp the finger of Dr. Joseph Bruner as if thanking the doctor for the gift of life.'

Little Samuel's mother said they 'wept for days' when they saw the picture. She said, 'The photo reminds us pregnancy isn't about disability or an illness, it's about a little person.' Samuel was born in perfect health, the operation 100 percent successful.

- one of God's greatest miracles.
- a fren fwd dis to me.sgt2 amazed kn.rs terinspired plak.it's like making a pie inside out.ermm..

sandy is taf

bilakala 'some ppl' membuat langkah drastik towards u either intentional or not but menimbulkn effect kejutan followed by rs yg sgt xbest,adakah anda..

a) membuat obvious facial expression@gestures dat u hate what he/she did eg. frowning with a smirk,kl bole gv d 'THE ROCK' signature frown.

b) impulsively,get out of there n start silent treatment.plg best becomes invisible either in YM or deny his/ger existence for like..forever..until dat ppl got it - hmm..deafening silence.agak sadis..

c) dgn tona annoyed n high pitch..
"heeyy..actually i xbrp xsuke laa ape yg u buat/ckp td.xbrp comfortable.ermm kl bole jgn buat lg bole" - alala..baiknyee..mungkin less effective.
" weh aku serius xsuke laa ngn cara ko.actually not jez me,diorg pon(attack rmai2 myb kurangkn effect guilty).ko mmg ade socialprob eh.plss..if u hv dat prob,do tell me.we cn show u how.." - PBL style.might works!

d) terkjut but simpan dlm hati.pastu buat cool n dgn berlapang hatinye accept dat dat somebody myb xsedar terover react.myb dats how he/she behaves with other ppl.koott..

e) eh xyah laa emo.xpon xnk emo sorg2.tgu smp ade org complaint dlu n br laa kite pon menokok bebankn lg cerita tu.

sadly to say,today wat i did was e)..wic i totally regret it.very much.y am i so weak?lemah!situation yg spttnye cn be ctrlled.hmm i hope ibu's prayers do cme true.in d mean time,jdkn itu as a guideline.
- touched by a fren's advice.insyaAllah i'll rmmber wat u sed.get well soon :)

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- jgn biarkan hani jd org yg lupa pdMu..aminn

sequential

on our 1st on-call attempt.me n didi already planned to follow mr mcquire's on-call last tues.so there we were,2 high-spirited girls,in paeds unit at 6pm,trying to find mr mcquire or anyone frm d team.dgn abit hesitation,i went n asked d nurse bhind d desk.

"excuse me,sorry..ermm is mr mcquire's team on-call today?ermm do u noe where cn we find him?"
nurse yg blom sempat jwb,was cut by dis hindustani looking young man,who was standing beside me all along.SHO kot..Reg?highly unlikely..
"hmm wat yr r u?" he asked,not looking at us.too bz kot smp xde mase nk turn his head n look at us.
" ouh erm we r 5th meds student frm galway.." (who d..?)
" 5th med?wow u asked a funny ques.ur already in 5th meds n u still dont know consultants dont attend on-calls." wit dat smirk on his face..he cont doing his work.."im d poor person u shud be looking for..bla bla.." xpuas hati plak since we didnt try to look for him instead..
" ouh sorry we didnt noe dat.." quickly(rudely) abrupted.." ok..hmm..probbably u cn do some work for me.ouh..no..i dun tink u cn.hmm ok...if u want to follow me for d on-call, answer dis ques..wat is d symptoms of coarctation of aorta?"
" ermm (dem,i noe dis!!), short of breath...". didi.."tachypnoea.." agak lmbt but we were trying to get it right.ouh plss dun blank now..
" faster2...answer me quickly..i want d sign not d symptoms!!" suddenly he raised his voice.aaa...i cnt tink when im being pressured like dat ok.really nk create attention in d ward la kn doc ni.great!!" c'mon2..ok gv gv me d symptoms of heart failure.c'mon faster2.."
"..left heart failure wud be..sob,tachypnoea,tachycardia.." i blurted out..
"dats d sign,i want d symptoms.if u dun get dis right,u wont get to follow me.." arghh..
nurse yg agak terkjut "zaf***,ur being mean.now even im afraid to talk to u.."
dr yg menyebelkn "yeah,now i'm being all scary.." with a grin..grr..
then tibe2 he said he had to go n will cm bck to noe d answer.5mins..10 mins..15mins n going..huhu..sorry,we got better things to do. xkn nk tgu smp syncope plak kn.so willingly we jez followed a nurse to do d BP on a baby...n jln2 sket,look2 ard..n blk..not really dat dissapointed by not seeing him.but i bet he thinks dat we were dat terrified to jez leave d ward.
n today..i saw him in d ward.i saw him looking at us..nk tgu answer ke?meh..cme n ask us again la..cmon,faster2!

