visualisation.coke zero lg.

i went home early.xtgu pon Family Day abes.my head rs heavy.heavy wit tots,heavy bcoz tdo 4hrs je d nite before.hana needed me to listen to her curhat2.Family Day not too bad.best,fun..by seeing all d excited faces,cheering2 team sendiri n team org lain,i pon ikut excited.main futsal,main sudoku,n also try2 rock climbing..but sumhow hati i rs xsebest.oo no no,not bcoz of d activities.i tetibe je rs xbest.internal prob slalunye.hee..alaa..as usual,my mind buat conversation lg with my heart.myb guilty coz i g main foosball instead of main 2nd game,or rs cm mkn byk or myb im jez too sleepy..hmm..org berotak 'bijak'.
i blk,mkn lg,n reached for my laptop.to read or not to read?but i need to distract myself frm dis unknown heavy feeling.need sumthg light.ok laa bace sket laa AAC.skeeett je..nnt dh dpt dat book frm my parcel yg xsmp2 lg,i read it again,ok?(try to smoothen my patience).my patience didnt wait long to melt.melt like mini smarties yg i mkn buat buka 'puasa'.unfortunately i hv to start with d pdf (thx En Jawa bg link.lumayan bgs :) ),coz i'd prefer d book itself.flip page by page,more absorption,more feel.kl pdf nnt tgh2 i bace nk dgr lagu laa ape laa.i need to let go any sorts domestic or internal disturbance.cm bace Quran plak.plg xpon cam baca for patho.conciousness kne ada.

1st page,2nd..i woke up.tertdo atas katil with laptop still on..oo..dh pg 84 ke.dats y org kate,kne tinggalkn katil...n d reading cont until i lose my soul for d 2nd time..i dh tgk trailler.hmm..why Fahri in d movie not as 'strong' as Fahri in words?Fahri dat i draw in my right brain rsnya cm Sahrul Gunawan dlm 'Adam&Hawa' dlu tu..bole x i nk tukar En Hanung?bole laa..i xnk Fedi Nuril as Fahri.Fahri,yg i rs nmpk innocent,soft spoken but nmpk tegas & intelligentnya.is he not??yess,99% of d time,d book is better than d movie.until im done reading,i will not,oo no no,watch d movie.so to help myself visualise,sink deep into d story i cr pix of Al-Azhar,search pix of d blue metro dat Fahri takes evrytime he goes to Shubra for talaqqi,i cari pix of d modern cairo,try to feel d heat of summer in d city of Cairo by sitting in front of my blower.nk tau rs 'ubun-ubun kepala mendidih'..eh..xlaa,sj je,sejuk baca tepi katil...
some parts i baca 2-3kali.not bcoz i didnt get what it says or i xnmpk bcoz of astigmatism melampau,but for someone yg sgt2 shallow ilmu ni,i think i need to read it thoroughly,read as in 'read'.like hana said,intinya kena ambil btul2.smp terkesan..i cpt distracted masalahnye.
as of now,i br smp page 164.uishh..ending dia page 313.but i hv to stop now.at least force myself to.other priority awaits.nk chat with ayah(conversations yg start ngn xms,sesi motivasi,end with topik general election,isu2 corruptions)and hana lg(xms,AAC,curhat2).esok2 la cont,xesok aftr bacte prac...magnetism kne i avoid by turning myself to nonmetal.

-thx fr being there for me sis.always.sebetulnya ur d only one who really understands me.ececece.of coz laa,who else??!ouh also thx for introducing me to dis novel :)