- hmm myb my threshold abit on d high side.y didi mcm sgt xpuas hati n i plak yg rs mcm alaa..i jez dun care..mlass,not o-big-a-deal..study2!!
- terigt ibu at d office.hmm..
- jumpe twins kt nenonatal unit..i want twins too!! :p

milestones

cn i be more critical?(like 'some ppl' always said to me..pedentic @ snotty)up until now i still hv no idea wat im looking for in my life.medicine is diff story..it found me.my adhoc ouh-so wat-ques of d day..hmm silap tu.actually its not dat i dunno wat i want but bcoz i want wat i want,i tink probably i shud try evry possible chances dat i consider may lead me to wat i want.wallaa..we nvr noe till we get to noe it rite.so watever comes my way n when i see d possibilities,i sed yeah y not..sila laa..walk myself through d door laa kn.n now instead of getting exactly wat i really dream of since...d last 2 summers,i tink probably i got d oppo.myb not totally but sumhow ade laa loopholes yg agak obvious.i cn either cover it up with black tar n drive over it or reverse n jez take diff route.so how?dh mcm 'the road not taken,sorry i cnt travel both..' dh ni.i dh xnk jd org yg bumped into my ex-admirers dlu2 seeing them walking with their new 'love interest' jez bcoz i was so quick to judge.n being asked..so wic one is ur bf?between ashraf n peqli?wow mmg total mydriasis effect lah..
hmm i slalu kate we hv d right to choose.selagi kite in d right position,be it religiously,morally n lawfully, we hv d right to choose. d world is one's oyster.as long as d oysters r fresh,carpe diem!but wat if i wont get wat i wish for,shud i wait or shud i jez accept wat lies in front?CLEO ni jahat tau.shes d one who taught me nvr settle for second best n nvr lower down ur expectation.or i'll might regret it.hmm feminism.but tu laa..as cik jang said,sbar..nk jumpe org yg memahami ni ssh.ya makanyaa..kl lmbt sori laa :p

- aish..pouring2 while listening to pulut's low tone(less?) rendition of babyface's what if(at least wat i tink it is) maka inilaa hasilnye..
- eh dh thurs,n i'll be going bck for d wkend dis fri.y am i feeling sad?best sgt ke letterkenny?mcm best..

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"Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman."
- Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah (be fearfull of Allah The Almighty) kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan)."
Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk"
- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

- yoga haram ehh?wat d fish??aishh..ayahanda once said kelemahan muslims skrg sbb terlalu melihat Islam dr sudut hati,instead of akal.so think!eceeehh..hmm need more sesi kaunseling with him :s

silent nite

a part of me wants to stay n a part of me is getting sick of evryday malingering. pengabaian tahap kronik atau in denial ni perlukn aggrasive treatment.cthnye menukar tahap keselesaan dr duvet-comfort zone to bone chilling-sleeping bag,free fish meals n roommates yg rajin or nmpk rajin.

- God,can u pls make my brain super absorbent dat sponges evrythg up.jez my brain..i dun want to be a spongebob n work as a frycook.
- n ouh..cn i hv superpower like kaito?...seriously..

feel soo much..

singing it ~

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fell the air
I put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

- one of d songs dat perks me up early in d morning..esp when i powerwalk to csi for morning tutorials,passing through d enable ireland parking lot while usyaing every cars,xf jaguars,BM's..etc..ouh found a new car today..orange suzuki sx4..mucho love it!punya sapa ya?
- faarrr better than exist's HaniLempengHangus..:p
- wat a typical "melodramatic" entry..sigh..i shudve gone to dunnes or argos n get d hse a new kettle..

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last nite's VSA play was brilliant.somewat wish dat i had joined in.bt it's ok,theres always nxt yr...yeah rite..anyhoo,for those who dun noe abt it,it's a play competition between classes.it's like watching several free movies in 1 whole hot warm nite.well actually they charged 5euro per person but me n lyana got away with puppy eyes look n innocent smiles(thx john!)..weee..beesstt,eventho had to crampped on d stairs.didnt expect a full house.love evrythg esp james bond sketch by d 3rd meds,well d winner kn..but not by d zero meds tho.hehee..n i personally lurvee d final meds sketch.good impersonation..ouh eamon u sgt laa best jd d gerflah d great,great job mann!n not to forget suke tgk abg handsome in d final meds photoalbum slide show at d end.irish yg kacakk..hehee..
small change,big changes ayee..i guess i'll start with d..ermm..me bum?!hey u,get of d chair noww!!

- final meds album..rmainye msians yg kawen.how abt our batch?we need a spell breaker(or 2)..anyone??

7 habits 101

waahh..sunday yg best.dgn hanya menolak dan melipat duvet yg comfy n warm,my world became alot brighter.hmm..now i realized evry single time i succesfully pushed away all my lazybummyness,my selfishness n pressing lil bit on d accelerator, i've gain more,ive bcome happier,more productive n content n n ..sunshine n bunnies.kl i mlas n ikut kn kate internet n my single bed ni,i'd probably hv regretted it.hhmm..btullaa,who can tell wats best for us except Allah yg menggerakkn hati..
sports day yg sgt sgt best.sgt best bile bole cheer2 n main2.sgt best main volley dgn skill yg sgt lousy,quote cik sarinah, lebih rendah dr beginner..pon dpt mnng medal,ahaha..n happy bcoz its been soo long seen ive played futsal n basketball,cheering n clapping smp sakit tgn.puasss..ouh n also digging cakes ramai2 n junkfood mcm bdak tadika lpas hari sukan or hari guru..

- thx MSoc..next yr buat sprint ke,rentas desa ke,cycling ke,weee..:):)
- congrats rumah merah for getting 1st place..n million congrats to rumah kuning kebanggaan beta bcoz berjaya jump from 4th place to 3rd.kehadiran anda sgt2 dihargai,hehee..
- thx ain for mencuak n meng'tachycardia'kn i with ur advice for 5th med paeds n ent.seriously i need to set d gear to 4 now.no winter break for me!!!huhu...well thx for ur tips n advices.u shudve precribe me with diazepam as well.huhu
- jawa (while watching me munch cadbury choc) eh hani ko mn bole mkn coklat kn..ko rs brp byk ko dh turun td?....aaaaa

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last week i brought d lazyness,procastination to d lext level.i ignored,i played blind,i jez dun care to bother.n enjoyed doing jez dat.dgn essay yg due on last fri,i purposely listed my name to go to a talk in dublin wic initially hv no intention to watsoever.either bcoz i didn't quite interested in d topic,or succumbed to my guilt for waited until d last week of GP to do d report,or jez plain lazy.but then i tot,well i need to run away from my guilt,do sumthg,get sumthg,then i can push myself to do my work.rather than sitting at hme,chatting,writing,doing evrythg else but study.i hate it!so there i was in dublin,went to d talk with d gals.d talk by dr azam tamimi was abt muslim political thought n practice.hmm it wud be interesting topic to listen to if we were not too sleepy n doze off haf way of it.well blom smp talk tu abes kitorg rmai2 hit d road..walking la actually to d city.shopping witout hesitation n guilt...bt me not really dat excited to shop.1st myb terigtkn all d cashflow during my GP att(cafe food yg mahal plus nk bli exercise machine,weee) n myb happy sgt dpt jumpe ash n syikin..huhu..we talked n talked n 'abusing' each other..mkn icecream,exchange gossips mcm dlu2..god,i miss them..in d end dpt laa sebrg 2 tierack scarves yg canteekk..(:
"so ape citer ko skrg?ko jgn nk sorok2 eh..cpt citer!"then dgn openheartnye i pon bkk citer encik C.tentang sumthg yg i xbole accept.tentang comment syikin yg agak negative when i show him to her.n ttg kegedikan yg i xmampu nk tolerate.wit a sympatic look,ash kate "accept je laa hani.myb tu jodoh ko."...noooooo..i am fickle :s

- jay driving je dlu..i dun want to make d same mistakes.suddenly my brain singing d song 'cinta pertama'..want d best for ourselves.rite hana (:

ya makanyaa..

after abit of struggling with ym calling due to net jakarta yg agak slowmo,too much smog myb, finally i cn hv a looong conversation with hana sambil2 lipat bj n play with my pet,roy.multitasking mmg my talent..hmm kesian ana.

"han,ok x if i get dat iphone?sms best..net..blabla..u tink?"
"hmm best u tink u need it"
"u tgk ni..die bla bla bla *link*. abg tu kate die book for me lg 4 days amik.kl ana bli ana jual my htc n jez add rup4juta." pufff..offline.
online blk aftr a few mins bila mn i tgh do other stuff.attempt to call no.8.still..cnt reach.my chest suddenly rs congested.rs nk burst.aa geramnyee..then got it..
"helo..haa ani so how?shud i?ashraf pon pkai best je.bla3.." - aaa,same repeat ques.
"u ni kn ana..kl u nk bli bli laa.kl ana tanye ani pon bt u rs u nk bli,u bli jgk kn.n u noe better abt ur financial,nnt regret,bla3..bla3..bla3.." - tone yg obviously annoyed."but ana nk tanye ibu dlu laa.nk pinjam duit ibu..bla3.."
"aisshh yeke pinjam..u g la tanye ibu dlu..bla3" - annoyed tone lg
"hmm,u ni kan..xpe laa"
"huh?waat??i ni knape..?" - huhu i noe i was a horriblesnotty monster jez now..
"hmm xde laa.u bc je laa enab nye entry in our blog.nnt u tau laa.how to be a gud listener.bkn sbb u ke ape.(yeah ritee)bt i tink mmg bgs laa kl u,kite bc.ala u tau,yg 7 habits tu.." - ecece..nk promote laa kn blog gcc diorg tu,hee..zuupp..i rs guilty.hmm i bli je dat book bt "nvr" had d time to read it.huhu
"sorry dear i was a bad bad listener.yelaa,ani tgh..rs xbeeest je arini..sorry laa"
- yela tu,tau sndiri la,u mmg not a gud listener :s

habit #5: seek first to understand, then to be understoodby Stephen R. Covey
People tend to filter the information they receive through their own paradigms, reading their autobiography into other people's lives, or projecting their own home movies onto other people's behavior.
When another person is speaking, we usually "listen" at one of four levels: ignoring, pretending, selective listening, or attentive listening. We should be using the fifth, highest form of listening - empathic listening.
Active or reflective listening is skill-based and often insults the speaker.
Empathic listening is listening with intent to understand the other person's frame of reference and feelings. You must listen with your ears, your eyes and your heart.
Empathic listening is a tremendous deposit into the emotional bank account. It's deeply therapeutic and healing because it gives a person "psychological air."

- special thx to enab frm GCC for dis enlightenment :):)